DimensionX
02-12-06, 09:26 PM
Hi,
Well, i suppose i'll start where most people do:
I've been told that I have ADD a few times, by my friends, teachers and parents but I never really took it seriously, I always made jokes about it.
I basically grew up with a the same school report "He is extremely unorganised", "If only he would pay attension", "He's extremely capable if only he put more effort in". The funny thing is I always did put the effort in...admittedly it's was usually only on the day the assignment was given out and the day before or the actually day it was due but I worked my @ss off when I did.
The amount of personal projects that I started and haven't finish are astounding and yet i've completed a grand total of none of them, I start them with so much enthusiasm working on them for about an hour and then I dwindle and stop and do something else like daydream for a couple of hours, stare at the guitar for 5 minutes then start playing it for 20min and change to something else.
I absolutely love things like ski-ing, canoeing, mountain climbing, martial arts, roller blading (although i don't do this anymore though i want to), absailing, playing guitar (though i can't seem to play it for long without changing to something else), swimming and hiking.
I enjoying playing my guitar, piano and bass, I guess you could say that I'm pretty musical, probably due to my mums side of the family. I love music so much, it seems to keep me focused more and eases my frustration, I feel that I can relate to music, it seems to be the only thing that I'm good at and even then I'm not exactly great at it although I've been diagnosed with perfect pitch (bet you haven't guessed but it's something I'm proud of :D).....anyway erm...music, I passed a few music grades with singing and piano (only reason I passed piano was because I was bought up learning it by my mum, it took me ages before I could actually read music though, I always learnt pieces by ear) when I was young, I want to carry on with the grades but I'm kinda really low on the money side of things.
I don't seem to be able to finish long term things, although I can seem to do multiple tasks at the same time quite well, strange thing is though I'm extremely unorganised so you wouldn't really think that I would be able to do that kinda thing. I'm sure this pretty much applies to everyone but I can only seem to focus on something i really enjoy well, things like...can't actually think of anything at the moment...ahah! things like, heh, funnily enough anything thats to do with organisation i can't do to save my life and things like study skills, example:
A mate actually had to trick me into doing my assignment for Study Skills, he made a terrible version of his assignment (I didn't know that he had already finished his work apart from the presentation) drove me to uni (university or 'college' depending on if your american or not) choose a room that was empty and we worked together, after about an hour of me accomplishing nothing and him finishing the presentation he showed me his work and I felt really bad, to me it seemed that he had tried but failed miserably and I knew he was capable of doing much better, I then proceeded to correct his work and basically competely redo it (I don't normally do this but I always help my friends over myself) he thanked me and said that he 'owed me one' he acted a little odd but I didn't really pay much attension to it, anyway I had enough after 2 or 3 hours on my work accomplishing nothing so we both went home. On the day it was due I was about to hand in my pityful assignment and he gave me the assignment of what I basically did for him when I asked what he was doing he showed me his actually assignment, the craft ******* had taken advantage of my willingness to help others to actually make me do a good job of my assignment.
I have a tendency to fidget alot for example just by writing what I have i've changed sitting position alot of times (didn't bother to count since I only just remembered about the whole 'fidgeting' thing. My teachers used to actually place bets on how long it would take for me to stand up and have a walk around or 'fidget'....kinda cruel really thinking about it, they also made class bets on what grade I would get for my assignments usually betting on EE or DD, one of my mates bet for me getting a CC saying that if I could easily get an AA if I could stay focused but knowing me I wouldn't, I still appreciated him thinking I would get a CC all the same sadly enough that was actually the highest a person bet, sadly though I got a DD putting me a lil in dept.
Things like ICT and music I always did well on...well...the thing that always let me down was the write up since I simply didn't like doing it.
...sorry i've just realised how much i've waffled on i'll try and keep it shorter.
I climb on stuff hand railings and such, I like trying to do backflips and forward flips things like that, managed to do a one handed backflip first time, I basically thought about doing it for a while and just knew I could do it and did it, things like backflips and forward flips I put down pillows and stuff simply cause I know I can't yet ( the whole climbing on things is quite a regular thing for me).
