first of all i want to thank everyone who has taken the time to reply to me on other issues and in advance to anyone who will reply to this. i feel bad i haven't really responded to any of the other posts i've been reading over the last few days, i thought in great detail about responding to some of the insightful comments i have read, but, just never got around to it..........anyway.......

There are some very difficult things in my life i need to change, there are some very easy things that are only half done, i was just wondering where everyone started working in unison with their add, at home, interpersonal relationships, at work, excercise???? i have no idea.........not a clue where to start....one of the biggest things i hear also is "change the recordings in your head".......how???
i'm sorry for such stupid questions, i don't know how to start.......as soon as i remember i will be starting my medication.......this site is a wealth of knowledge and i will continue to look and read as much as i can.

my other concern, i do like me, i don't think anyone else does, but, i do, (but i don't live up to my expectations), people regard me as oh lets say an eccentric......especially when i select certain cups or glasses to match the personality of what i'm drinking, after all you can't put orange juice in a glass that's compatible with ice tea....duh.....i drive my wife nuts....but i have fun living.....i'm not happy but i have fun....i don't want to lose that, i love to write and paint in my own unusual style. can i take my "unique" thoughts and just orginize them, or is there a certain amount of sacrifice?

again i'm sorry i'm not able to respond to other posts, i really don't think i'd have anything helpful to say yet, after all i had to turn around twice today to make sure i closed the garage door. 25 minutes late to work. i can't believe other people could understand the frustration of living like that......ok im gonna go, or i'll end up typing all night.

thanks to everyone again................
josh

Where to start is always tough, and a way to put off starting at all. I would suggest picking something small and easy and stick with it until you feel it is finished. The feelings of success that come from being able to put a "tick" next to that project is a real booster and helps me to want to tackle the next one.

It sounds like you have many thoughts running at once and that could be leading to just spinning in place. I don't know if writing it down would help, but it might be worth a try. I find that even if I get a small list going, that I can focus on, that eventually the spin stops and I can get more accomplished.

I think it's great that you like yourself, but I see that buried in that is a desire to change some things about yourself for the better. I think those two things can go hand in hand. Just because I like a lot about what makes me who I am, doesn't mean that I don't have areas I can improve myself in.

Looking forward to hearing more from you.

Kim

I think it is ok to be your self sometimes but not all the time. I mean people change for you so in return change for them, I don't mean all your life just for an hour or so. Eg just be the man your wife would want you to be, then if you have kids or friends be the dad/guy they would love you to be for an hour or so. If you have trouble completing tasks and such do one thing at a time or allow after each task personal pleasure time to your self ( I know that sounds like something you would do for a kid but it works well). If you enjoy painting and picking glasses do it as long as it does not drive everyone crazy. (I hope this is good because I didn't fully understand your post.) :) :) :) :)