i am not sure if this thread belongs here or not;

i'm not exactly sure what is going on with me. all i want to do is hide in a corner and cry. i can usually snap myself out of these moods by "counting my blessings" and knowing that "this too will pass".

i'm not even sure what brought this on....

well, i sort of know. it's going on winter, i'm laid off. i hate my life just now. i would rather be working. i have tons of stuff i could be doing around the house, if i could just get motivated.

i kind of ignore my husband. but, when i do interact with him, he is nothing but negative. so, i think self-preservation has set in, and in order not to hear the lecture, rant or "fix" i tune him out. i wish he would just go away right around now.

and for some reason, my own behavior has bummed me out. i don't know what to do to help myself.

i feel so alone.....

pembroke,forgive me for posting in here ,I found you by new post section

You may have situational depression,I'm just pulling out of it due to circumstances ,and it's not fun ,and I understand and am rooting for you ,I found by accident in my deepest part that exercise lifts your mood .I was so discouraged that I pulled the dusty weight bench out of the garage ,put it in the then empty living room and decided to get the body in shape .

Taking care of yourself ,exercising ,dressing for success
may be called faking it untill you feel it ,but it works ,we can fool the mind and climb out of dispair .

May the warm sun shine and a slow breeze lift you up

Judit.......

You got laid off???? I'm sorry. That alone could get anyone down.

If it makes you feel any better, I've been feeling the same way these days about my husband ;)

I hope you can work this out and you know where to go if you need to vent ;)

i've been laid off since june. it's normal in my line of work,and ususally i can deal with it. it's just right now i'm falling apart....

thanx.

You sound depressed and you're NOT alone, I'm actually going through the same thing right now and it's a mixture of things that are causing it and as usual I'm gonna get myself through it....hang in there darl (((HUGS)))

Aw, Judit, you are not alone. As William Tell says, it does sound like situational depression and it may be that you'll need to visit your doc to finally "come out of it". Nothing wrong with that.

I have struggled with depression on and off all my life. For the most part I was able to get myself going again by acting "as if". Unfortunately, the pressures of life with ADHD, kids with ADHD, husband a workaholic, etc. drove it to the point I just couldn't fix it by willpower alone. I got help and I'm glad I did.

Hang in there!!!!

Kim

Hi there.

You say you've been laid off since June -- have you noticed your depression getting worse in the last, say, month or two?

A lot of women have seasonal depression, especially it seems women with ADD. It creeps up on you in the fall and worsens over the winter. It makes you feel tired, crabby, sleepy all the time but the more you sleep the worse you feel, angry and irritable, and you want to eat a lot of starches. If you do have that, I suggest you research getting a bright light. They aren't really expensive, you sit in front of it for a certain period a day, and it lifts the worst of the yucks.

I'm sorry you have to deal with a lot of negativaty as well. I totally understand how someone (esp. a spouse) trying to "fix" you can make you crazy -- like, duh. if I could be fixed, don't you think I would have done it by now?

But honestly, I notice that with ADDers boredom can make you feel depressed. Since it's so hard for us to get motivated -- even to do something we want to do -- we fall prey to boredom, are understimulated, then get caught in an emotional sludge. This is especially true for me in the winter, and I'm at home with a baby, which can be horribly boring sometimes.

Try to do something fun for you. Sometimes with ADD we get caught up in a pattern of inertia and can't get out, and fun is a good way to snap out of it. Take care of yourself. Do you think getting some kind of crap job just to have something to do might help?

God bless you!

thank you all for your wonderful support and messages of encouragement. i seem to have "snapped out of it" - at least enought to get on with the stuff i need to do.

i had to make thanksgiving dinner, so that helped, and lately i've been decorating the house for christmas, so that helps.

the unemployment thing is something i've gotten used to over the past 8 years. the work i do is seasonal, so we do get laid off. but that gives me the opportunity to not get bored with my job and do other stuff in the off season.

i do still sleep a lot and snap at times. but spring is coming! and work will start up in january, then i will be very busy. i get to teach the new people. i love that! :)