View Full Version : Personal History and Medication Diary

07-27-17, 03:51 PM
Hi everyone,

I'm new to this forum. The purpose of this thread is to keep a written record of my response to medication, as well as to consolidate my history/symptoms into a single document so I can establish a baseline for monitoring said response. I figure the benefit of doing this on a public forum is that someone else might identify with and/or benefit from my experience. Please feel free to weigh in or to offer support :)

Tomorrow, I'm (re)starting Adderall at 10mg XR/day. I'm a 26 year old female living in a dense urban environment. Here's my history:

For literally as long as I can remember, I've struggled with the following:

Brain fog
Lack of energy
Extreme difficulty following anything through (If I'm excited about the thing, I'll start strong and then drop off as soon as the adrenaline wears off, and if I'm not excited about the task starting is virtually impossible until the shadow of consequences becomes enormous)
Losing/misplacing things consistently
Zoning out while people speak to me
Terrible sense of direction because I don't pay attention to my environment

Not to toot my own horn but all these symptoms persist in spite of being considered extremely intelligent since early childhood (I've learned that this is far from unusual, the more I read about ADD). I was in a school for academically gifted kids and graduated near the top of my class at an elite university. This made my symptoms all the more confusing to me and everyone close to meI got through school (high school through university) by pulling crazy all-nighters and procrastinating to a point that looked and felt like self-sabotage. For a very long time, I figured that I am just a morally defective, lazy ******* of a person. At the same time, something in me suspected that there is a fundamental difference in the amount of energy and focus I have relative to many of my peers.

In my second year of university, I described my symptoms to a psychiatrist. She suggested that I may have ADD, but I brushed it off. My family is very resistant to the idea that mental illness is a thing, which was certainly a factor, but I was also wary of becoming dependant on medication.

A few years later, I reached somewhat of a peak in the intensity of my symptoms and finally sought the help of an ADD specialist. He said I am a textbook case of inattentive ADD and prescribed Adderall to me. I took it for about a month and experienced a major surge in my mental health, but got off it because a few well-meaning but ultimately unhelpful people in my life convinced me that I didn't really need it. Sounds like an odd decision to make, but I'm really sensitive to this mentality because of the way I was brought up to think about mental illness.

I tried everything else I could do to manage it. I work out, take Omega 3s, take care to sleep enough, etc. I've tried meditating, using organizational apps/planners, and the list goes oooon and on.

Now, at 26, I'm drowning in my symptoms in the face of mounting responsibilities, and for the first time, the idea of not living up to my potential is scarier than depending on medication to function. I'm starting a 10mg XR dose and intend to keep track of how it affects me. I also intend to be very careful about managing my health while on this medication by taking care to eat enough, sleep enough, and be diligent about the timing of my doses.

If you've read this far, thanks very much.

07-27-17, 08:52 PM
offering support :)

also, there are immediate and perceivable changes....... vs ongoing / worldly change....... the latter is very relevant to tangible benefits..... so maybe a separate "review" every 3 months in addition to normal writings...... that looks at the overview or big picture of life outcomes / circumstance et. al.

again, all the best with it :)

08-20-17, 06:48 AM
Support from Asia, I am greatly affected by the above-mentioned symptoms too since i am a child, had visited private doctors for just several time, but it costs a fortune here in Asia with no insurance covered. I heard Adult ADD is considered as a myth by the governmental hospital as described by my private doctor( he has a conflict of interest though), would be a worrying problem if I cannot get a prescription from the Government as the private clinics would cost 20% of my salary in a month.....