Orichalcos
04-07-05, 02:32 AM
Hey, everyone...
I'm newly diagnosed with ADHD and my current therapist put me on a trial of Dexamphetamine (the short-lasting tablets) to see how my body and behaviour would react to it due to bad past experiences with other medications such as anti-depressants. I started the medication last Thursday and he told me to begin with a 2.5 Mg dose once in the morning for a couple of days, and then increase it to 5 Mgs once per day until I saw him next.
When I had another appointment with him yesterday, I told him that the medication went down well, and I had noticed a lot of vast improvements with behaviour for the hours in which it was effective.
But at the moment, I have a few concerns about the Dexamphetamine tablets. Because I haven't really lived a normal life and felt like a 'normal' person should for as far back as I can remember, I don't know what 'normal' really is, if that makes sense. I mean, I feel all right when I'm on it; I'm not irritated or angry, and I feel that my concentration and motivation for personal work and chores is a lot better than what it used to be. But I'm twenty-four and my ADHD symptoms have affected the way I've lived my life. While this disorder hadn't come to my attention until now, I've been unfit for study and work ever since I completed home-school.
For about the first four days after I took the two 2.5 Mg doses and two 5 Mg doses, I felt like I've never felt before; what I'd consider to be 'normal'. I was so pleased that I could do things immediately, remember instructions, multitask without becoming frustrated by doing too many things at once, and being able to answer the phone without feeling anxious or forgetting what was said in the conversation if I had to take a message for someone. Even my motivation for actually wanting to start work was there when it has never been around before (lack of self-confidence)! I've been without that feeling for so long that it made me thrilled that something finally works for me.
The problem is now that I've been on it for that week's trial, I wonder how I'll detect if the dose I'm on is correct for me? I noticed a big difference to start off with, and now I'm not noticing it as much as I used to. I don't know if it's because I've become accustomed to the effects of the Dexamphetamine after that week so I wouldn't notice it, or whether or not I need to trial a higher dose of medication? It's hard to base it on because I can't work right now, and that's where you need most of your concentration and motivation.
I saw the therapist yesterday, and now that the 'reaction' trial is over, he's increased my dose to 5 Mg in the morning (8:00 AM) and another 2.5 Mg dose in the afternoon (12:00 PM). He said that if I find that doesn't work as well, to take a 5 Mg tablet in the morning and in the afternoon as well, but I cannot exceed a dose of two 5 Mg Dexamphetamine tablets per day. I'm short and thin, and he said that I may suffer bad side-effects if I exceed that dose because of how I'm built.
The real thing that bothers me the most about the Dexamphetamine and this dose limit is when I come down off of it. I find the ADHD symptoms come back (which I knew would happen), and then I feel really negative about the treatment. Because the medication works while I'm on it, I feel it doubly-so when I'm not on it. I seem worse, but I know it'll be because these symptoms will be magnified against how the medication makes me function.
Also when it wears off, it can make me really tired and irritable, and because the tablets are the short-acting ones and I'm now on a 'dose' trial, I'm stuck with it for the rest of the day.
So let's see, I wake up at 8:00 AM, have breakfast, and then take my medication straight after. I need another dose at lunchtime which can only be 2.5 Mgs (or a 5 Mg tablet if I skip the late afternoon one), and then I can take another 2.5 Mg dose at around 4:00 PM. What happens if I want to be out late on weekends, though, and I need more? I hate this limit, and I'm worried about what will happen if I do need to increase it eventually or even now. I know that for me, 2.5 Mgs isn't as effective now as 5 Mgs of Dexamphetamine.
I know it's a matter of trialling different doses, except as I said, he's given me a limit to work with which makes that a bit hard. I really need some advice about the questions I've asked because I don't know what else to do. He won't be available for another appointment next week, so I'm stuck with these concerns until around the 20th of April.
Help. :(
I'm newly diagnosed with ADHD and my current therapist put me on a trial of Dexamphetamine (the short-lasting tablets) to see how my body and behaviour would react to it due to bad past experiences with other medications such as anti-depressants. I started the medication last Thursday and he told me to begin with a 2.5 Mg dose once in the morning for a couple of days, and then increase it to 5 Mgs once per day until I saw him next.
When I had another appointment with him yesterday, I told him that the medication went down well, and I had noticed a lot of vast improvements with behaviour for the hours in which it was effective.
But at the moment, I have a few concerns about the Dexamphetamine tablets. Because I haven't really lived a normal life and felt like a 'normal' person should for as far back as I can remember, I don't know what 'normal' really is, if that makes sense. I mean, I feel all right when I'm on it; I'm not irritated or angry, and I feel that my concentration and motivation for personal work and chores is a lot better than what it used to be. But I'm twenty-four and my ADHD symptoms have affected the way I've lived my life. While this disorder hadn't come to my attention until now, I've been unfit for study and work ever since I completed home-school.
For about the first four days after I took the two 2.5 Mg doses and two 5 Mg doses, I felt like I've never felt before; what I'd consider to be 'normal'. I was so pleased that I could do things immediately, remember instructions, multitask without becoming frustrated by doing too many things at once, and being able to answer the phone without feeling anxious or forgetting what was said in the conversation if I had to take a message for someone. Even my motivation for actually wanting to start work was there when it has never been around before (lack of self-confidence)! I've been without that feeling for so long that it made me thrilled that something finally works for me.
The problem is now that I've been on it for that week's trial, I wonder how I'll detect if the dose I'm on is correct for me? I noticed a big difference to start off with, and now I'm not noticing it as much as I used to. I don't know if it's because I've become accustomed to the effects of the Dexamphetamine after that week so I wouldn't notice it, or whether or not I need to trial a higher dose of medication? It's hard to base it on because I can't work right now, and that's where you need most of your concentration and motivation.
I saw the therapist yesterday, and now that the 'reaction' trial is over, he's increased my dose to 5 Mg in the morning (8:00 AM) and another 2.5 Mg dose in the afternoon (12:00 PM). He said that if I find that doesn't work as well, to take a 5 Mg tablet in the morning and in the afternoon as well, but I cannot exceed a dose of two 5 Mg Dexamphetamine tablets per day. I'm short and thin, and he said that I may suffer bad side-effects if I exceed that dose because of how I'm built.
The real thing that bothers me the most about the Dexamphetamine and this dose limit is when I come down off of it. I find the ADHD symptoms come back (which I knew would happen), and then I feel really negative about the treatment. Because the medication works while I'm on it, I feel it doubly-so when I'm not on it. I seem worse, but I know it'll be because these symptoms will be magnified against how the medication makes me function.
Also when it wears off, it can make me really tired and irritable, and because the tablets are the short-acting ones and I'm now on a 'dose' trial, I'm stuck with it for the rest of the day.
So let's see, I wake up at 8:00 AM, have breakfast, and then take my medication straight after. I need another dose at lunchtime which can only be 2.5 Mgs (or a 5 Mg tablet if I skip the late afternoon one), and then I can take another 2.5 Mg dose at around 4:00 PM. What happens if I want to be out late on weekends, though, and I need more? I hate this limit, and I'm worried about what will happen if I do need to increase it eventually or even now. I know that for me, 2.5 Mgs isn't as effective now as 5 Mgs of Dexamphetamine.
I know it's a matter of trialling different doses, except as I said, he's given me a limit to work with which makes that a bit hard. I really need some advice about the questions I've asked because I don't know what else to do. He won't be available for another appointment next week, so I'm stuck with these concerns until around the 20th of April.
Help. :(