FlyGurl
09-16-05, 03:17 PM
Hey there lately I've had some major stress issues come up. Something I've never been good at and tend to just shut-down and get depressed...yada yada...
anyways, I feel like my body can't take it anymore. It feels like it's freaken out on me... Yesturday at work I felt like I was shaking inside.....Like how you have to move your body on the outside to keep "stuff" working....thats how my body on the inside was going...I was at work and went into my dads office cause he wasn't in and just stood there in the dark...and tryed to calm myself...i couldn't though i had to keep moving around the whole office...i tried stretching and everything nothing worked.....I only had two cups of coffee yesturday...no red-bulls like normal (broke now, have to drink office coffee) I started to get really annoyed with everyone to.. like i couldn't handle just talking to anyone....once I left work and then took my daughter to my sisters for the night ... got home and cleaned up...I was fine... And had a great night...
Today it's started again..this time earlier and I can't stop "moving" inside. I don't know if it's nerves or what...I do have a lot I'm stressing on though:
My bestest friends second baby is due on Monday she's already at 2.5cm.
My roommate is extreemly emotionaly abusive...trying to save to move out alone
Money issues....down payments on a car suck!!!
Thats about it...but I'm SO stressed I think??? Everything else is fine with my b/f and my daughter...she's been doing pretty good....I have to ask her doctor about her tip-toe walking and her rocking back and forth all the time...but other than that she's well above in the development stage for a kid her age... I guess I might be a bit stressed about her...
But yeah, i'm shaking on the outside more so than normal...i'm always moving but today and yesturday its like i've had to pee for hours and am waiting for the bathroom to be free.....i hate bringing attention to myself but i can't stop moving....if i stop i feel like my brain is stuck or spinning.
Oh yeah, i'm not on any meds ... (add & boarderline & ocd)
anyways, I feel like my body can't take it anymore. It feels like it's freaken out on me... Yesturday at work I felt like I was shaking inside.....Like how you have to move your body on the outside to keep "stuff" working....thats how my body on the inside was going...I was at work and went into my dads office cause he wasn't in and just stood there in the dark...and tryed to calm myself...i couldn't though i had to keep moving around the whole office...i tried stretching and everything nothing worked.....I only had two cups of coffee yesturday...no red-bulls like normal (broke now, have to drink office coffee) I started to get really annoyed with everyone to.. like i couldn't handle just talking to anyone....once I left work and then took my daughter to my sisters for the night ... got home and cleaned up...I was fine... And had a great night...
Today it's started again..this time earlier and I can't stop "moving" inside. I don't know if it's nerves or what...I do have a lot I'm stressing on though:
My bestest friends second baby is due on Monday she's already at 2.5cm.
My roommate is extreemly emotionaly abusive...trying to save to move out alone
Money issues....down payments on a car suck!!!
Thats about it...but I'm SO stressed I think??? Everything else is fine with my b/f and my daughter...she's been doing pretty good....I have to ask her doctor about her tip-toe walking and her rocking back and forth all the time...but other than that she's well above in the development stage for a kid her age... I guess I might be a bit stressed about her...
But yeah, i'm shaking on the outside more so than normal...i'm always moving but today and yesturday its like i've had to pee for hours and am waiting for the bathroom to be free.....i hate bringing attention to myself but i can't stop moving....if i stop i feel like my brain is stuck or spinning.
Oh yeah, i'm not on any meds ... (add & boarderline & ocd)