Is this kind of conversation familiar to anyone?

I am not a real good writer, so I put it in a kind of play format to make it easier to read.

A typical conversation with my boss in the Manager's office. I am sitting at my desk trying to look like I am perusing the Electronic bulletin board, but I'm really not absorbing much. There is nothing interesting on it, ever.

Boss: Inventory results are in.

Me: Are they good?

Boss: Everything looks good. CTP, inventory on hand.........

Me: Immediately my eyes move to look at the calendar trying to anticipate when bonuses will arrive.

Oops, I am being spoken to, better stay on track.

Boss: We have a new Vice President of indirect procurement. He came from out west with..........

My inner monologue: Man, I never did understand why Dick Cheney's daughters sexual orientation was such an issue. Oops, there I go again, time to give a nod to show everything is being digested and filed properly.

Boss: August should be another busy month, tons of water sales and.......

My inner monologue: Oh man, August, is rent due? I turn my head to get the date off the calendar in mid-conversation. Oops, better start staying on track better.

The Hallway behind my boss leads to the break room. Employee's are constanly passing the room were in.

My inner monologue: Oh man, Natalie is here today. Wow, is she getting tan. Looks like I'll be spending most of my remaining shift by the check-outs. Whoa, I have seriously derailed from the conversation here. Time for an audible "Hmm-Hmm", that will make her think I am listening.

Boss: Looks like a new departmental budget is being....

My inner monologue: I wonder what my checking account looks like? Oops, better contribute to the conversation.

Me: Will the new budget be a seamless roll-out, or are the department managers going to have a hard time getting used to it?

Boss: It should be pretty seamless, as long as we keep abreast as to what.....

Inner monologue: Natalie was in such a nice shirt, man she looks good in that blue pastel.....

Another Employee passes the room were in.

Inner monologue: Sara, too! I'm not gonna get a thing accomplished today.

Boss: The departments will just be forced to schedule within the parameters of their available hours.....

Inner Monologue: Hours, how long till I go home? Eyes move to clock hanging in the back of the room to the side of my boss. This conversation is BORING. When she pauses I am going to bring something more fun up.

Meat Manager walks in.

Inner monologue: What does he have there? What is that box on his clipboard? I wonder if the new, good looking gal he has is working?

Boss: I think it will really be a useful tool in labor management.

Me: Did Kim in Deli have her baby yet?

Boss: (Ahem) Not yet. I will roll-out this new budget in Monday's meeting. There will be.......

Inner monologue: What is that little chunk on the file cabinet there? Nasty. Why aren't the maintenance guys...Oops.

Boss: It isn't anything hard to digest.....

Inner monologue: I wonder how much intestinal mucoid plaque that glutton from bakery has...

Another employee walks by.

Inner monologue: Man, that Gus is weird. Why does he show up two hours early just to sit in the break room and bother everyone? What a freak!

Boss: Sorry to hear about the death in your family.

Me: Thanks. I wasn't real close to her, but need to go for the family.

Boss: You're flying to Phoenix. Did you hear about the goof that shut Sky Harbor down....

Inner monologue: Those poor guys in the U.S.S. Arizona. It's like an underwater graveyard on that ship.

Boss: .......broke through the fence. Shut the Airport down for a while.....

Deli Manager walks in.

Inner monologue: I bet she was nice looking in her younger days. Still kinda has it going on after....

Boss: Well, have a safe flight.

Me: Yeah, I hope so. Thanks!

That is actually about a tenth of the derailments in a typical conversation but I wanted to try and keep it organized.

Conversations like that are why I ask for important things to be put in writing. Otherwise, like you I don't digest what the conversation is about with all the inner thoughts going through my head. One bad thought I use to have in my head during conversation was: what would happen if I peed in my pants...cause I gotta go............thank God that stopped with the help of adderall.

Thanks for putting that together for us to see and absorb. As a nonADD person, I"m always looking for education on the perspective of ADD folks. I think it really helps us appreciate what "getting your attention" might feel like.

cs

I experience this a tad differently than discribed however it has basically the same results.



my iner voice would be going on through out the otter conversation, then overly combine all the external sounds, along with what
i am reading on the computer


Then when ever i am asked a question i have to sort seperate all the in coming stuff and hope i can pull up the up with with the right words from this conglomerate of a brain activity to comminucate some thing intelligable in response!!!!!!!!

V V Amusing and frighteningly accurate ... I 'felt' every bit of that inner monologue.

I also started yawning. Not with boredom (far from it) but because that's what I do when i have to concentrate on the blah blah stuff and talk at work - it makes me feel so tired I just cannot help yawning - all I want to do is find somewhere to lie down and go to sleep.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!! ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I have one partner who can talk about files with all these intense details, and the woman can keep 200 balls in the air at once, and I swear to God every time she talks to me it's like that. I can't possibly follow what she's saying, even while taking notes. Hilarious.

Thanks for the laugh. :)

J.

When it comes to my focus on your monologue there is one question: are you or the subject of your monologue on fire? If the answer is no then I can guarantee my attention will drift. :D

One word, MorbidParable....

YEP! LOL!

Who's the good looking new (or old) gal? i don't discriminate.

Very funny! :):)

I do that but it's not on conversations. We have meetings with 10 or more peoples that can last from 30 min to 2 hours (this is really boring moments for me). My participation is often required as a kind of "watchdog", to make sure no technical details is forgot. Strangely, I am good at it, and I just don't know why. My inattention is really not helping me here. I am thinking about everything else but the subject of the meeting, and I will spare you the silly things that goes through my head (and I mean really silly :)). There is that good part of my brain that is kind of listening to some key words. It just get me out of my lethargy instantly, just throwing out of my mouth the right word at the right moment...

I do that during all my classes, most group conversations, and whenever someone's talking at me. On the phone too... LOL

Amusing because I've BTDT. Every day of my life is an inner monologue that has little to do with the conversation I should be paying attention to. It's a fight to stay focused... a fight with my mind that I can actually feel. Like straining to see something far away.

HAHAHA. My eyes teared up from laughter. This is what I'm like when my boss is trying to explain to me what I'm supposed to be doing! Heck, this is what I'm like when my pdoc tells me about ADD and the difference between meds...

Sometimes I miss my brain though. Now that I can "concentrate" during meetings, I realize that the meetings are just as boring when I pay attention as when I don't. :P Imagination makes the time go by.