I misplace everything and I get so frustrated a good example would be guitar picks, they drive me absolutely insane I can never find them, I buy litterally 20 of them at a time and lose them all in about a week.
People can tell me stuff and although I'm actually trying to listen I forget it instantly and have to ask what they said (often annoys my friends and teachers).
I'm quite a 'think skinned' person, suppose I kind of had to be really being slightly bullied at primary school and verbal insults throughout my life, never really got me down that much at all really, I'll give you a more current example: people at my work place call me lightning because I'm extremely slow at doing certain tasks.
I get bored extremely easily always changing what I'm doing constantly.
Although other people seem to think I have some sort of 'hidden' intellegence, I class myself as quite idiotic.
I've taken aload of these online test things and alot of the characteristics asociated with ADD seem to descibe my daily life example: it seems like the usual thing is something like 8 or 10 characteristics classify you as having a high probability of ADD, I got an average of 15 out of 20 on a couple of the tests that are in more detail specifying the subtle characterists I got 44 in average and highest was 47 note: they said if you have 20 it's a strong possibility, although I realise that this might not indicate anything since most people have experienced alot of the symptoms, I tend to do most of the things constantly
My main interests in:
Biology
music
programming
psycology
(can't remember what it's called but it's basically 'meaning of life' stuff i.e. the superstring and M theories.
I get distracted extremely easily/quickly a couple of examples:
So far it's taken me a lil over two hours to write this so far because I've been playing guitar and watching parts of films.
I can get distracted by hearing someone go down the stairs, i take in accordence the volume, the speed and the pitch of the sound and guess who it was...I don't think that I've gotten it wrong once yet (I usually check afterwards)
If I hear music (baring in mind I live with housemates and we're students so it happens alot) I stop what I'm doing and try and guess who it is and the song title (i'm usually right), if i don't have a clue I go into the persons room and just listen for a while after getting quite annoyed at myself for not being able to guess it I ask the person playing the music.
If I hear music that has a guitar solo in it I quite litterally walk quickly or run to the room and just listen (I only run if it's a band like Dream theater and the songs something like Hells Kitchen (btw I strongly recommend anyone and everyone to listen to it, amazing song)), unfortunately my housemates have noticed this and on purpose to wind me up don't tell me the artist and song title, which pi**'s me off no end, I then have to go to my computer and look it up especially if the song is familiar.
I also get unnecessary angry if i'm listening to a guitar solo and the person stops it midflow, I mean surely that annoys everyone, you just don't stop a solo period it's just....(can't believe i'm using this word) disrespectful towards the guitarist and absolutely destroys the picture of emotion that the musicians are trying to paint with the song (btw depending on the song i'm listening to it actually changes the mood I'm in sometimes quite drastically (although not all the time)).
I tend to talk alot basically saying something and then expanding on it to try and explain the reasoning behind my choice of words.
I have a kind of low opinion of myself and alot of people have noted on my low confidence, but I don't concider myself depressed as I'm quite optimistic, I believe in people, I trust people quite quickly, I don't dispair at all or anything like that.
I day dream alot, and when i'm reading I tend to reread one line like five times before realising it and move on, also I tend to skip alot when reading for example I could be reading a section and then glance at another part on the page and start reading from then on.
I have a tendency to reread books and films ALOT and i really mean alot for example I borrowed a film called swordfish from a mate and gave it back the next afternoon having watched it 5 times back to back, I don't know why I do this, weither I try and watch firstly from my point of view and then from each of the characters point of view and try and find the hidden meaning behind it I don't know.
