Hey everybody, I have had an avoidant personality (started out with just extreme shyness since I was little and progressed into isolating myself i.e. I would rather be lonely than face any kind of rejection, also I am a butthole to people I feel would reject me, and I have some perfectionist trates where I feel like nothing I say is good enough if that makes any sense) and I was wondering if anyone out there has this and for any tips, medications or whatever that might help, I'm currently seeing a cognative behavior therapist and an addiction psychiatrist (I'm also bipolar so far and I have used lots of drugs in my past while trying to self medicate) but I'm extremely impatient and it's taking them too long to get to know me because of my avoidance, also I have been on seroquel for a week and I find it to really balance my emotions.

Thanks,
Booger

just got bumped up to 300 mg. of seroquel, really seems to take out all the "negativity" of benign statements from people (i.e. if I hear someone say anything negative in a statement or sexual I don't get all wierd and think they're talking about me) but I still have pretty bad anxiety and ADD, I'm thinking I am the "ring of fire" type that is usually pretty hard to treat. So far so good, I will keep updating as I go.

Glad that you are finding some success...good luck to you and I look forward to your updates :)

Bumped myself back down to 200 last night. I am feeling very irritable and non-social, I can't wait to see the f-ing doctor so I can get something to make me feel better, keep running it through my head on how I'm going to talk to him and it involves "I will flip this g-d f-ing office upside f-ing down if we don't fix whatever the f- is bothering me" because he promised me that it would help with my anxiety, which it hasnt, and he also said that my mood would improve, which it hasn't, I just feel really irritated and down and don't feel like being around anybody. Life is a big bowl of sh-t right now and I am really sick of it. The thing that bothers me the most is that I can't feel happy or excited about anything on this seroquel and I feel just soooooooo ****ed off and yet I can't "get it out" because of this medicine.

Seen my Dr. yesturday and now in search for a new psychiatrist. When I told him that my depression has deepend since going on seroquel he started argueing with me and saying "well thats not what research has shown". So I guess research decides how I should be feeling :mad: . If anyone knows of any good doctors (preferably female, there easier to talk to) around Raliegh NC, please give me a holler, I'm feeling very frustrated and down at the moment.