Gracie31
01-22-06, 05:54 PM
I am a 20 year old college student and it just sort of hit me that I have ADD. It all makes sense now, why I never lived up to everyone else's or my own expectations in school (my grades did not match my intelligence at all), why I blurt things out without thinking only for people to call me out or me to regret it a second later, why I freak out for no reason, assume things that I shouldn't, why every time I watch a movie I've seen a bunch of times it's like I'm watching it for the first time, why I can't recall things when put on the spot, why I felt much more in control when I smoked pot (which I quit doing). I am organized (relatively) in my belongings, although my school work gets a little crazy sometimes; but I feel disorganized in my head. My boss would give me a project at work and it would be a big mess until the very end. Disorder only becomes order when I'm finished. I procrastinate a lot (like right now). I start fights with my boyfriend for no reason really.
I want help, I need it. My mom was always 200 times better when she was on Ritilan for her ADD. I see myself turning into her!!!! I don't want that to happen.
I'm scared to ask a doctor, they'll think I'm self diagnosing and that I'm stupid. (my confidence is shot too). Who do I ask? How do I ask? I feel so alone. Any suggestions?
Thanks!
I want help, I need it. My mom was always 200 times better when she was on Ritilan for her ADD. I see myself turning into her!!!! I don't want that to happen.
I'm scared to ask a doctor, they'll think I'm self diagnosing and that I'm stupid. (my confidence is shot too). Who do I ask? How do I ask? I feel so alone. Any suggestions?
Thanks!