View Full Version : It's been 2 and a half years...

04-12-14, 12:13 AM
Since I visited this forum. I finally took the plunge and decided to go see a psychiatrist. My family doctor recommended I go to be screened for Anxiety, depression, OCD and/or ADD. I go see the psychiatrist and he is this older guy who was like a school principal or something. He was very intimidating for me to talk to. I get easily scared when talking to almost anyone, and this was frightening. He asked me questions about things. I told him my concerns about how I get high anxiety at work because of all the little mistakes I make. I told him how I caused myself to almost total two different cars. I told him how I feel like I'm in a fog almost always and that I pick at my arms and that lately, (within the past few years) I've developed a nasty habit of purging. These are the symptoms I shared with my family doctor and she wrote those notes.
I was already prescribed Celexa but he had me cut that in half and added Buspar. and I've been a freaking mess for the first few days here with it. I go back in two weeks to check in with him. He looked at the notes from my family doctor and asked if I told her that is what I thought I had. I said... no.. haha.

I feel like he's not going to even try to screen me for ADD and I sure as heck can't bring it up because I don't want to get labeled as a drug seeker. It just sucks, I've known for years and years and years that I had issues and I think that is it. I want to get on track so I can go back to school and get my RN degree but I can't do it unless I get this under control. Any advice on how I can move them in the right direction? I want to be a better parent and everything.

I'm going to be seeing a psychologist from that same facility as well, so I'm hoping they can get me to where I need to be.

04-12-14, 07:13 AM
What makes you think you have adhd? From what you have mentioned it sounds an awful lot like some kind of anxiety disorder.

04-12-14, 11:31 AM
I am spacey, always stuck in my head. It's hard for me to listen to people including teachers and whoever might be giving me directions. I can't focus onnight hing like wheniI read a book it takes me a while to get with it and comprehend. My attention is terrible and i have nnothing but unfinished products through my house. I can't hold down a job because of mistakes I make because I'm not focusing on what I'm doing. Yeah I definitely believe I have a anxiety but I feel like it's because I'm not in control or with it for anything I do. I dropped out of college because of not keeping up with work or making it to class on time. I have those same issues with work.

I just feel stupid and feel like I can't do anything like everyone around me can. Now I feel stupid for posting. Maybe you are right. I wrote that last night and should have been sleeping. Thanks for responding.

04-12-14, 12:06 PM
Your post is a good one, no need for feeling stupid. Some of the most important things you'll ever learn will come from asking so-called stupid questions. (I'm a big believer in "The only stupid question is the one you didn't ask".) So... bring it on! Post all of the "stupid" but honest questions you have!

Being spacey, stuck in your head, and unable to listen or focus can come completely from anxiety. So it's important to get your anxiety figured out. You can have anxiety because ADHD is making you screw things up, or you can be spacey and unfocused only because you're anxious, without ADHD, or some of both... OR mis-diagnosed and really working with some third thing, neither anxiety nor ADHD, that you haven't found yet.

04-12-14, 02:36 PM
Welcome back!

I think it's great that you decided to take the plunge! Very brave of you!! See a psychologist who you click with will help a lot! If you don't click with this one, find another one since it's so important to find one who gets you and you feel that you can be helped by.

Good luck!!

04-12-14, 09:01 PM
Ya my knee jerk reaction is that you need to go and find a different pdoc not go back to this jerk off have to be able to confide all sorts of private and scary things to your p doc and you have to be able to trust them ....

.....look on the internet, and check out any reviews of the doc that can be found on places like yelp ....

....when I was trying to find a pdoc a couple of years ago, I had a lot to choose from ....the east bay is heavily populated with lots of pdocs and specialists I had long ago been diagnosed I was looking to find a doc to continue my treatment ....and as I take more than the so called normal amount of adderall, it's important for me to find an open minded doc .... of the first docs I found rubbed me the wrong way and I was almost shaking with anger when I left ....never went back .....

...there are some great docs out there ....people who you can trust with your life ...and there are some real a**h**** .....don't waste your time with someone who isn't on your side ....

...also, it may be that you need to see a therapist/psychologist to diagnose what your problems might be .....they can't proscribe, but the usual way it works is that you are diagnosed by some other kind of mental health professional ...and then you see a psychiatrist for your meds ....those appointments are usually very short after the first visit 20 minutes or so .....

...Some pdocs will diagnose too ....but do some research before you pick a few ...maybe 2, or 3, 4 if need be, and then look for reviews of them ....

I am repeating myself ...