Hey all you internet add college people

I've made a mess of things at school. I was on academic probation, mostly due to issues exacerbated by the ADD, and I now have to fight my way back into school. I'm pretty ****ed about it, discouraged, and quite frankly, upset about the whole deal. I know the process, it has started, but I'm worried sick about it.

School is everything to me. I like school. I like learning. I like my major. But I've had issues with grades and they're what finally brought my ADD to my attention. I've been working hard to get better since being diagnosed, and more importantly, being diagnosed has finally helped me understand WHY I was having such a hard time and why I couldn't get my **** together. I'm now able to cope with my ADD and I've got great, helpful people in my life, along with good doctors and meds to help keep me on track despite my distractable nature.

I did the whole counseling thing at school. No one caught the ADD. I figured it out when I decided to write a paper discussing the finer points of using ADD diagnoses as a method of control in the classroom. I read my first source and cried, went to my GP the next day, and got a referral to a psych for ADD testing. I never finished the paper(part of my academic probation problem), but I did start on a long road to getting better.

I just want a second chance, with me knowing that I'm ADD. Is that too much to ask? I'm motivated, I'm medicated, and I'm learning new behavioural strategies as I go. Don't I deserve a second chance at this?

Of course you deserve a second chance, are you kidding me, my first semester of college I completely destroyed my G.P.A. Despite a 4.0 gpa and vp of national honor society in High School (I never needed to study in H.S., though college was a different story), after my first semester of college I thought I was an idiot and not smart enough for college.

If it weren't for second chances I'm not sure where I'd be. Though, I will say it is ten times harder to bring a G.P.A. up than it is to take it down (its quite easy to take it down). But I brought it up from pretty much a decimal to dean's list, if I can do it so can you!

Anywho...I fear I'm only babbling now, but feel free to e-mail me if you need any advice or help...I've learned to manuever through the college system with ADD and know some of the ins and outs of the system (I also tutor ADD and L.D. students and teach)
Take care.
andrea :)