ok so from what i've read around here racing thoughts or i don't know what you would call them is this a symptom of adhd?
my whole life i've described as intense, and i remember once chatting with a friend of mine and i explained to her and my husband that i think all of the time. and i think a lot. they both thought i was being conceited
i wasn't
i had never heard of this idea
i didn't know how to articulate it
what i meant to say:
my head doesn't feel like there's ever a REST. i can't turn it off very well..it is a cascading richochet of sand being whipped up by a relentless wind
at times i've felt burdened by this and i feel like there's so much inside of me that i'm going to burst which i think contributes to my super fast speech/typing etc..
but i can't stop that.
its just the way that i am.
i annoy myself.

meditation is what I use to calm the wild horses of my mind.

My doc has recommended meditation. I've tried and I find that it is not always easy to stay with. It takes time to learn. He has add and finds it to be helpful tool. I also wonder if deep breathing might help.

f_wcomboadhd---
Are you currently taking any meds?
Have you discussed this with your doc----do you have a doc?

Wow,
that was like a poem.
Welcome (for lack of a better term) to the Island of misfits;)
Were all family here and share simular occurrences so make your self at home.

You could have been writing about my mind, its exactly the same. It's funny, the posts I've read that are very much like myself that I would have to click on profile to see when their birthday was, everyone of them including you, were a gemini... I don't find this just coincidental

LOL @ the gemini link..
everyone i've known that dabbles in astrology has remarked at how superlative gemini i am..but not in all respects..
anyway i take, i feel like i should just put this in my signature, perhaps i will:

300 mg wellbutrin
20 mg adderall
5 lexepro

i've tried paxil before and none of these drugs have ever put a dent on the way i think and speak. i don't think there is a 'drug' for it. i just think this is the way that i am.
thanks for listening guys! sometimes i just have to put this stuff out there. i'm an expressive type. if i were i didn't have a verbal orientation i would be spraying graffiti everywhere...

Meditation isn't really that difficult when you have a coach, instructor , teacher or friend to guide you along. It's quite simple. You can meditate sitting down, walking, driving (although not recommended) and while at the desk doing the daily grind.

Problem is we're too hyperactive to sit still enough to begin meditation in the first place. That's when the coaching part comes into play. :-)

and also letting go of thoughts for a sustained amount of time. It really takes practice.....I have been advised to use meditation but I give up quickly.

dude, i just lot my entire post for some reason, i'm angry about that!
i do have a therapist and he is phenomenal...we have the best relationship..unfortunately my stupid insurance company had approved me for visits above and beyond that which they would pay for without me realizing it. especially troublesome-those type of fine print details for ppl with adhd- anyway
i go back to seeing him next year and i've seen him for almost three years i guess, he's my mentor and he is one of the few ppl that understands me so well
we're compatible politically, he can handle my bluntness, my cussing, my intenseness...once i asked if i could have a three hour or all day session with him and i remember him chuckling and saying- you know i would have to take breaks from you right? to rest and drink water etc...i don't know how to explain it- i am so gluttonous for his attention i guess b/c its so hard to find someone like him, it makes me feel desperately lonely- he's highly intelligent, modern even though he's past his fifties, witty and warm. i wish he was my father dammit! (no joke)
i'm fretful about the day that he will retire. i even asked him about that a couple of months ago..and he said he had no plans for awhile.
i feel like such an idiot gushing about my therapist but he's one of the few ppl that i can cry in front of comfortably, we share so many laughs, jokes, he understands me dammit! its such a rarity that someone can handle me full force.
well
i guess he only sees me for one hour stints though....

and also letting go of thoughts for a sustained amount of time. It really takes practice.....I have been advised to use meditation but I give up quickly.
as I stated before people for people like us it's REALLY hard but once in the groove it's rather easy. You MUST have a teacher to guide you.

Before I was diagnosed my Sifu was my therapist, he always knew what to say and what mental excercises to give me to calm me down. That's when I discovered the wonders of meditation. You must have a GOOD teacher though who understands you and your needs. I had studied with other teachers before but none were able to give me what I needed.

Also, I attended meditation classes/workshops which helped trememdously. It's possible just takes practice like all things.

he's highly intelligent, modern even though he's past his fifties, witty and warm.

uuuummm Really? I guess some people over 50 can be like that. :p rotf&lol..... Sounds like a good therapist; sounds like the two of you click.

i wish he was my father dammit! (no joke)

I certainly understand.....and it is not a joke. I have strong positive feelings toward my therapist, although, I know that deep down, I could not fantasize about him as my father----I think that he might be too young for that, but I really don't know his age. I''ve never asked him....maybe I should. :eek:





love your sense of humor and your honesty..... :rolleyes:

Such a positive read f_wcomboadhd sounds like a special gift this great bond you have with your therapist.

