View Full Version : ADHD, Addiction, and finding a Psych


Cloudzor
07-11-16, 12:42 PM
I have been a heroin addict since 2013 but it wasnt until March 2015 that I got my act together. When I was in rehab, I told them I have been on adderall and have ADHD. Well being that it is rehab, of course they werent down with the adderall. They put me on risperdal which I have never heard of. I always want to know what drugs I am take and what not, but they never gave me any info even though I kept asking. I was hungry all day and I couldnt figure out why. It wasnt until I saw the PA that she told me it was an antipsychotic. Well ****, I said I am dont taking it since it was like seroquel which I was on before to "see if I had bipolar and not ADHD."

So they put me on Vyvanse in a clinical setting to see if it would work. Well it did. I then went to a halfway house for 6 months and continued to take it.

When I left the house, I knew I had to find a psych. I started going to a place, see the therapist 3/4 times and then schedule to see the psych. That usual bs. Well in that time, I lost my insurance since I started working. So I was in limbo between insurances and had to pay to get my script out of pocket. When I get my new insurance, they dont accept it and I have to start the hunt for a psych all over.

This leads to my next problem. I got my next script from a PCP, but it was a one time thing. When I told him about losing my insurance and all, he wasnt sympathetic at all. Eventually I get in a nurse practitioner at the same place who is sympathetic. I have to take drug tests and come back every 2 weeks. Well, eventually she trusted me and it was once a month.

I got out of the halfway in October. We are moving into December. I finally get my work insurance, but now a new problem. I am getting a different type of insurance at the beginning of the year. So the places around here wouldnt schedule me unless they took both of my insurances. I found a place but it wasnt until February.

In the mean time, I keep going back to my that NP to get my script telling her that I have an app on so and so.

Once I got my script, I then ran into issues with getting it filled due to insurance reasons. One was the lady was giving 2 week scripts which messed everything up.

But moving a long, I have my first psych app, and the dude tells me that he wants to switch me to Strattera which I tried when I was younger and didnt work. I told him I didnt feel comfortable switching things up after I have been on Vyvanse for almost a year. I told him I was an addict and all that. I finally got my life together and now he wants to switch to a drug which has a "loading period" and may or may not work. I told him no.

I go back to the NP and she tells me she cant overstep a "specialist." So now I am ******. I cant get my script because the NP was my fallback plan. I set up another app with a NP at the same place I just saw that psych who was supposedly an addiction specialist. Well, she had the same conclusion as the doctor. I literally just got up and left mid app to go to work.

I view addiction as a symptom of untreated ADHD. They viewed it the other way around. It has been over 4 months, and I still have no psych. It is to the point where the situation is comical to me. Literally, every time I have something to do with my insurance/doctor app/filling meds/etc something goes wrong. I just laugh at how far this **** has gone.

I have 2 more psych apps during Feb. I walked out of the one because they werent going to give me Vyvanse and wanted to start with Strattera. I already had been rediagnosed with ADHD so i didnt want to do that stuff again.

The second one was supposedly good money since my old therapist knew the person. lol, that was a lie. You needed to go there for a year before the psych would even consider giving amphetamines to an addict, which rarely happened.

It is almost March now. I literally have no cards left to play. I tried everything. I was honest and it got me no where. It only ****** me over. I was in disbelief yet still laughing. My old therapist didnt even know what to tell me.

It was going on 6 months, Ive wasted hundreds of dollars, my time, my serenity, all for nothing. But I knew the whole "seeing a psych takes 3 months ********" all too well. Last time I was in a court ordered program, I wasnt allowed to take my adderall. Thus, I just stockpiled them until I was done in case I ever lost my script like I have before.

It sounded good in my head, but my mom wasnt down with it. I knew this was my final trump card. I had nothing after this. And of course it didnt work. The one NP told my mom what could happen if I relapse while on amphetamines. I lose it and go off on my mom for buying into her ********. Not only have I done plenty of drugs while on my meds and nothing happened, I didnt plan on relapsing.

I am at my wits end. I am done telling the truth. This is why I never told my doctors in the past I got high. It just makes **** harder on you. I was ready to revert back to lying/downplaying to get my scripts since the system ****** me. Why would I change something that is working and risk everything?

