It seems if there is anything I have learned about ADD, it is that ADD is not something singular. If ADD were a singular entity, a singular organsim, a singular problem, a singular moment in my day, a singular bad memory, a singular error, a singular moment of brilliance, a singualr ability to see everything and nothing at once, adjustments to this state of being, this state of soul, this state of mental clarity and dicclarity, would be singualry and totally simple.

Ahhhh, but that is a dream, a singular ADD! ADD, if that is what it is, is something greater, not in size or in magnitude, but in its level of dispersion, its level of infusion, its level of disruption, its level of carnation, its level of sophistication, its level of pervasion, its level of creation, its level of frustration, and its level of timeless connection to information in the universe, ADD is not singular.

ADD, even the letters of the disorder mirror it, why are there 2 D's why isnt it enough to say "deficit" or "disorder"? Why must we say "deficit disorder"? Is it because we might not pay "Attention" if its not repeated twice with two pervasive and totally infusive words? And why the missing H, as if ADD really can't make up its mind, do I have an "H" in my identity, or not? Are we the same disorder? The confusion is continuous even in the diagnosis. How many doctors does it take to see ADD, more than it takes to screw in a lightbulb? The confusion continues into the medical community, with some doctors denying the complete existence of ADD, and others swearing that every child with the beauty of childhood energetics needs treatment and is yet another symptom of the ever pervasive and expanding and unlimited "ADD". Where doe s the ADD world end? End? You can't use the word "End" in the same sentence, or even in the same book, with the word "ADD". It doesn't. It never ends; ADD is pervasive, complete, total, infinite, and ever expanding.

Funny thing about ADD, is its current treatment. It can be described as singular, basic, limited, uninspired, finite, mundane, regular, tracable, non-permeable, localized, short-term, realistic, deployable, focalized, pinpointed.

Does anyone find that to be contradictory? Contraindicated? Contravariant? It kinds of reminds me of Elmer Fudd, "DAGBLAST that ADD! I'm going to get dat silly ADD if its the last thing I do!" No matter what, no matter how, I'm going to get that totally pervasive, infinite ADD, and I'm going to do it with this very simple limited and uninspired treatment. Its going to work, because, because, because, because..well, just simply because... it's all the cartoon artists gave me, and I'm Elmer Fudd and I said so.

When will treatment of ADD become a mirror of ADD, multifaceted, infinite, expansive, inspired, complex, permeating, long-term, total?

Thats the day I am looking for, the treatment I desire. I want a treatment that honors my ADD and allows me to use my ADD, and still be on time to all my appointments, know the time of day, get my workload completed, finish my college education, handle my paperwork and pay my bills, remember birthdays, simplify shopping and errands, show love to my family and friends, feel happy on a day to day basis, and love myself.

Thats the treatment I'm searching for. I don't know how it will appear, but it won't be singular. Will I recognize this pervasive answer when I cross its path? In its infinite nature, will I be able to detect it in my environment? Could it be sitting next to me even today? How would I know? What would I ask it? Would it have communication? Is it in my time?

Anything so infinite, would have the ability to be in all times, all universes, all places at once. I have two choices of belief, to believe it exists, or to believe it does not exist; Due to its infinite nature, once it exists, it exists in all planes of reality and surreality; therefore it cannot be heading towards existence. Being an optimist, I choose to believe it exists. Thus, it is without question, in our time, in our place, in our universe. The answer is here and everywhere, at once. It is, therefore, up to us, to detect it. It is here, We must find it.

The answer could be in your thoughts......

.....any thoughts?

i'll think about this... but ive been thinking along similar lines (just not connecting it and mastering words the way you have..)
because its alwasy been my position.... a pill isn't going to fix it, and there isnt anything that removes the 'bad' things of ad(hd) and leaves all the 'good' things.

and the thing is that it's ever changing in indiduals.. yo might go through better years and worse years, i know rigt now im getting seemingly progressively worse... but im still getting by... just so.

and the other thing is that it's different from every individual to another.



i must commend you on your brilliant prose and insightful thoughts.

Thank you for your compliment Additives. I really enjoyed writing this one. It gave me a sense of being playful, but serious, with my very real frustration over the ever-evasive ADD and the eternally uninspired treatment regiments.

Take care, and if you have more thoughts, please share them, because it is very likely to be in our thoughts, the thoughts of ADDers, that the answer is to be found.

Jon

Did you want me to move this to the poetry section? eheh just kidding of course. What a treat. Thanks J

healthwiz!!!
i love ur vocab and the smart use of it especially!!!

it's wonderful stuff that really points the truth in add!!!

Thank you Ischaotic. No, don't bury it in the poetry section. lol

Thank you LaraR. Glad you enjoyed. I'm not sure I know all the words I use, but I figure I might as well use them, no one else does.

Jon

Thank you LaraR. Glad you enjoyed. I'm not sure I know all the words I use, but I figure I might as well use them, no one else does.

