i feel so weird and mixed since ive been quiting some things i was addicted to, im use to acting feel and thinking a little differently, now with being clear from al that i cant just sit still and relax, i dont know how or what i should think or do, i want to be sober from all the drinking and stuff but i just feel attracted to the whole aspect of that life, living any other way seems impossble and crappy, heck i just want to know if thats a normal feeling for p[eople with adhd and coming clean of drinking or drugs. What has it been like for anyone else?

It's totally normal...and I know what you mean. Things are just so much cooler when you take a given drug...and you tell yourself that's all it is. Oh, I just take shrooms cuz I get to see cool stuff, when it's really about more than that...it's about escaping reality because you're either bored with it, or it's too painful, or whatever...

People who have nothing to escape from usually dont get into heavy drinking or ANY kind of drug use...They tell themselves (and it's true)..."I don't need it." But other people DO feel they need it, because reality is too undesirable some times. Just realize that it may seem attractive to you, but it's just an escape and you may not realize it, but it helps you run away from things. You have to find ways to "get high" naturally, and you'll soon find that that kind of high is more enduring, (and cheap!)