View Full Version : Does anyone else cut?


wwww789
11-09-14, 06:26 AM
I go through long periods of depression, and sometimes it becomes too much, and I just get the urge to cut myself across the arm. It gives me a few moments of happiness, and I sometimes feel like it's worth it, but I know it completely isn't. I cut myself too deeply once and had to be taking into the hospital for stitches, which was a definite sign to me that I had to stop.

I've tried a few things, like the classic 'butterfly' technique, or hitting my wrist repeatedly with an elastic band in an attempt to still get pain without the risk, but nothing has really worked, and I now find myself still cutting, just trying to make sure to only leave little cuts, as opposed to anything too deep.

I was just hoping to see if anyone else does this, and to try and dissuade anyone who may be thinking of it.

Fuzzy12
11-09-14, 08:34 AM
I used to in my late teens and early twenties, a long time ago. I don't do it anymore. Back then, as you said, it provided momentary relief but it's not worth having to run around with ugly scars and looking like a freak for the rest of your life.

I didn't even recognise it as depression back then. Now, I'd definitely encourage anyone who cuts to seek professional help.

Laserbeak
11-09-14, 01:47 PM
Self-injurious habits are problems that are truly beyond the scope of whatever help you can get on a website community forum. I would very strongly suggest you get professional help from a psychiatrist or perhaps even hospitalization as soon as possible.

midnightstar
11-09-14, 02:20 PM
I used to and still sometimes get the urge, it's best to seek professional help than rely on a forum for all the help :grouphug:

TygerSan
11-09-14, 04:21 PM
I don't cut, but I do self injure on occasion. You're definitely not alone, especially here on this forum. It is something worth mentioning to your psych if you see one. (I know that it's really hard to talk about, but it's better to talk about it than to not)

daveddd
11-09-14, 04:26 PM
i bite my thumbs till i break the skin

bad form of emo reg

wwww789
11-09-14, 04:45 PM
I've noticed that a few of you have been concerned that I seem to be only seeking help from people online, but I do see a psychiatrist about this stuff, and I have once stayed in a psychiatric ward for a few days, so please don't worry. I merely wanted to talk about this with some people who may have gone through the same thing.

finallyfound10
11-09-14, 05:14 PM
@ wwww789 Glad to see that you are seeing someone! I haven't self-harmed but I was very, very tempted when I just couldn't find a way to express myself at my lowest point of depression, anxiety, shame and self-hate.

I'm not sure why I didn't but the fact that I didn't self-harm didn't make me feel any better. What I mean is that the issue isn't to self-harm or not, to numb oneself with alcohol, drugs, porn, shopping, eating or not, those are just the symptoms of the real issue(s) that are on the inside and need to be dealt with.

peripatetic
11-09-14, 05:51 PM
I've noticed that a few of you have been concerned that I seem to be only seeking help from people online, but I do see a psychiatrist about this stuff, and I have once stayed in a psychiatric ward for a few days, so please don't worry. I merely wanted to talk about this with some people who may have gone through the same thing.

that's completely reasonable and certainly what we're here for :)

i'm glad you've joined and are getting in person help and online support. i think it's healthy not to just shove problems under wraps and to talk about what's happening, online and off.

best to you and welcome to the forums!

TXJK14
11-09-14, 05:58 PM
I went through a period of cutting in my first marriage. My best friend pulled me out of it and made me promise to stop. Of course I found other vices, nothing that was horrible for my health. So you're definitely not alone in the cutting world.

Fuzzy12
11-10-14, 07:16 AM
I've noticed that a few of you have been concerned that I seem to be only seeking help from people online, but I do see a psychiatrist about this stuff, and I have once stayed in a psychiatric ward for a few days, so please don't worry. I merely wanted to talk about this with some people who may have gone through the same thing.

Talk away. :)

I think, it's very brave (and sensible) of you to discuss it with your psychiatrist. It's quite important, I think, but I tend to downplay it (with health professionals, with others I just lie about it).

I've never heard of the butterfly technique. What's that?

wwww789
11-10-14, 07:25 AM
I've never heard of the butterfly technique. What's that?

The way I understand, it's basically where you draw a butterfly on your wrist whenever start to get the cutting urges. You try and make sure that you don't cut in the duration that it stays on your wrist and if you do, it 'dies'. It didn't work for me, but I can see it working for others.

midnightstar
11-10-14, 07:31 AM
Talk away. :)

I think, it's very brave (and sensible) of you to discuss it with your psychiatrist. It's quite important, I think, but I tend to downplay it (with health professionals, with others I just lie about it).

I've never heard of the butterfly technique. What's that?

The butterfly technique is where you draw a butterfly on yourself where you injure yourself and it's meant to represent someone who loves you :) If you injure yourself the butterfly dies but if you avoid injuring yourself it lives :) You're not allowed to wash it off, it has to fade on it's own :):grouphug:

TygerSan
11-10-14, 08:33 AM
Hmm on the butterfly technique. For me, that would make things worse not better. I self injure when my emotions get out of control, usually when I know I'm headed towards a meltdown that's going to hurt the ones I love.

Since I already feel, intensely, that I'm hurting and letting people down, I think the butterfly would just add to the intense shame and anger towards myself, rather than serving any kind of personal reminder.

That said I know that I've said before on this forum that the types of urges I get seem to more align with those SI urges that occur in autism and other developmental disabilities rather than the more extensive literature on cutting.

I never feel numb, instead I feel overwhelmed. I don't get a rush so much as relief. I'm definitely not addicted to it, in fact I hate that i do it with a passion and I never feel good afterwards. It's really, really compulsive (I say compulsive vs impulsive because I am able to have a modicum of control, but like a tic, there is definitely an urge).