I am SOOOOOOOO ****** OFF!!! But I decided instead of getting into a huge arguement I would just come here and vent/complain. Every single freakin day I have to listen to my grandmother tell me I am crazy and" mentally defective" I asked if I could do my own laundry and she swore at me and spit on me and kicked me out of the house... I live in a freakin little studio that was converted from a storage shed on their property. So now because I asked to do my own laundry I have to go live on the streets???? This is how the conversation went

Me: Grandma I need these clothes for 2morrow so could I do a load of laundry

Grandma: No, put them in the clothes basket they will get done when I do them

Me: Ummm I need them 2morrow in the early early morning cant I just do them now?

Grandma: You dont know how to do laundry

Me: What?!?! Excuse me but when I lived at home I did my own laundry since I was 10yrs old and I have lived on my own, did my laundry then and lets see oh ya when I lived with my roommates I did EVERYONES laundry

Grandma: You dont know how to do anything, you are retarded

(starting to get ****** off) Me:Grandma I need to get this laundry done

Grandma: You need to find a new place to live you little mentally defective b*tch, Your other grandma wouldnt put up with this

Me: WITH WHAT, ME WANTING TO DO MY OWN LAUNDRY!?!?!?

(spits on me and cusses under her breath)Grandma:GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT

Me: Ya youre right Im so horrible for wanting to wash my own freakin clothes, you should just shoot me huh

Grandma: Your other grandma would not put up with you!!!

Me: Put up with WHAT, all I did was come in and ask if I could do LAUNDRY!!!!

After that I left. Anyway, my grandma is a total nutjob. My other grandma who "wouldnt put up with me" actually thinks this grandma is a complete fruit cake and should be in the mental hospital. Most people in my family think my grandma is crazy....its pretty damn obvious. But just because shes crazy does that make it OK for her to treat people the way she does??????? When she acts like that to me I just try to remember shes INSANE but I cant help but get mad at her. I try sooooooooooo hard to just remember shes just crazy and I should ignore it but I HATE HER for acting how she does.

Wow. No, I don't think there's EVER an excuse for treating people with disrespect.

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Hang in there!

Ouch... you have my sympathy and empathy as well...

Has your grandmother always acted like this?

Yes, she's always acted like this. Then a few minutes later she offers me jello or orange juice and acts like nothing happened. My stepdad hates her because she always says rude things to him. My dad thinks shes a freak but says I should try to be nice to her anyway. Everyone else just pretty much thinks she's crazy. She talks bad about people who she has never even met. The other day my older brother stole a bunch of things from my little brother and my stepdad...she sat there eating pie talking about how no one has ever stolen anything from her and thats because she wouldnt tolerate it. Oh ya like its my 11yr old brothers fault that a 24yr old stole all his playstation games and videos, she says "You should have stopped him, I would have" I have never hit anybody just because I was mad, but if I had to choose a person to beat up it would be my grandmother!!! (Im just mad..... I would NEVER really beat her up)

LilMiss: Do you want to live somewhere else? Like in an apartment with friends or a rooming house -- or do you like living with your family even though your grandmother's there?

Even though my grandmothers here....hmmmmmm. I dont live with my family. I live on my grandparents property in a seperate apartment. I want to live somewhere else and I did live somewhere else until my "friend" killed my dog so I left. Right now I have to live here because I am in the middle of trying to find a job and trying to get my financial aid done so I can get into school. Since she's letting me stay here she obviously doesnt hate me I guess..... She just goes off and kicks me out all the time. One time it happened because I offered to make dinner and do the dishes. "Shes a nice lady shes just crazy... confused, and thats something you should try to understand because she really does love you very much" .. thats what my dad said to me today. I know its true. Shes just crazy, no sane person would swear, cuss, and kick someone out of their house for no good reason then come out a little while later having no recolection of those events and offer food. I was just mad when I wrote that earlier post, I know shes crazy. Its just very hard to take sh*t from someone every single day and not take it personally.

No, she doesn't hate you....what's more likely is she hates herself...and loves you but doesn't have a clue how to show it....???? cuz of being sick....but yup, listening to her crap everyday MUST be wearing on your nerves.....the ups and downs and unpredictable crappy behavior....

But you're going to school? Hey that's great.....Good luck with financial aid applications.....(don't make it look like you have too much money:D)