LilSisw/Add
09-04-03, 06:25 PM
Wow, what a week. I haven't been on the boards that much because I just started school this week and have been going kind of crazy. But first maybe I better back up.
I had been accepted to this Business School for a 16 month Computer Graphics Asst. Degree Course. Only one of 35 get accepted every year, so you can imagine how thrilled I was. Especially since they usually focus on just out of H.S. grads, and that was seven years ago for me. I also thought this would be great because you don't have to deal with all the other courses you don't need like a 4 year (ex. history, PE, etc.) And so I would stay focused on my goal. They helped me with finacial asst. but I was still going to have to pay $60 to $75 to make up the difference. No big deal I had a job, and a boss who said she would work around my schedule...life was going great right?
Well then I totalled my car out, lost my job because you had to have a car, and found out my boss was full of @$#* even after I got another car. The insurance paid what the car was worth, but because of high intrest, I still owe $2000. So I still have to make my $200 car payment for the totalled car, and now a $300 payment for the car I have now. And my boss who claimed to be sympathetic to my problem, and said just call when you get wheels, went behind my back, and hired another person to replace me and didn't bother to tell me until after I had signed for the new car. So now I had $500 a month just in car bills and no job.
I had called my director of admin, Laura, up and told her I was sorry but there wouldn't be anyway I could go to college full time, pay my bills plus the college too. She told me to think about it, but I had already pretty much given up on the idea. Then last Friday she called to make sure I was coming to Orientation on tuesday. I told her again, there was no way, especially since I still didn't have a steady job. She wouldn't give up. She convinced me to drop from the 16 month asst. degree program to the 12 month diploma program, since it would be shorter, and I could get into a better job faster and out of the dead end jobs I kept getting into. Then she said she would get the monthly fee dropped and that she would help me find a job if she had to walk me around herself to do it. (Which btw, she has walked with me to get applications LOL) I told her I still didn't have any clothes to wear (they have a strict dress code....dresses, skirts, or dress pants with suit jackets, vests, or sweater sets, hose....and I'm a major tomboy..JEANS and TSHIRTS). She told me she would try and help me and convinced me to come at least for a week.
So I had THREE days to get used to the idea I was going to college when I gave up on the idea. I have always wanted to go but always something got in the way. I was so scared the first day (I borrowed an outfit from my mom LOL). I felt so out of my league. It took me 13 minutes just to put on panty hose!!! And then I was going to be around a bunch of ppl who were 7 yrs younger than me.
Well I not only made it through....I love it!! As much as it scares me too. I always secretly envy'd those girls who could dress and act with so much class, i was never patient enough to take the time to dress up like that. But now I have to. And friends of my parents have givin me clothes to wear and even some of the office staff from the school. Everyone is trying to help. :)
The students are all very friendly, and the teachers have great personalities. I was worried about the hand drawing class (all I do is stick figures), but the teacher said not to worry about it, that he was there to teach ppl how to draw...just enough to sketch your ideas out before putting them on the computer. We even have a self esteem course that is integrated through out the year. They also have a business course that I think will help me on the "right way to talk." And get this, I have actually been complimented on the way I look!!
As for ADD, I told one teacher I had it, cuz she asked if anyone would like to sit up front because they thought they may have trouble learning the G4 MACs to let her know. I told her I don't think I will have a problem learning to use the puter (I love puters and pick up on them pretty easily) , but that I would like to be up front anyway because I had ADD, and wanted to make sure I would pay attention. She said no problem. I hadn't told my other main teacher, but he will soon find out. I didn't realize the journal entries in the self esteem course hand book were to be turned in, and it asked a question about why you might be having trouble with this or that and I said because I had never accepted my ADD. And the pages were collected today...LOL Oh well. It is the same teacher as for drawing and typography. And honestly I think he has ADHD. :D
So I am not worried about it.
I was talking to my brother about what a neat feeling I had after school the other day, and realized it was total confidence. LMAO. I had to figure out what it was, I had never felt that way before. And as scary as it is, the fact that it is all on me whether I succeed or not, it is also fantastic. It's an "all mine" kind of thing. I am not relying on anybody, I'm doing it for myself, and nobody has a right to tell me that I'm not doing it right or tell me how to do it except my teachers.
LOL Sorry that I just wrote a short novel, but I am really pumped. I think I am still in shock. Oh and I just found an ad for a job that would be perfect for my schedule and easily pay for all my bills at the same time. Cross your fingers for me.
