This is my first post. I just realized after many years of being a total mess up in life, love, work, and relationships that I have ADD. I've done all the tests and read Driven to Distraction. I know that it is ADD, but today when I went to see a doctor for the first time about it, he gave me something called oxazolam. It's suppossed to help me relax. I don't want to relax. I want to focus and get my life in order. I do feel tense all the time, but I'm afraid of getting rid of this tension because I have a lot to do. I never get it done, but I still have a lot to do. Has anyone ever been given something that they don't think is what they need and have it work? I've only taken one dose, but in my mind I'm so scared that it will make me sleepy and I don't want this. I felt great that I finally figured out what was wrong with me, but now I just feel like he gave me the wrong diagnosis. Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself. I need any help that I can get. I do feel edgy all the time and as if half of my body is wired half of the time. I live in Taiwan but I'm originally from Ohio. I don't know what to do. I don't want to use something that is just going to make me a sleepy mess. I'm mad. I'm really angry because I just need help focusing. I do get angry easily, but I'm not a yeller. I just want to scream on the inside. I'm going out of my mind and any thoughts would be helpful.
GJ:mad: