jacaboon
07-21-05, 04:33 PM
Hello. This is long but pls bear with me for I am so confused. I have a few questions that I can't find any answers to on a 2 week web search and hope to get some info here. In a nutshell I was diagnosed with ADD in college, prescribed Ritalin, didn't like side effects and didn't pursue it since It wasn't that bad. Now , 13 yrs later, with a full time job, divorced and 3 kids under 8 I have so much on my plate that my (same one) psych. had me try Adderall 10 mg with adjusted dose flexibility..aka 2 or 3 a day. I also pursued it because the only seriously bad yearly review comment at work a few months ago was that in our weekly meetings with my direct and co-teachers (4-5 people total) I seem very "uninterested ,focused ,bored and overtalk others off subject impulsivly" My boss said she observed most of this in my body language. I was clueless to this behavior. I know each person is different and no one is a doctor but at this point anyone with thoughts or advice would help so much . My questions are random9one end of the spectrum to the other) so I'll list them for easy copy and paste...
1) How do you really know you have a need for treatment? I know there is no testing but I'm confused. I got major euphoria for about 5 days and then it leveled out. I heard that is you get rushes then you don't have ADD and that is why it's abused. Do I not need it or did I just need to level out my system to work w/out feeling wierd? I know you can't answer that but has anyone else gone through this?
2)due to the roller coaster, headaches and mood swings I was switched to 30 mg of xr. Does that mean I am getting 30 mg twice a day or 15?
3)at first I was very nervous (I teach and need to function well) that the jump from 10 to 30 as well as constant flow was going to be too much but I honestly feel ZIP! No highs,lows. I don't even feel a bit foggy or over focused ...even on the first day when I would expect basic side effects ..it's like a placebo. Has anyone had this? No negative effects just nothing. I am less short fused and more patient on the xr and actually the ir as well (if I keep my blood level constant until bed) I just don't know if it's the meds or just one of those "good weeks". It's been too short of a time frame to say if anything is working with my ADD at this point (it's only been 2 weeks and I haven't had to do anything that needs major focus or heard feedback from anyone who knows me)but I can tell a difference in side effects. Is there a difference between generic and the real thing (I've heard there is but my case seems significant to the bits I have read...aka is it simply that the generic may not be right for me?)
4) Has anyone taken xr and needed ir on top of it for important meetings,papers, large gatherings or ....a problemI have...quickly (close to 8 hour total benefit) metabolized xr? Is it normal or will my doctor think I'm an addict when I am just trying to find the right dosing for me? I'd be nervous to take xr 2 times a day since, without negative side effects, I wouldn't know how to time it and I'm afriad it might lead to insomnia which I don't have.
5)I have panic disorder and I was concerned about a stimulant effecting my attacks. my pcych. asked if a drank coffee and I have about 8-10 8oz cups a day! She asked how I felt and I said fine. She explained my brain's need for stimulants and that coffee was my focus ir. If I'm overtired (the one side effect I have is energy in the day that wears me out but doesn't give me insomnia..not sure if I'm getting solid sleep though) I may get very anxious but other than that I'm doing well with attacks.
I'm just trying to figure out if I'm putting a drug into my system that isn't harming me but also not doing any good. Since my meds and doses keep changing I'm always stating from scratch and not sure how long to wait it out. I know this post either screams ADD(so scattered) or Adderal working since I can focus for this novel. ANY answers, comment, suggestions on any topic would be so helpful. I feel so lost. Thank you, Jacaboon also feel free to pm me if it's easier
1) How do you really know you have a need for treatment? I know there is no testing but I'm confused. I got major euphoria for about 5 days and then it leveled out. I heard that is you get rushes then you don't have ADD and that is why it's abused. Do I not need it or did I just need to level out my system to work w/out feeling wierd? I know you can't answer that but has anyone else gone through this?
2)due to the roller coaster, headaches and mood swings I was switched to 30 mg of xr. Does that mean I am getting 30 mg twice a day or 15?
3)at first I was very nervous (I teach and need to function well) that the jump from 10 to 30 as well as constant flow was going to be too much but I honestly feel ZIP! No highs,lows. I don't even feel a bit foggy or over focused ...even on the first day when I would expect basic side effects ..it's like a placebo. Has anyone had this? No negative effects just nothing. I am less short fused and more patient on the xr and actually the ir as well (if I keep my blood level constant until bed) I just don't know if it's the meds or just one of those "good weeks". It's been too short of a time frame to say if anything is working with my ADD at this point (it's only been 2 weeks and I haven't had to do anything that needs major focus or heard feedback from anyone who knows me)but I can tell a difference in side effects. Is there a difference between generic and the real thing (I've heard there is but my case seems significant to the bits I have read...aka is it simply that the generic may not be right for me?)
4) Has anyone taken xr and needed ir on top of it for important meetings,papers, large gatherings or ....a problemI have...quickly (close to 8 hour total benefit) metabolized xr? Is it normal or will my doctor think I'm an addict when I am just trying to find the right dosing for me? I'd be nervous to take xr 2 times a day since, without negative side effects, I wouldn't know how to time it and I'm afriad it might lead to insomnia which I don't have.
5)I have panic disorder and I was concerned about a stimulant effecting my attacks. my pcych. asked if a drank coffee and I have about 8-10 8oz cups a day! She asked how I felt and I said fine. She explained my brain's need for stimulants and that coffee was my focus ir. If I'm overtired (the one side effect I have is energy in the day that wears me out but doesn't give me insomnia..not sure if I'm getting solid sleep though) I may get very anxious but other than that I'm doing well with attacks.
I'm just trying to figure out if I'm putting a drug into my system that isn't harming me but also not doing any good. Since my meds and doses keep changing I'm always stating from scratch and not sure how long to wait it out. I know this post either screams ADD(so scattered) or Adderal working since I can focus for this novel. ANY answers, comment, suggestions on any topic would be so helpful. I feel so lost. Thank you, Jacaboon also feel free to pm me if it's easier