Tina
I had been accepted to this Business School for a 16 month Computer Graphics Asst. Degree Course. Only one of 35 get accepted every year, so you can imagine how thrilled I was. Especially since they usually focus on just out of H.S. grads, and that was seven years ago for me. I also thought this would be great because you don't have to deal with all the other courses you don't need like a 4 year (ex. history, PE, etc.) And so I would stay focused on my goal. They helped me with finacial asst. but I was still going to have to pay $60 to $75 to make up the difference. No big deal I had a job, and a boss who said she would work around my schedule...life was going great right?
Well then I totalled my car out, lost my job because you had to have a car, and found out my boss was full of @$#* even after I got another car. The insurance paid what the car was worth, but because of high intrest, I still owe $2000. So I still have to make my $200 car payment for the totalled car, and now a $300 payment for the car I have now. And my boss who claimed to be sympathetic to my problem, and said just call when you get wheels, went behind my back, and hired another person to replace me and didn't bother to tell me until after I had signed for the new car. So now I had $500 a month just in car bills and no job.
I had called my director of admin, Laura, up and told her I was sorry but there wouldn't be anyway I could go to college full time, pay my bills plus the college too. She told me to think about it, but I had already pretty much given up on the idea. Then last Friday she called to make sure I was coming to Orientation on tuesday. I told her again, there was no way, especially since I still didn't have a steady job. She wouldn't give up. She convinced me to drop from the 16 month asst. degree program to the 12 month diploma program, since it would be shorter, and I could get into a better job faster and out of the dead end jobs I kept getting into. Then she said she would get the monthly fee dropped and that she would help me find a job if she had to walk me around herself to do it. (Which btw, she has walked with me to get applications LOL) I told her I still didn't have any clothes to wear (they have a strict dress code....dresses, skirts, or dress pants with suit jackets, vests, or sweater sets, hose....and I'm a major tomboy..JEANS and TSHIRTS). She told me she would try and help me and convinced me to come at least for a week.
So I had THREE days to get used to the idea I was going to college when I gave up on the idea. I have always wanted to go but always something got in the way. I was so scared the first day (I borrowed an outfit from my mom LOL). I felt so out of my league. It took me 13 minutes just to put on panty hose!!! And then I was going to be around a bunch of ppl who were 7 yrs younger than me.
Well I not only made it through....I love it!! As much as it scares me too. I always secretly envy'd those girls who could dress and act with so much class, i was never patient enough to take the time to dress up like that. But now I have to. And friends of my parents have givin me clothes to wear and even some of the office staff from the school. Everyone is trying to help. :)
The students are all very friendly, and the teachers have great personalities. I was worried about the hand drawing class (all I do is stick figures), but the teacher said not to worry about it, that he was there to teach ppl how to draw...just enough to sketch your ideas out before putting them on the computer. We even have a self esteem course that is integrated through out the year. They also have a business course that I think will help me on the "right way to talk." And get this, I have actually been complimented on the way I look!!
As for ADD, I told one teacher I had it, cuz she asked if anyone would like to sit up front because they thought they may have trouble learning the G4 MACs to let her know. I told her I don't think I will have a problem learning to use the puter (I love puters and pick up on them pretty easily) , but that I would like to be up front anyway because I had ADD, and wanted to make sure I would pay attention. She said no problem. I hadn't told my other main teacher, but he will soon find out. I didn't realize the journal entries in the self esteem course hand book were to be turned in, and it asked a question about why you might be having trouble with this or that and I said because I had never accepted my ADD. And the pages were collected today...LOL Oh well. It is the same teacher as for drawing and typography. And honestly I think he has ADHD. :D
So I am not worried about it.
I was talking to my brother about what a neat feeling I had after school the other day, and realized it was total confidence. LMAO. I had to figure out what it was, I had never felt that way before. And as scary as it is, the fact that it is all on me whether I succeed or not, it is also fantastic. It's an "all mine" kind of thing. I am not relying on anybody, I'm doing it for myself, and nobody has a right to tell me that I'm not doing it right or tell me how to do it except my teachers.
LOL Sorry that I just wrote a short novel, but I am really pumped. I think I am still in shock. Oh and I just found an ad for a job that would be perfect for my schedule and easily pay for all my bills at the same time. Cross your fingers for me.
Tina