Hi ladies. I kind of feel hopeless tonight. I've tried so many different meds for depression and a couple for ADD and I just can't seem to be able to stay at a positive place. It wasn't until about 2 months ago that I finally saw a psychiatrist and he felt that ADD was a huge factor. Up until that point I had just always thought it was depression.

I've taken almost all the AD's and sometimes get good results for about 6 months. Effexor is the only one that kind of stays beneficial, but it sucks up the small amount of motivation and energy that I do have. My experience with Adderall was so wonderful for a few days but I can't get back to that and it has really bad side affects which make it not worth taking.

I just don't know what to do anymore! My husband has gotten my daughter off to school the past few mornings because I have such a hard time getting up. I can't seem to stay on top of things and this is so depressing. I LOVE my hubby and kids so much but I almost want to run away because I almost feel useless.

I've read some great tips in some of your posts and I've even tried flylady.com but I can never seem to follow through with these things for very long. I feel like I can't even have many friends because my brain just can't keep up with them. I can freak out over dinner because I can't figure out what to make.

My children are 7, 4, and 2. How can I do this? I don't want these precious days to get away from me like this. Sometimes I think it would be all good if we could afford more help but that just isn't the case.

I guess I don't have any wonderful advice, but if I could give you a hug, I would. I have been there and I just want you to know that you're not alone and that you can keep going. You didn't say, but I'm guessing your husband is trying to be supportive since he's taking the kids to school for you. I just want to tell you that you can only live your life one day at a time. I've been getting flylady emails for over a year and I'm still trying to get my sink shined at night. I'm totally overcommitted and buried in deadlines and issues (because I can't say no--surprise) and today I got so badly stuck that I went outside and pulled weeds and washed my car because I needed to see some tangible results--and it made me feel better. When my kids were little (they're 13,13 & 12 now) and I was having a bad day, I would go outside with them and blow bubbles, or draw with sidewalk chalk, or play in the sandbox. Somehow, having done something that made them happy helped at least a little. I know the medication issue is frustrating--I have been fortunate to have pretty good luck with Adderall. I know there are others out there who will have good advice in that area. Just don't give up--tomorrow, just do one thing that you'll enjoy and then feel good about it! I'm pulling for you! :)

Don't give up Sunnyside, we're here with you. On the bad days, try to remember the good ones. I know this is hard for us ADDers, when things are down we tend to figure that is it, the way it will be forever. The good part of this is that when we get the good days, it seems like they will be for always too! :D
Follow your name, keep on the sunnyside of life! (hugs to you)

Hugs to you from San Diego.... Just remember no matter how bad it seems, someone somewhere has it worse. There's always gonna be good days & bad days. If the bad out number the good, call someone for help, a neighbor, family member, or friend. I'm sure they won't mind. Especially if it could effect you rbeautiful kids & how you care for them.

Keep smiling:D

Dont give up sunnyside thats what we are all here for.Im new to this site like a few days ago and it is wonderful here already lots of good people.Thank you all!

Sandra