I'm wondering if he might be able to suggest a group that you might be mentally stimulated by?

Just a thought, hope you can understand this inattentive ADDer thought, I'm in awe of your racing thoughts...my racing thoughts usually are worry-type/worse case scenarios, not stimulating thoughts like your posts.



[f_wcomboadhd] therapist is phenomenal...we have the best relationship..

i've seen him for almost three years i guess, he's my mentor and he is one of the few ppl that understands me so well
we're compatible politically, he can handle my bluntness, my cussing, my intenseness...

i am so gluttonous for his attention i guess b/c its so hard to find someone like him, it makes me feel desperately lonely- he's highly intelligent, modern even though he's past his fifties, witty and warm. i wish he was my father dammit! (no joke)
i'm fretful about the day that he will retire. i even asked him about that a couple of months ago..and he said he had no plans for awhile.
i feel like such an idiot gushing about my therapist but he's one of the few ppl that i can cry in front of comfortably, we share so many laughs, jokes, he understands me dammit! its such a rarity that someone can handle me full force.
well
i guess he only sees me for one hour stints though....[/QUOTE]

LOL! I am sorry to laugh but it always amazes me when I ask someone what they are thinking and they say nothing. How can anyone be thinking NOTHING? Wow, sometimes I wish my brain would just give it a rest.

To me, racing thoughts is the Sum and Total of what ADHD is.

I feel like some other person has the remote control to my mind, and is channel surfing constantly. Some words in a phrase will lead to another phrase and more words/ideas and so on...
When I was married, I used to drive my exhusband nuts because I couldn't watch any show for more than about 20 minutes. I always felt like there was something more exciting to watch. And those let to more phrases/ideas which led to numerous discussions on everything :) To which he would just get flabbergasted, and clam up-LOL !
Who cares? The only time it bothers me is when I have to attend class, a work seminar, or when I'm trying to sleep. Then I wish I could just take the battery out of that remote and hurl it !

LOL! I am sorry to laugh but it always amazes me when I ask someone what they are thinking and they say nothing. How can anyone be thinking NOTHING? Wow, sometimes I wish my brain would just give it a rest.Have to laugh at this because if I'm asked an opinion, at times I might falter and not be overly responsive (mono-syllabic in fact) when a little while later, what I'm really thinking has finally processed through. I'll think of that and ten more things concurrently, mentally "file" the opinion, and then after the fact, the opinion file gets opened and I'm thinking, why the heck could I have not expressed that earlier?? I also think another reason I sometimes clam up is because I'm afraid of blurting out the wrong thing which I know I've done before. (and still sometimes do) But yes, alas, when you get down to it, if I say "nothing", it's hardly the case-it just means I'm too distracted to focus on that one thing at the time because as usual, all the channels are on!

LOL! I am sorry to laugh but it always amazes me when I ask someone what they are thinking and they say nothing. How can anyone be thinking NOTHING? Wow, sometimes I wish my brain would just give it a rest.
you read my mind! :eek:

I always say .. gosh .. can my mind just go blank once please!! :o lol haha
I am always asking myself the exact question you stated.. " How can anyone be thinking NOTHING?.. wow is my word as well... o yea.

i've said the very same thing to my husband (non adhd) how can you be thinking of NOTHING?
when he asks me "don't you ever just have nothing in your mind?" i look at him like he just spoke dog...
uh NO..he then asked "then why do you say 'nothing' when i ask you what you're thinking?"
me: "i lie, i obviously don't want to share what is going on my head with you. its not nefarious so don't get paranoid. its just hard to explain...and frankly i don't think you would want to hear about whats going on in my head..its like multiple streams of one reality down to the minutiae ...SOCKS!"
they don't get it.

Hi f_wcomboadhd,

Too many things are racing in my mind even as am writing in reply to this thread.

Then there is this habit of analysing everything..like a lense or a two way mirror..analysing thoughts, feelings, people, life, books, movies, God..probing everything that is known and even the unknown..at times it feels that one has a special understanding about life as if one is God special messenger..and yet there is so much emptyness and confusion inside..all this mountaining thoughts amounting to nothing...

and there are other times when just when i need my mind to be sharp..it goes blank..and at times i cant spell even simple as fifty or find my way back to the entrace of the building where i came from...its all weird and frustrating

Them: Paul, what are you thinking?

Me: A bunch of stuff. (I was just thinking about this & that & a couple other things that overlap & are related then it jumped to something else & a few other things most of which I've forgotten now, in fact now that you mention, it reminds me of... what were we saying?)