Indigo_Child
11-07-05, 09:25 AM
Hi,
Sorry this is a bit long, this is a little about me, my health and my Fiance....
===============My Man======================
I have been with Darren, for a bit over a year now, and we are going really strong! We have had our fair share of ups and downs, (mostly due to my health) but together we have come through the experiences alot stronger as a couple. Fortunatly, although Darren isnt ADD or ADHD, he is as compulsive and spontanious as i am, so its not out of the ordinary for us to come home with useless crap when we go shopping.....or come home with a new pet...as we have done many times! Not too long ago, Darren went out one afternoon to buy a few groceries and came home with the cutest baby rat..:p...but no groceries!! He claimed he was about to go shopping when he happened to pass the pet shop (which is actually located on the other side of the shopping centre) and saw this Baby rat looking up at him, apparently, begging him to bring him home....so he did! Nutter!! Mind you i think i would have done the same thing if i were in his position. :D
Darren and I met at work, September 2004. My Parents had gone on a 2 week holiday interstate and because i had only recently started a new job, i had to stay behind. I barely knew Darren at that point, we had worked together a few times, He was a really nice guy, but I knew he had a Girlfriend at the time, so i discarded any (dirty) thoughts of him. It wasnt until i had finished my shift one night that i found him outside just standing around. We chatted for a while, just as i got up to leave i asked him what he was up to that night, his response was "coming over to your house"...Well He ended up staying for the whole week. By day 3 i was really fighting the deep feelings i started having for him. The night my parents came back from their holiday, i got a phone call from Darren saying he had ended his relationship with his girlfriend, he had really deep feelings for me, and did i want to go out with him?....I did the happy dance around my room....and weve been together ever since. :p :D
When we met i was a staggering 183lbs (83kg), and with my short 5'5" frame you could very easily have called me obese. And it was partially because of my weight, ok, Mostly because of my weight that i didnt want to get involved with anyone, I felt gross, fat and ugly. But with my Man i took a chance....From day one Darren has told me that he loves my body, that i am gorgeous and that he would love me no matter what size i am, but in the back of my mind i kept thinking that he wouldnt look at fat porn, so why would he love my body, shouldnt i look like the girls he oggles in the FHM and Playboy Magazines?!.... (After we started going out, he tossed out the Guys Magazines, even though i hadnt yet expressed my hate for them, he said he didnt need them anymore, and he didnt know why he got them in the first place) although i didnt worry about it that much, it was just my own insecurities, he loved me for me, thats all that mattered.
I knew what was the cause for my weight, I had taken 15 months off after graduating school and did little more than eat and watch TV, plus i was depressed. When i started work suddenly i was active again, and the weight dropped off really easily. I think in the Beginning, and somewhat now, Darren was worried that the weightloss would change me as a person. That suddenly i wouldnt be me anymore, that i wouldnt like the things i liked before and more importantly, that i wouldnt like him anymore. But quite quickly it became evident to Darren that it wasnt the case....I have lost a grand total of 84lbs in the past year, and im still the same old me.
But this whole experience has shown me that it truely isnt what you look like that matters....its whats on the inside that counts.
=================A LITTLE TMI================
In July this year (05), After Darren pushed and begged, I finally bit the bullet and had a Papsmear, my first one. I had had really painful periods since i started menarche when i was 11, but to me it was normal. My Smear result came back CIN3, the worst possible reading you can get from the test. The Result hit us both really hard, but even harder for Darren. Emotions were everywhere, we would be crying one minute and laughing the next. I was facing possible Cervical Cancer, and all we could do was sit and twiddle our thumbs for the next available appointment with a gynae. It was confirmed i have a condition called Endometriosis, (very awful, very painful), so i would have to have surgery to remove the growth from the outside of my uterus. And they would also have to scrape away the majority of my Cervix because there was alot of Cancerous cells, that threatened to spread throughout my body, and unfortunatly once it starts to spread, theres no stopping it....I know for a fact that without Darren basically dragging me down to my GP kicking and screaming, I would never have gone for a pap smear...i would be dead... and I would have missed out on knowing i can be Loved as much as he loves me, and knowing i could love someone as much as i love him....
It was a very hard time for us, and i suppose it still is, knowing the Endometriosis will never leave me, that i will always be in pain and that i will most probably have to have surgery to remove the growths every few years. But the hardest thing, i think more for Darren than myself was when we were told that due to the nature of my condition and the amount of damage that had been done, that there was a 99.9% chance that i would never be able to conceive; If i was able to conceive i would most probably never carry to term, If by some miracle i did carry to term, there would never be a live birth, ever, no If's or maybe's, Never.
My Condition is so unpredictable, its frustrating! One day im perfectly happy and healthy, the next im crippled with pain and cant move or be touched, but fortunatly Darren is VERY understanding, he says so long as we are together, and love each other, nothing else matters. :p
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We are getting Married Mid next year, after we complete our Army Training. Darren is going into the Regular Army as a Combat Engineer, and i am going into the Reserves as Military Police. I love him so much, He is just the most wonderful person i have ever met!!!
Well thats my introduction of my man, im sure you will hear me *****ing about this or that he has done or said....yes, me over reacting yet again...hehe...
I have pics on my site of myself and my man if you want to have a peek...... www.kinkyskink.bravehost.com (http://www.kinkyskink.bravehost.com)
Cheers,
Brittany
Sorry this is a bit long, this is a little about me, my health and my Fiance....