So some day in March, I am telling my Aunt this whole story. She works in the auditing field for insurance companies. So she is familiar with doctors and rehabs around this area. She tells me to hold on she might know someone.

It turns out it was my first psych I saw when I was a teenager. I didnt even remember the dude. But he could see me the next week and did not have a problem with me taking amphetamines while being an addict.

He had the same view as I did with "addiction being a symptom of untreated ADHD." I was honest with him. He told me that what all the other doctors were doing was basically fraud. Having me come to their appointment only to just take my money with no results. He told me that when you get into the dual diagnosis field, some doctors are years behind or have skewed viewpoints.

In the end, I got my Vyvanse upped from 40mg to 60mg. I was also given 10mg of adderall to take after the Vyvanse wears off if I need.

tl;dr - It took me over 6 months, 3 insurances, hundreds of dollars, around 10 medical professionals, and countless wasted hours to get my Vyvanse prescription since I was an addict.

To anyone that is going through this, dont give up. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Where there is a will, there is a way.

Do you guys have similar stories? And sorry if it seemed a little unorganized and didnt flow. I some times relive the story in my head, but leave parts out thinking people can read between the lines.

ThePhantom
11-19-16, 11:04 PM
If you are unable to afford the medicine your psych wants to prescribe it is fair to ask the psych to prescribe an ADHD med that has an affordable cash option. I was in a situation like that and my psych had me try Zenzedi, which is pretty much a knockoff of Adderall IR. It worked for me and only cost me $50/month for 30mg pill. I cut it in half so I can take one after breakfast and one after lunch since it only lasts about 5 hours.

sarahsweets
11-23-16, 07:28 AM
If you are unable to afford the medicine your psych wants to prescribe it is fair to ask the psych to prescribe an ADHD med that has an affordable cash option. I was in a situation like that and my psych had me try Zenzedi, which is pretty much a knockoff of Adderall IR. It worked for me and only cost me $50/month for 30mg pill. I cut it in half so I can take one after breakfast and one after lunch since it only lasts about 5 hours.
I would says its more like dexedrine then adderall because I dont think it has the levoamphetamine that adderall has.

tiredofthis39
11-30-16, 07:27 PM
I have been a heroin addict since 2013 but it wasnt until March 2015 that I got my act together. When I was in rehab, I told them I have been on adderall and have ADHD. Well being that it is rehab, of course they werent down with the adderall. They put me on risperdal which I have never heard of. I always want to know what drugs I am take and what not, but they never gave me any info even though I kept asking. I was hungry all day and I couldnt figure out why. It wasnt until I saw the PA that she told me it was an antipsychotic. Well ****, I said I am dont taking it since it was like seroquel which I was on before to "see if I had bipolar and not ADHD."

So they put me on Vyvanse in a clinical setting to see if it would work. Well it did. I then went to a halfway house for 6 months and continued to take it.

When I left the house, I knew I had to find a psych. I started going to a place, see the therapist 3/4 times and then schedule to see the psych. That usual bs. Well in that time, I lost my insurance since I started working. So I was in limbo between insurances and had to pay to get my script out of pocket. When I get my new insurance, they dont accept it and I have to start the hunt for a psych all over.

This leads to my next problem. I got my next script from a PCP, but it was a one time thing. When I told him about losing my insurance and all, he wasnt sympathetic at all. Eventually I get in a nurse practitioner at the same place who is sympathetic. I have to take drug tests and come back every 2 weeks. Well, eventually she trusted me and it was once a month.

I got out of the halfway in October. We are moving into December. I finally get my work insurance, but now a new problem. I am getting a different type of insurance at the beginning of the year. So the places around here wouldnt schedule me unless they took both of my insurances. I found a place but it wasnt until February.

In the mean time, I keep going back to my that NP to get my script telling her that I have an app on so and so.

Once I got my script, I then ran into issues with getting it filled due to insurance reasons. One was the lady was giving 2 week scripts which messed everything up.

