ahalo
08-24-05, 02:57 PM
Earlier in the summer I finally got up the nerve to discuss with my psych some problems I've been having with, basically, PMS. Before I took my methylin I was always on edge and reactive and anxious and restless. But since I've been on it, I noticed that every month there is a 7-10 day time where I handle nothing well at all, I have incredible anxiety and mood swings, etc etc. So the ADHD meds were 3/4 helpful overall. So I talked to my psych about it and at first he suggested Lexapro, but my sister had a bad experience with that plus I have no insurance and it's pretty expensive. Then he suggested Zoloft. I decided to try it especially since he had 3 months worth of samples to send home with me.
Long story short, it made me evil. Not like, I'm going to harm anyone evil, but just really angry and mad at the world, all the time. I was too mad to notice anxiety. And I was back to my reactive old ways which was even worse since I know now how to recognize it (the irrational responses and thinking, etc). I can't even explain how mad I was and how much I felt like I backtracked. So I went off the Zoloft and eventually again noticed the ADHD meds were working.
Unfortunately, the anxiety is really awful still. I have a hard time expressing to people how strong I feel, like I can inside feel SO much and it can be SO disabling, but I can appear pretty calm and OK. Sometimes I tear up or whatever like if I'm sad about something, which is pretty easy for others to recognize but that's not usually how the anxiety effects me. Usually it's all kinds of thoughts going through my head about all the horrible things that could happen and an intense NEED to control my situation and MAKE SURE everything is OK. It has caused problems with various relationships, especially professional relationships since right now I have become quite a recluse socially. I probably have some social anxiety too but mostly, I get so tired of not being able to deal with people that I prefer to be alone. Not afraid so much as TIRED.
Anyone know where I'm coming from? Any suggestions? I tried Prozac in the past and while it helped with some social stuff and some of my obsessive thoughts (oh yeah, I have those too, but not on the level of OCD since they don't really interfere in my life), it didn't really do anything for anxiety. ALTHOUGH, at the time I wasn't on an ADHD med so that could explain it. Plus the generic of Prozac is really cheap.
At the same time, I'm also thinking about an anti-anxiety since I'm only effected part of the month, plus I worry that Prozac worked TOO WELL in eliminating my obsessive thoughts (to the point where I had no passion for anything). So well, I don't know. Just thought I'd see if anyone has any suggestions. I am poor right now, but even if there's some expensive treatment that could be effective, I could make a mental note of that for the day when I have insurance.
Thank you!!!
Long story short, it made me evil. Not like, I'm going to harm anyone evil, but just really angry and mad at the world, all the time. I was too mad to notice anxiety. And I was back to my reactive old ways which was even worse since I know now how to recognize it (the irrational responses and thinking, etc). I can't even explain how mad I was and how much I felt like I backtracked. So I went off the Zoloft and eventually again noticed the ADHD meds were working.
Unfortunately, the anxiety is really awful still. I have a hard time expressing to people how strong I feel, like I can inside feel SO much and it can be SO disabling, but I can appear pretty calm and OK. Sometimes I tear up or whatever like if I'm sad about something, which is pretty easy for others to recognize but that's not usually how the anxiety effects me. Usually it's all kinds of thoughts going through my head about all the horrible things that could happen and an intense NEED to control my situation and MAKE SURE everything is OK. It has caused problems with various relationships, especially professional relationships since right now I have become quite a recluse socially. I probably have some social anxiety too but mostly, I get so tired of not being able to deal with people that I prefer to be alone. Not afraid so much as TIRED.
Anyone know where I'm coming from? Any suggestions? I tried Prozac in the past and while it helped with some social stuff and some of my obsessive thoughts (oh yeah, I have those too, but not on the level of OCD since they don't really interfere in my life), it didn't really do anything for anxiety. ALTHOUGH, at the time I wasn't on an ADHD med so that could explain it. Plus the generic of Prozac is really cheap.
At the same time, I'm also thinking about an anti-anxiety since I'm only effected part of the month, plus I worry that Prozac worked TOO WELL in eliminating my obsessive thoughts (to the point where I had no passion for anything). So well, I don't know. Just thought I'd see if anyone has any suggestions. I am poor right now, but even if there's some expensive treatment that could be effective, I could make a mental note of that for the day when I have insurance.
Thank you!!!