===============My Man======================
I have been with Darren, for a bit over a year now, and we are going really strong! We have had our fair share of ups and downs, (mostly due to my health) but together we have come through the experiences alot stronger as a couple. Fortunatly, although Darren isnt ADD or ADHD, he is as compulsive and spontanious as i am, so its not out of the ordinary for us to come home with useless crap when we go shopping.....or come home with a new pet...as we have done many times! Not too long ago, Darren went out one afternoon to buy a few groceries and came home with the cutest baby rat..:p...but no groceries!! He claimed he was about to go shopping when he happened to pass the pet shop (which is actually located on the other side of the shopping centre) and saw this Baby rat looking up at him, apparently, begging him to bring him home....so he did! Nutter!! Mind you i think i would have done the same thing if i were in his position. :D
Darren and I met at work, September 2004. My Parents had gone on a 2 week holiday interstate and because i had only recently started a new job, i had to stay behind. I barely knew Darren at that point, we had worked together a few times, He was a really nice guy, but I knew he had a Girlfriend at the time, so i discarded any (dirty) thoughts of him. It wasnt until i had finished my shift one night that i found him outside just standing around. We chatted for a while, just as i got up to leave i asked him what he was up to that night, his response was "coming over to your house"...Well He ended up staying for the whole week. By day 3 i was really fighting the deep feelings i started having for him. The night my parents came back from their holiday, i got a phone call from Darren saying he had ended his relationship with his girlfriend, he had really deep feelings for me, and did i want to go out with him?....I did the happy dance around my room....and weve been together ever since. :p :D
When we met i was a staggering 183lbs (83kg), and with my short 5'5" frame you could very easily have called me obese. And it was partially because of my weight, ok, Mostly because of my weight that i didnt want to get involved with anyone, I felt gross, fat and ugly. But with my Man i took a chance....From day one Darren has told me that he loves my body, that i am gorgeous and that he would love me no matter what size i am, but in the back of my mind i kept thinking that he wouldnt look at fat porn, so why would he love my body, shouldnt i look like the girls he oggles in the FHM and Playboy Magazines?!.... (After we started going out, he tossed out the Guys Magazines, even though i hadnt yet expressed my hate for them, he said he didnt need them anymore, and he didnt know why he got them in the first place) although i didnt worry about it that much, it was just my own insecurities, he loved me for me, thats all that mattered.
I knew what was the cause for my weight, I had taken 15 months off after graduating school and did little more than eat and watch TV, plus i was depressed. When i started work suddenly i was active again, and the weight dropped off really easily. I think in the Beginning, and somewhat now, Darren was worried that the weightloss would change me as a person. That suddenly i wouldnt be me anymore, that i wouldnt like the things i liked before and more importantly, that i wouldnt like him anymore. But quite quickly it became evident to Darren that it wasnt the case....I have lost a grand total of 84lbs in the past year, and im still the same old me.
But this whole experience has shown me that it truely isnt what you look like that matters....its whats on the inside that counts.
=================A LITTLE TMI================
In July this year (05), After Darren pushed and begged, I finally bit the bullet and had a Papsmear, my first one. I had had really painful periods since i started menarche when i was 11, but to me it was normal. My Smear result came back CIN3, the worst possible reading you can get from the test. The Result hit us both really hard, but even harder for Darren. Emotions were everywhere, we would be crying one minute and laughing the next. I was facing possible Cervical Cancer, and all we could do was sit and twiddle our thumbs for the next available appointment with a gynae. It was confirmed i have a condition called Endometriosis, (very awful, very painful), so i would have to have surgery to remove the growth from the outside of my uterus. And they would also have to scrape away the majority of my Cervix because there was alot of Cancerous cells, that threatened to spread throughout my body, and unfortunatly once it starts to spread, theres no stopping it....I know for a fact that without Darren basically dragging me down to my GP kicking and screaming, I would never have gone for a pap smear...i would be dead... and I would have missed out on knowing i can be Loved as much as he loves me, and knowing i could love someone as much as i love him....
It was a very hard time for us, and i suppose it still is, knowing the Endometriosis will never leave me, that i will always be in pain and that i will most probably have to have surgery to remove the growths every few years. But the hardest thing, i think more for Darren than myself was when we were told that due to the nature of my condition and the amount of damage that had been done, that there was a 99.9% chance that i would never be able to conceive; If i was able to conceive i would most probably never carry to term, If by some miracle i did carry to term, there would never be a live birth, ever, no If's or maybe's, Never.
My Condition is so unpredictable, its frustrating! One day im perfectly happy and healthy, the next im crippled with pain and cant move or be touched, but fortunatly Darren is VERY understanding, he says so long as we are together, and love each other, nothing else matters. :p
===========================================
We are getting Married Mid next year, after we complete our Army Training. Darren is going into the Regular Army as a Combat Engineer, and i am going into the Reserves as Military Police. I love him so much, He is just the most wonderful person i have ever met!!!
Well thats my introduction of my man, im sure you will hear me *****ing about this or that he has done or said....yes, me over reacting yet again...hehe...
I have pics on my site of myself and my man if you want to have a peek...... www.kinkyskink.bravehost.com (http://www.kinkyskink.bravehost.com)
Cheers,
Brittany