But moving a long, I have my first psych app, and the dude tells me that he wants to switch me to Strattera which I tried when I was younger and didnt work. I told him I didnt feel comfortable switching things up after I have been on Vyvanse for almost a year. I told him I was an addict and all that. I finally got my life together and now he wants to switch to a drug which has a "loading period" and may or may not work. I told him no.

I go back to the NP and she tells me she cant overstep a "specialist." So now I am ******. I cant get my script because the NP was my fallback plan. I set up another app with a NP at the same place I just saw that psych who was supposedly an addiction specialist. Well, she had the same conclusion as the doctor. I literally just got up and left mid app to go to work.

I view addiction as a symptom of untreated ADHD. They viewed it the other way around. It has been over 4 months, and I still have no psych. It is to the point where the situation is comical to me. Literally, every time I have something to do with my insurance/doctor app/filling meds/etc something goes wrong. I just laugh at how far this **** has gone.

I have 2 more psych apps during Feb. I walked out of the one because they werent going to give me Vyvanse and wanted to start with Strattera. I already had been rediagnosed with ADHD so i didnt want to do that stuff again.

The second one was supposedly good money since my old therapist knew the person. lol, that was a lie. You needed to go there for a year before the psych would even consider giving amphetamines to an addict, which rarely happened.

It is almost March now. I literally have no cards left to play. I tried everything. I was honest and it got me no where. It only ****** me over. I was in disbelief yet still laughing. My old therapist didnt even know what to tell me.

It was going on 6 months, Ive wasted hundreds of dollars, my time, my serenity, all for nothing. But I knew the whole "seeing a psych takes 3 months ********" all too well. Last time I was in a court ordered program, I wasnt allowed to take my adderall. Thus, I just stockpiled them until I was done in case I ever lost my script like I have before.

It sounded good in my head, but my mom wasnt down with it. I knew this was my final trump card. I had nothing after this. And of course it didnt work. The one NP told my mom what could happen if I relapse while on amphetamines. I lose it and go off on my mom for buying into her ********. Not only have I done plenty of drugs while on my meds and nothing happened, I didnt plan on relapsing.

I am at my wits end. I am done telling the truth. This is why I never told my doctors in the past I got high. It just makes **** harder on you. I was ready to revert back to lying/downplaying to get my scripts since the system ****** me. Why would I change something that is working and risk everything?

So some day in March, I am telling my Aunt this whole story. She works in the auditing field for insurance companies. So she is familiar with doctors and rehabs around this area. She tells me to hold on she might know someone.

It turns out it was my first psych I saw when I was a teenager. I didnt even remember the dude. But he could see me the next week and did not have a problem with me taking amphetamines while being an addict.

He had the same view as I did with "addiction being a symptom of untreated ADHD." I was honest with him. He told me that what all the other doctors were doing was basically fraud. Having me come to their appointment only to just take my money with no results. He told me that when you get into the dual diagnosis field, some doctors are years behind or have skewed viewpoints.

In the end, I got my Vyvanse upped from 40mg to 60mg. I was also given 10mg of adderall to take after the Vyvanse wears off if I need.

tl;dr - It took me over 6 months, 3 insurances, hundreds of dollars, around 10 medical professionals, and countless wasted hours to get my Vyvanse prescription since I was an addict.

To anyone that is going through this, dont give up. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Where there is a will, there is a way.

Do you guys have similar stories? And sorry if it seemed a little unorganized and didnt flow. I some times relive the story in my head, but leave parts out thinking people can read between the lines.

I spent most of my life avoiding taking meds for ADHD since I grew up hearing my family say that that my ADHD diagnoses was just BS. I self medicated, would be sober. Get really out of control self medicating and get sober.

This last year my 6 year old was diagnosed with ADHD and I became a believer. Its easier to have sympathy for ones we care about then ourselves. So I have seen 4 doctors. Long story short I was put on meds that made me worse. Almost failed school cause of it last quarter.

Problem is I was on methadone for 4 years. 6 weeks ago I got off of methadone and spent most of the time just wanting to die. So now I am taking one of the medications, GABAPENTIN, that had bad side effects. But at least I am not suicidial but I have noticed the mania is starting.

I live in Seattle and don't know if there is any doctor that will help me. I am happy to hear you got some help.