thkpaul
04-29-05, 04:00 PM
Obsession in a funny thing. To many it is a term misunderstood and looked over. To some it is a popular fragrance by Calvin Klein, to others it is a speedbump in life. Some of us deal with obsession every day, whether its a squirt or an overpowering feeling of need.
By an overpowering need? What could that possibly mean to the untrained eye? You ever been driving down the road and felt you had to go into a store? or you had to wash your hands repeatedly? Maybe you just simply have to have something in a certain place or turned a certain way. To have all thoughts focused on one thing that is impossible to escape from. To many it is simply to hard to understand. What drives this force and urge that is impossible to ignore?
I like to describe this as a Christams tree that has just had its lights turned on. The warm feeling of joy that creeps up into your body filling you up with need. The need to do particular things in a particular way. Who turns these lights on? Where does it come from? Even when you have accompished your obsession it usually isn't what you expected. The earth didn't move when you have finished. It still rotates slowly as can be.
Its hard to tackle some of these obsessions in life. People say, what were you thinking? Whats wrong with you? How did you get like that? The brain is an untapped resource of knowledge and feeling that even the most educated people on the planet can't answer questions about. Speculation has a right side and a left side, for artistic and technical know how. Funny how most are onesided in beliefs and opinions especially when the problem isn't there's.
When we walk a path of meandering ways it is easy to get lost. There are no road signs or maps inside our heads. Noone in there to help us along the way in our journey. We just have our own ponderings of either fortune or misfortune to deal with. Its hard not to obsess about those thoughts as well. Wouldn't it be nice if we had a switch to turn off our brain just for a few moments of peace. The tranquility of having nothing to think about at all, even for a few seconds.
My words are not of wisdom or know-how, just words trying to anwers questions we have all asked that have dealt with obsessions. Is there a road to recovery? Is there anything to recover from? Turning your obsessions into a possitive may be the only answer. Brightsides are overlooked from time to time really. Learning different things you obsess about is a gift that people don't understand.
What have you learned that most people don't care to or are simply to lazy to do? Maybe your hands are cleaner that the rest? Or if you can't step on a crack, well, then you never have to worry about breaking your mothers back. I do not mock these obsession, I live with it everyday as you do. I sit hear writing this and thinking to myself, its ironic that some people with obsession just smell good.
By an overpowering need? What could that possibly mean to the untrained eye? You ever been driving down the road and felt you had to go into a store? or you had to wash your hands repeatedly? Maybe you just simply have to have something in a certain place or turned a certain way. To have all thoughts focused on one thing that is impossible to escape from. To many it is simply to hard to understand. What drives this force and urge that is impossible to ignore?
I like to describe this as a Christams tree that has just had its lights turned on. The warm feeling of joy that creeps up into your body filling you up with need. The need to do particular things in a particular way. Who turns these lights on? Where does it come from? Even when you have accompished your obsession it usually isn't what you expected. The earth didn't move when you have finished. It still rotates slowly as can be.
Its hard to tackle some of these obsessions in life. People say, what were you thinking? Whats wrong with you? How did you get like that? The brain is an untapped resource of knowledge and feeling that even the most educated people on the planet can't answer questions about. Speculation has a right side and a left side, for artistic and technical know how. Funny how most are onesided in beliefs and opinions especially when the problem isn't there's.
When we walk a path of meandering ways it is easy to get lost. There are no road signs or maps inside our heads. Noone in there to help us along the way in our journey. We just have our own ponderings of either fortune or misfortune to deal with. Its hard not to obsess about those thoughts as well. Wouldn't it be nice if we had a switch to turn off our brain just for a few moments of peace. The tranquility of having nothing to think about at all, even for a few seconds.
My words are not of wisdom or know-how, just words trying to anwers questions we have all asked that have dealt with obsessions. Is there a road to recovery? Is there anything to recover from? Turning your obsessions into a possitive may be the only answer. Brightsides are overlooked from time to time really. Learning different things you obsess about is a gift that people don't understand.
What have you learned that most people don't care to or are simply to lazy to do? Maybe your hands are cleaner that the rest? Or if you can't step on a crack, well, then you never have to worry about breaking your mothers back. I do not mock these obsession, I live with it everyday as you do. I sit hear writing this and thinking to myself, its ironic that some people with obsession just smell good.