Jon
hehehe!!!

that is sooo cute healthwiz!!!(P.S: not hitting on you!!!)-wishin u were a girl;-)

... I want a treatment that honors my ADD and allows me to use my ADD, and still be on time to all my appointments, know the time of day, get my workload completed, finish my college education, handle my paperwork and pay my bills, remember birthdays, simplify shopping and errands, show love to my family and friends, feel happy on a day to day basis, and love myself. .....any thoughts? HealthWiz, That is so beautifully yet clearly written that I am *tempted* to send it to my boss, who, by the way, no longer believes I hate her since I explained about my diagnosis and how it causes me to blurt things out.

I am very old to living with ADD, but very new to the diagnosis and treatment. I can't shake the sense that I'm being squeezed into the wrong shaped container instead of being allowed to spectacularly blossom.
Okay, admittedly, a bit of a delusion of grandeur there. ;)

If you show it to your boss, let me know the result. I am always wary of getting bosses involved, but you already jumped off that cliff and found a parachute. Thats great news!

Glad you liked it.

jon

Healthwiz:

Yes, I think we have to get out of the box about ADD/ADHD. The problem is much more than simply a bunch of different symptoms. In fact, I think getting out of the box is the key to CAPD, ADD/ADHD, ODD, Asperger's, Autism, and all other diagnoses which are under the umbrella of PDD (Pervasive Development Disorder). PDD is a bunch of different diagnoses which all relate to developmental problems. For some reason, those with these diagnoses have gotten stuck somewhere in the developmental process. It turns out that the symptoms for these problems are mostly related to where the person got stuck.

I think that in some cases the person gets stuck in more than one stage. This does not make logical sense for some, because they think that the developmental process is a single linear thread. I think there are multiple threads and we can get stuck at different stages on different threads.

So, what is keeping the children from moving through their developmental stages appropriately? I think I know what it is, but I had to back into it.

I have been working with ADHD children for the last 4 years. The interventions I have been using are to teach rhythmicity (the ability to keep a steady beat). When we measure the rhythmicity of children with ADHD, it is qualitatively different from those who don't have difficulties. After the ADHD children learn rhythmicity (and their numbers become as good as, or better than, those without difficulties), they stop their ADHD symptoms. But along the way, some interesting things happen.

We know that most of the meds prescribed for ADHD children are amphetamines. We understand that something is out-of-whack in these children’s brains and their condition makes these amphetamines not act like amphetamines normally would. They act like a type of depressant, instead. At some point in the rhythmicity training these amphetamines start acting like amphetamines. Something about learning to be rhythmic fixes the out-of-whack condition in their brains. At the same time coordination, focus and attention started improving for these children.

When the PDD condition is severe (such as CAPD or severe hyperactivity), another interesting thing happens. As the rhythmicity training progresses, the children seem to regress for a few days to a very early developmental stage. In one case of ADHD with CAPD, we were working with an 8 y/o boy who could not yet read or write. He had difficulty speaking; he would take more than a minute to say a 6-word sentence. He was not stuttering or stammering; he was stopping after each work and searching for the next word. About halfway through the rhythmicity training program, the boy’s teacher contact me to tell me he was making noises in class. I asked her what kind of noises, and she said, “Aaaaaaaiiiiiiuuuuuuooooooeeee.” Those of you with children will recognize the 5-9 months old developmental stage where children are exploring how their voice box works and how sounds resonate in their chest and in their heads. Within two weeks, the boy was talking smoothly and without hesitation. It seems he needed to revisit an early developmental stage so he could get it right this time. Something about learning rhythmicity released the blockage and now he could move through his stuck stages appropriately. In four months, he was age-appropriate and without symptoms.

These kinds of cases were repeated for me scores of times with different children over the last 4 years. Learning rhythmicity changes the circuits in the brain, and learning rhythmicity unblocks the stuck developmental stage. This happened many times and out of these experiences I developed a model of what is happening for those with PDD (including ADHD).

My model is that for PDD, something is wrong with the timing circuits in the basal ganglia of the brain. When we re-build these timing circuits (teach rhythmicity), behavior improves, symptoms dissolve, development progresses naturally, and the parent’s headaches disappear.

What causes these timing circuits to be faulty? We have seen children born this way (common with premature birth). We have seen children affected by black mold. We have seen children who had trauma from injury, surgery, and illness. We have seen children and adults with TBI. We have seen children for whom no cause was ever discovered. In all these types of cases, rhythmicity training re-built the timing circuits, and symptoms faded away.

So what is the drawback for this intervention? Normally, rhythmicity training takes about 5 of 6 weeks (at 3 days/week). For those with severe cases, it takes longer because it is very difficult for them to make the necessary breakthrough.

Another drawback is that although there is preliminary research showing that this approach works, it will be 25 to 30 years before enough research has been published to overcome the resistance that drug companies will have. They will mount a strong force to maintain their treatment monopoly.

Thanks for the info.

Jon