So anyway, my last thread was supposedly shut because of conflicts between members..anyway..if you guys would still like to continue this discussion, I left off by saying the following:

TOPIC:"ADHD+ADDERALL=NORMAL, then NORMAL PERSON+ADDERALL=HIGH?"....

OK, I understand where you guys are coming from. It's almost like hearing abroken record from some close friend or my parents. You see, in my whole life, I knew that deep down inside, there was somthing empty, or something missing in my life that I could see that other kids had that I didn't. And I say this in true honesty. Even though I had no problems with it when I was young, being rebelious was all about being a teenager..now I'm an adult at 20, and I feel left back, due to my absence in the conformity of the mass...I've realized that in order to function, or more less LIVE, is to suck it up, and do what you have to do to live, regarldess if you like it or not. Aderall made me feel. It made me focus...

Now, when I first took aderall, it was in it's pure explicit/illicit way; snorting it...I only got a sence of focus and speed from it...nothing pyschologically motivating to pursue it as some therapeutic value..but last month, I was cramming for finals, and my friend gave me a 10mg XR tab, and he said that you could only drink it down, because they were beads.. So I did. and when I did, I DID NOT any highs like I did when I first used it..I felt this type of feeling where I felt like, i was myself for once..You see, coming from a drug-abuser's point of view, you only benefit from the highs of substances, but this wasn't the case for me at the moment....I didn't feel guilty (cuz i didn't snort it), yet..I didn't feel high..but, I felt this .."Lightbulb" effect..I felt this focusing, concentrating, at ease, myself type of feel. I wasn't high, but..I was me(!)..thinking everything in my mind, before I said it, which cancelled out impulsivity, yet, focused, and feeling happy about it..would a druggie think like this, yet feel like this?

What I'm trying to say is that...one of the above posts mentioned that if you truely had a.d.d., then the effects of taking adderal would make you feel normal..and if a normal person was to take it, then he would just get a high...tell me what you think...this can be answer to whether or not I jeoperdize my classes by sleeping through them by taking Strattera, or searching for another drug, maybe for Depression like Wellbutrin or Effexor...

I've been wanting to say to you before that last post closed that I am very impressed with your honesty - with us, and with yourself. Even though this place is anonymous, it still takes courage to open up about yourself like you have. And I know how hard it is to be so brutally honest with yourself like you've been, not allowing yourself any excuses for your behaviour, and exposing yourself to backlash from others in an attempt to get help for yourself. I applaud you.
I am very new to ADD so I don't feel qualified to attempt to answer your questions, but I'm not new to living in this world, so I am qualified to comment on your strength.

I would give the Strattera a try. It made me yawn and feel slightly sleepy but I wasn't actually falling asleep at work or anything. There's no telling what, if any, side effects you will have, until you try it.

My doc actually prescribed Wellbutrin in part to counteract the sleepiness, and I find it to be a good combination. Provagil or phentermine are other possibilities. None are abusable, so you really shouldn't even have the urge to abuse them. In fact, for me, Wellbutrin is quite unpleasant if I (accidentally) take more than my prescribed dose. :P

Wellbutrin might be a good compomise - it's a stimulating anti-depressant that helps with substance abuse too - it's the same drug as "Zyban" used to quit smoking - it improves impulse control, etc. You could also take it with the Strattera if it alone didn't work. And the doctor won't think you're going to abuse it. Worth asking about.