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fluffpuffgerbil
12-08-12, 04:12 AM
I'm so frustrated/stressed/whatever right now. =/

My school's proving to be too much for me to handle. It's a college prep

school, second best school in the state, small, I like the people to an extent,

but the work is way too much. I just... am so /stressed/. I can't focus on any

of it, I feel the only thing motivating me to keep doing my homework best I

can is guilt, and no one can help me with anything. I stayed home Thursday,

sick with a bad cold, sore throat/stiff neck/cough and fever and I was better

Friday morning, but still had a low fever, and wanted to stay home, probably

more because of stress/depression towards school than the sickness. I just

had mental fog. I didn't think I'd be able to focus on anything, plus we had a

quiz on a chapter in history I failed to read, and still haven't, and now that

the end of the semester is near, everyone's bloody freaking out and assigning

truckloads of homework! I have to read a bloody biography on Abraham

Lincoln and rewrite the whole thing in one page, read a whole history

chapter(which has been a struggle for me to do already), draw a bloody

poster on photosynthesis for science, and have the thing graded by the rest

of the class, plus do review questions, spanish homework that my teacher

won't put online so I can see it(like she says she will, but she doesn't) and I

don't even know what's going on in geometry anymore aside from a quiz and a test next week in like, every class.

I already have problems with being inattentive, unmotivated, easily stressed(and stress has been the only thing I've been feeling since I STARTED school it seems this year) ,
and I don't know what's goin' on with me mentally, but I guess without health

insurance or a randomly large influx of money(yeah right, that'll happen) I won't know for sure, I can just guess.

And after narrowing down my symptoms, after months the two things that make the most sense are ADD and Aspergers. But I don't have a trained specialist to tell me if I do or not. I have myself, my brain, how I feel, and comparing that to how others with these things act, think, feel, etc.

The worst part about all of this is just that NO ONE can help me. I constantly make it obvious how distressed I am with all of this pressure/stress this bleeding school puts on me, but no one can help me any. I'm so ready to just stop this. I'm only in 10th grade, too. I hate hate hate feeling like this!! :mad:

In one weekend I feel like I have to do more homework than what most of the normal public schools get in a month. I just don't know anymore.. what to do. =/


Edit: Sorry this thing is spaced so oddly. O.o I was trying to make it not look so text-wallish... it obviously didn't work too well...

dbellca82
12-08-12, 07:41 AM
I know it may sound repetitive or you may have heard it before, but if you try & seperate the things you are having problems with that are causing you problems, stress, anxiety etc.. and treat them indivdually, it is much easier to deal with it all. I've been there many times where you are but problem is when you take them all on at once such as you are, it becomes overwhelming, and triggers other negative effects associated such as your anxiety, worrying, stress. etc.. It's hard to do I know, but breaking it down and attacking each one on one will make it seem way less worse than you actually think it is, and allow you to deal with it more effectively. You'll notice too your anxiety and stress will either go way down or away when you actively do this, even once do it & then all the what if's, unknowns and other things will be taken care of which is a good chunk of the problem when they all pile together.

fluffpuffgerbil
12-08-12, 03:07 PM
Thanks, that's actually pretty helpful! No one's ever really told me to approach it like that.

It's when you get your homework assignments /all at once/ and see /everything/ you have to do in three days that kills. I guess if I take it/think about it one subject at a time, things will be a little less stressful

fluffpuffgerbil
12-08-12, 07:21 PM
UGgghh nothing's better. I don't understand my geometry material due to missing the lesson, I don't have access to my Spanish, I'm too unmotivated to even want to THINK about reading some biography or history, which I can't comprehend well anyway, and I'm such a slow reader it takes me forever to read anyway. I really don't want to work on the biology thing and this all just sucks. I can't handle this school, it's too much for me, but I can't go anywhere else. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. My parents can do nothing for me and I feel extremely alone in this right now. I just don't want to try anymore with it. I can't stop crying and it bloody sucks. Highschool is by far the worst thing I've gone through, and it's put so much stress in my life that I swear it's not healthy for me.


I'm having a hard time not seeing everything as whole and it's just too much! I don't know what to do.

dbellca82
12-09-12, 08:08 AM
Never said it was easy, what's easy is letting them all give you an overwhelmed feeling, in which it seems pointless as they're is so much, and then you give up & get upset, get anxiety over this etc.. its a cycle that will continue to repeat itself as long as you let it and how much you let it affect you. Try writing each thing down and ranking by order of importance & then go through to prioritize them and either work on one or two, maybe 3 on/off until you square it away & then move to next one etc.. as they are successfully dealt with all the previous things from the cycle will fade or get less intense as well.

fluffpuffgerbil
12-10-12, 12:47 AM
Aye, it's definitely not easy. =/


But I managed to be able to get everything done today! I'm about to go glue on the last thing I need for my science poster, and I've not read the Lincoln thing, but I skimmed it, and found the stuff I need to write my paper, and I wrote the outline for it.
I read History so I can take the quiz tomorrow and hopefully pass my unit test Tuesday.

I suspect a lot more trouble this next semester, but it looks like I've made it through this one. Only a few days left until break!

dbellca82
12-10-12, 03:35 AM
Aye, it's definitely not easy. =/


But I managed to be able to get everything done today! I'm about to go glue on the last thing I need for my science poster, and I've not read the Lincoln thing, but I skimmed it, and found the stuff I need to write my paper, and I wrote the outline for it.
I read History so I can take the quiz tomorrow and hopefully pass my unit test Tuesday.

I suspect a lot more trouble this next semester, but it looks like I've made it through this one. Only a few days left until break!

See, that's awesome, you did great job & i'm sure you are proud of yourself and makes you feel much better .

Seaweed603
01-04-13, 04:56 PM
Ok, do what I do when I am overly stressed. step back, take a deep breath, then compare what grades you have in each class, and do the work for your class at your own pace, starting from your lowest grade and work from there. what you don't finish, oh well, you worked your *** off. you are only human, not a freaking robot. There comes a time when you have to cut your losses and say screw it.

fluffpuffgerbil
01-04-13, 07:09 PM
Thanks~

I actually talked with the counselor yesterday and talked about all my concerns and mental health stuff and whatever, and there's actually a free student health coverage thing that works through the state of Washington for people with no income.

We're eligable for it, but my dad just needs to let them know that(he sent them a few questions and whatnot) and after that, hopefully I can get medically evaluated(that's what the counselor said was the next step).
For now, I'm doing the best I can, and it seems that coffee in the morning helps me concentrate a bit better. =3

Seaweed603
01-04-13, 08:24 PM
Glad to hear it! I hope everything works out for you!