I don't know if I am alone on this, if it's just me, or if it is ADD related. Sometime when I am at home, or anywhere for that matter, sometimes I just don't want to be spoken to by my family. My family is great, I love them, we are close(though they don't know about my ADD) but sometimes I'd rather just be left alone. I seem to go through phases where I always want to talk to them and I never shut up, and other times I don't even allow them in my room. Are you others like that too? Do you sometimes feel like you can break news or hard, emotional topics like suspecting ADD to them, but other times that would be impossible?? :confused:

1. i like your dancing banana avatar. those are one of my favourite items over at the amb

2. my mum (who is pretty much my whole family who i live with, and i have a sister... no dad) and i have never had a good realtionship, she's an dictative parent who never understood me, and doesnt nkowabout my add. she doesnt believe in add.

while i wish it was easy and i could tell her, she just wouldnt understand, wouldnt believe me, would tell me im just making excuses, and would just be angry.

there's other issues such as i want to ask about my dad (was never around, i dont know him, never saw a photo, dont know a name, dont know a thing about him, he was never mentioned at all). i can't ask. again she will be mad, not understand why i need to know, and there's just not that open relationship where things can be spoken about.

i wont go into detail, but she nver listens. i ask questions she wont answer, just things i dont udnerstand what i want her to explain. even "what do you mean by x" of "why do you keep doing x to me" she wont answer, tells me they are stupid questions, tells me to just "drop it" now and go away.

one of the main phrases apart from "stop crying you stupid baby *hit more hit more hit more* " has been "GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!"

it just hurts.

and because there's no openness for me to ask questions, talk, tell about myself... i will probably never tell her about my add. (this is a big problem when it comes to trying to organize to seek an official diagnosis and some sort of treatment.. i couldnt take any drugs if i needed to- not that its a first option, but i go f***ing nuts sometimes and cant cope with aything at all - for anohter 3 years at least... until i'm moved out of home).

and i had another point to add relating to this, but i dont remember, so im writing that i forgot, so that maybe later when i come bak to this thread, that i will suddenly remember it.


and im having real trouble finding somebody to talk to about this. my add boyfriend is often reluctant to talk about add. he just steers the converstaion away. he really has a lot of issues, and i think its because his parents just tried to control him with ritalin and dex, and they still do that and he's 21. he gets "annoying" for them, and his mum mentions "you should take some pills james" or attributes his silly random gestures, saying, and behaviours "oh thats because he hasnt taken any pills today".

his mum says that and i just want to f***ing HIT HER! its so wrong.

I run in cycles of highs and lows as well. I can talk to my husband or my mother for hours but there are somedays in between were I feel like just not having any contact with anyone. I suppose it may have a lot to do with my mental load at the time.

ADDitives you are free to speak here in the forum with us or in private to myself or another moderator that you trust at anytime.

cherity