Aspbergers is ADD (ADHD-I)

I am beyond convinced I have Aspbergers, and I even know many kids who have been diagnosed with 'ADD' who are just beyond intelligent. They hyperfucus like me. I am porbably on the ultra extreme side of high functioning autism, because I don't show any real outward signs of autism, atleast not anymore. One of those kids, who went on a mission trip with our youth group (I'm 22, and helping as an 'adult' leader), he's 14, and lol, something happened that has never happened before... I met myself, this kid was, I swear, a carbon copy of me. Is there some weird deal when Autuistics look at eachother and something weird goes on in their eyes? It's like we read eachothers minds without knowing it, and we smile, unknowingly. He is just unbelieveable, I am beyond into music, I basicallt have a radio in my head, and can replay just about anything I've ever heard over in my head. I love classical music, well it's just the sheer perfectness of music, nothing matches it. This kid... omg... I'm sitting in this room, and this kid walks over toward the piano and I sigh, and say to myself... "oh God... please i really don't wanna hear this...."

Now bear in mind, I am beyond picky when it comes to classical, especially mozart, and beethoven....

This kid is 14, and has only been playing piano for 4 YEARS...

I was sitting in the chair cringing, ready for the worst, and he statrs to play... Now there are like 60 kids in this room, all talkin jabberin away, none of them noticed. My co-adult leader (the other guy my age) was just a little across the the room from me, he's a drummer, so he knows music. I almost start crying, I don't even know what he was playing but it sounded like it was suppoosed to, I've never heard any piano played like that before, NEVER, I looked at the other leader, we sat there starring at eachother, starring at the kid, looking back, and again... The kid stands up, walks out the door. I said to Aaron (the other leader), "did that just happen? do you know what just happened?? dude none of these kids even noticed..."

I got up, it was lunch time, I'm walking like a zombie, I can't focus, I can't get over the shock. I come up behind him and around him... and said... "So what you've been playing for what? 40 years now?" and ofcourse logicall he says... "um no.... uh 4 years..." (a little stutter in there, i definatelly had that stutter then) I was speachless, this 14 year old kid, could play real music and he had only been plaing for 4 freakin years, you cannot teach anyone what this kid could do. He played some other stuff for me later, and I would just sit and stare, lol. You should see him play ohh... man, you know that he wasn't taught this, he actually almost rocks a tad bit when he plays, but you barelly notice, if you watch close enough, you can see that he looks atleast 3 measures ahead before he gets there. I hate 'fur elise' just because it's destroied so much. He can play that... I have never heard a professional pianist play this song like this kid can, I mean he litterally plays it as if he was the sheet of music. I will never forget that day, that weeks, never. I know the next Mozart, so don't be surprised when eh shows up somewhere... Oh yeah, no sheet music in sight, he knows a few of beethovens entire piano peices. He can also play left hand completelly sepparate by it's self, this never happens. It's weird he's also got hands like mine, fingers are same length as palm. I dono what that means. He actually completelly fudged up his right hand one day, long story, I about freaked out, it got all swollen, poor kid. Thats when He played the bottom part of one of his songs, lol, I can't explain what it's like to hear him play, it's been my dream that a 'Mozart' would pop up somehwere just so I could hear him play, or new works, I never expected to meet him, or even be a friend of mine...

Anyway, he is diagnosed with the same diag as me, also takes concerta, yes a smaller dosage, I am a huge guy after all(6'4" 200lbs), but he is a genious, it seems that if indeed I am right that 'ADD' is Aspbergers, that ADHD meds work for it, they let you hear everything AND retain it at the same time rather than reflecting on it later (or never). I think it also helps you in social situations because of what it does in the frontal lobe, where your personality is controlled, where it makes you talk more.

However, I also feel a conection to ADHD kids too, so I'm not saying they have nothing to do with Autism, but definatelly not Aspbergers.

It's all Autism, from how I see it now.

Is it not a really weird coincidence that I used to run a lot when I was a kid, and 'tell myself' "run lke the wind Chris, run like the wind." and I ran and ran... I also was in love with a girl named Jenny around that sort of age... and we rode on the smae bus... and lol, I am Forest Gump.... freaky... (don't have the weird dialect though, however I can impersonate it exactly, but that just something I liek to do)

I dont' remember when I saw that movie, but I unknowingly identified with forest so well, always felt stupid, continually picked on, walked a little funny, always have had that thing where you could litterally throw a rock at me and I'd barelly notice. I used to have a temper when I was young, but it's harder to **** me off to where I would outburst. When I would when younger I would get so anry, I felt as if I was on fire, I would get so emotional, I would cry almost, but out of anger aswell as embarrasment, Then I'd kinda yell and chase those *******s around till they ran home crying from being scared to death. Hey, a person can only take so much harrasment when they're little.