I think I've gotten to a point where I don't want to show my inner feelings in any way. Actually, I feel like I'm out of tune with my feelings, so I don't even know what I feel. I think a lot of it might have to do with spirituality, and being "one" with myself.

Also, I have this recurring fear of doing something "wrong". Like for instance, if I'm out on a date with a girl, I never know what to do. And it ****es me off because I hate this feeling of helplessness

hey man,
dont get down on yourself, theres help out there.
start reading and talking with other SA'ers at URL removed by ADMIN. I've been going there for almost a year now, and it's been a great safe haven for me.

Have you talked to your doctor about these symptoms and feelings your having about your life? Its important to dwell upon whats actually concerning you and getting to the root of the problem. Talking with other people and conversing with your doc can help. There are also meds out there. MY ADD gives me tremendous anxiety. I get Socially anxious even when im by myself....is that even possible?!?! :eyebrow: yep for me it is. so good luck and try to make some progress

Thanks for the link. I've had SA for years now, I think, but my mom always thought it was in my head, I guess. She said once, 'You haven't always this shy' in the tone of voice that asked 'What changed between then and now?'

I can't remember not feeling anxiety, except for that month-long stint on Paxil CR.

hi sin nombre, i too used to not "always be so shy", in fact I was the total opposite, i seeked people out but usually didn't act in ways that would be considered "socially appropriate", classic ADD case I guess. ANyways, I remember around puberty slowly becoming all too aware of the effect my behaviour was having on how people viewed me, and after some failed attempts to act "normal" around other people, I guess I just decided that I couldn't ever be like any one else and the only way to avoid the embarrassment was to avoid other people. And so I locked myself in my room most nights and went to the library by myself during school.

what has me confused is that i've always preferred my own company to being with friends (though there wasn't such a huge difference as there is now), but I don't think this is natural for me to have such a small social circle because sometimes I still feel so isolated. So I"m glad I found these forums, and I'll check out that SA link too


oh yeah, and nombre, why did you only stay on the Paxil for a month? I've considered trying SSRI's in the past but right now i'm just on dexedrine

I've suffered from Social Anxiety my whole life and finally decided to go see my doctor about it, he prescribed Celexa which has helped me more than I could have ever imagined.

i giet that as well socail anxiety i plan what iam doing an how much time i speand out side or on something like that no easy ways though dorm