Hello. I am new too this forum, but I have been watching for some time.

I have all my life struggled with my head, forgetting, consentration, structure+++. And self esteme... In fact I was laying on the sofa a lot of my childhood, youth, until 36. But a good head, empathy, working with children, education in social work.. In 97..Brakedown. too much feeling that I did not cope. Therapy, groupterapy found my only love (in the group), mother died, father died, moving, stress, conflicts, pregnancy, moving, conflicts, ME DADDY, mother angsyity, without borders, I was in school learning pottery, home from 17 in the evening, trying too give her the posibility to rest, but she was not able to, our little gir did not allow her, I was frustrated, stressed, In the middle, and dissapeared. Scool was finished, (80 minutes traveling each way) I was so afrai she leaving me, and she did....One year ago. I cant cope with it Is a good father, but cant cope with all the feelings.

After a long periode of papers, (NORWAY) I am going too start with Conserta, wich is a result that my Doctors beliefe in that I had ADD FROM CHILDHOOD, before our separation.

But the stress and suffering from life the last years, not only suffering, but love, and I am a father, but she left me, I am the VERY good father, but I can not cope....My parents died....What is what no when I am starting with Consert... Anyone else have any experience with such emotional stress, and starting medication? I have to point out that the medication is a result of my doctor accidently identified my problems when she was in a course....Not the life-struggeling...But of course the lifestruggeling and dispare was the main reason that my love dont love me anymore,... I love her.... But I want too stand as a DADDY! I can see the difference between pain and trying out.... Mother can not... And THAT was my frustration during the last monts .... She didnt see me, and I was so frustrated.... I suffer from my suffering.....But how to cope with all the feelings...

It's a long road to rebuilding a life after so much time and damage. It is more complicated as I grow older but at least now I have a diagnosis that has pointed me to many things including meds that have helped.

Meds are a small part of what works for me but they have helped. Mostly I get to blend into the community around me without sticking out like such a sore thumb. I take dextroamphetimine and that's been a big help in that regard.

Building a stronger self image and self esteem has taken much more work. The principles of building up those characteristics are pretty well universal which makes it easy to find the information but the work to get their remains very difficult. It requires so much courage on my part to begin to take steps toward change deep inside. That's what is so good about being here among like minded people. I don't feel alone in my struggle and there are those that have gone before me that have helped me see the pathway a little more clearly.

I run regularly now to get some good cardiovascular exercises four times a week for a half hour or so. I also watch to avoid coffee and too much sugar more often than I ever have. I guess it would be fair to say that my ability to care for myself has been blooming under the calmness that I have taking dextroamphetimine.

I also sit in meditation twice a day which feels foolish most days as I am tremendously inattentive. The results are undeniable and everyone that has to live with me knows when I'm sitting regularly! I'm a much happier man when I am practising letting go of ideas and the clutter in my mind regularly.

I hope you find some help on these forums and that you get to share with us all what works for you and what doesn't so we can all learn from your experience.
Cheers! Ian.