I sit here weeping to myself. Sometimes the tears I shed are the only for me to see. I try to hide my solitude with a faint smile of what once was the person I am. They say it will get better. My only question is when?

Time. The answer all give. What is the right amount of time to heal from scars of pain. When will the hole in my heart start to mend itself? Answers to questions I may never know. Maybe my questions will be answered, maybe they won't. It can only get better when the only company you have is the shadow of your tears.

Once the shadows are gone, it is just Me against the world. Its hard to let people know what your are feeling when tears seem to blur the image of your fate. What is fate? Is it and emotion? Is it feeling? Or is it really predetermaned? Can it just be the that we need something to make our lives meaningfull. If so, I would love to meet the one who wrote my path.

What would I say to the creator of my destiny? Would I be bitter? Would I lash out in anger? Or would I be happy that so many obtsacles have been put in my path? They say it makes you stonger as a person. Would I offer my hand to my creator or would they offer me a hand to lift me up from this hole that has been dug for me. I wonder if my hands would be to moist from wiping my constant tears of sorrow.

One day I may know the answers to my questions. For I have many. Qustions for Father Time, Mother Nature, and even God himself. I ask and seem to get none. But can my questions ever be truly answered? And if they were, would I accept them? It puts me back into my loneliness. It is hard when the only company you have is the shadow of your tears. I wish my tears could smile.

thkpaul, please know that each one of us, in our own way, will sit quietly, silently with you, behind the shadow of your tears, our tears, to create shared tears.

While, I have not known your exact pain or your personal experience, somehow through our own pain, we can understand.

And time is so hard to define. Yet somehow the shadows do lift and the tears stop for a moment at least. Time can be terrible and yet it can be a gift. Such a mixed blessing...

Your words are powerful. Thank you for sharing.

Look within you at the very face of God who breathed life into you in the very beginning. He'll provide all you need. It can be really hard to see, but don't give up trying.

Dear shadow,I have been where you are and it is very lonely when you feel so empty inside.I have found if you can first fill yourself up with your love.To truely love your self and also God.You can not be truely alone.If you splash water on your face and love your self and lift your self and place a smile on your face you won't feel so alone if you really learn to love the true you and then when you are ready and strong you will be ready to give to the world.When you are in the relationship give some but not all of your self.Do something special for your self like join a weight lose group or a mens or ladies group and go to it go your self and take time only for your self a few hour a day a few hours a week and keep that in mind when you are adding other relationships to your side.You will feel whole and allow you friends time for themself to grow and heal.With you and your maker by youside you can never be truely alone.Be happy with your self that is the key to conquering loneliness.Lift your heart up --Scorpioleo1970

Dear lonely Heart
Yes keep god in your life and ask him questions frequently and use his love to guide you.Keep your head up and keep smiling you will see the rewards as other return them to you. Scorpioleo1970

To Keeping up the Strength in our lives,
I have recently been through relationship problems and that seems to be alot that I am stuck on these days also being unemployed having to do career reestablishing and I have to move out of my hose and home soon.Things will be better in my life soon as these storms pass.I did get relined up with the love of my life so God is still on my side and I thank him evey day when little storms past and pray he gets me through some of the other ones soon. My daughter and I dealing with ADHD. She is 7 and I am 34 and been in her shoes at her age but she is also is an only child and feels lonely when she can't go and play with the neighbors kids but I pray for her and I to get through these hard times together ans we give each other lots of hugs to get us through them-Scorpioleo1970

Thkpaul,
I can relate so much to your pain, it's like you have " dreams, hope, etc." ,but the world seems to crush them so easily within an instance. It is my belief that all of us have a desirable fate, but only those who are willing to truely believe in our selves, and willing to endure the obstacles presented can reach their true potential. It is so natural to be scared, so easy to give up, so tempting to give in to your pain, but if you dig deep down their is a tiny voice that is still telling you to keep going, keep dreaming, and most importantly to keep believing. Follow this voice, don't listen to any other voice degrading you, create postive images to replace the negative ones, and you will sucseed in your goals.

If you still feel stuck I advise you to go to my thread under " genral ADD", entitled " I got the meds...I got the help.... I feel stuck.

Also, when you have free time go to a book store and by the book " The Alchemist," it is a truely spectacular book, exspessially in times of trouble.

I hope I have been able to help you in some way!!

We have the same b- day!!