A more or less perfect example was with one of the new modules I took last yeah, can't remember what it was called but I was really excited to prove myself at uni, the first part of the assignment was just a short bit of which I had to make an excel document that took in data and outputted predictions of the changes that could happen over following months (I think it's called forecasting not sure though) I got top marks for it, the 2nd part was just extending it and the realisation dawned on me, we were learning nothing new it was just the same old excel c*** that I did in ICT A-level and although I put the same effort in I found myself getting more distracted more often and my grades litterally plumetted 1st part: A, 2nd part: C, 3rd part: E 4th part: F, and i got extremely frustrated with myself as I was trying hard and I knew I could do each of them but I just....couldn't, even my friends couldn't understand why I couldn't pass the module, one mate wouldn't believe my other mates when they said to him that I had failed, he even had a go at me saying "you even helped me with mine! get yourself together and put more effort in", when I said I was trying he wouldn't believe me.
I have a terribly inconsistant sleeping pattern example: at the moment I'm awake until about 9/10am I then sleep until about 6/7pm, I can never seem to get in a regular sleeping pattern and when I finally do I don't really like it.
oh well...I think i've taken up enough of the readers time and I apollogise for doing that as I said before I tend to ramble and go off topic, from what I've said does it seem like I have ADD?, should I get diagnosed?, should I keep it to myself if I am diagnosed with ADD?
Well, i suppose i'll start where most people do:
I've been told that I have ADD a few times, by my friends, teachers and parents but I never really took it seriously, I always made jokes about it.
I basically grew up with a the same school report "He is extremely unorganised", "If only he would pay attension", "He's extremely capable if only he put more effort in". The funny thing is I always did put the effort in...admittedly it's was usually only on the day the assignment was given out and the day before or the actually day it was due but I worked my @ss off when I did.
The amount of personal projects that I started and haven't finish are astounding and yet i've completed a grand total of none of them, I start them with so much enthusiasm working on them for about an hour and then I dwindle and stop and do something else like daydream for a couple of hours, stare at the guitar for 5 minutes then start playing it for 20min and change to something else.
I absolutely love things like ski-ing, canoeing, mountain climbing, martial arts, roller blading (although i don't do this anymore though i want to), absailing, playing guitar (though i can't seem to play it for long without changing to something else), swimming and hiking.
I enjoying playing my guitar, piano and bass, I guess you could say that I'm pretty musical, probably due to my mums side of the family. I love music so much, it seems to keep me focused more and eases my frustration, I feel that I can relate to music, it seems to be the only thing that I'm good at and even then I'm not exactly great at it although I've been diagnosed with perfect pitch (bet you haven't guessed but it's something I'm proud of :D).....anyway erm...music, I passed a few music grades with singing and piano (only reason I passed piano was because I was bought up learning it by my mum, it took me ages before I could actually read music though, I always learnt pieces by ear) when I was young, I want to carry on with the grades but I'm kinda really low on the money side of things.
I don't seem to be able to finish long term things, although I can seem to do multiple tasks at the same time quite well, strange thing is though I'm extremely unorganised so you wouldn't really think that I would be able to do that kinda thing. I'm sure this pretty much applies to everyone but I can only seem to focus on something i really enjoy well, things like...can't actually think of anything at the moment...ahah! things like, heh, funnily enough anything thats to do with organisation i can't do to save my life and things like study skills, example:
A mate actually had to trick me into doing my assignment for Study Skills, he made a terrible version of his assignment (I didn't know that he had already finished his work apart from the presentation) drove me to uni (university or 'college' depending on if your american or not) choose a room that was empty and we worked together, after about an hour of me accomplishing nothing and him finishing the presentation he showed me his work and I felt really bad, to me it seemed that he had tried but failed miserably and I knew he was capable of doing much better, I then proceeded to correct his work and basically competely redo it (I don't normally do this but I always help my friends over myself) he thanked me and said that he 'owed me one' he acted a little odd but I didn't really pay much attension to it, anyway I had enough after 2 or 3 hours on my work accomplishing nothing so we both went home. On the day it was due I was about to hand in my pityful assignment and he gave me the assignment of what I basically did for him when I asked what he was doing he showed me his actually assignment, the craft ******* had taken advantage of my willingness to help others to actually make me do a good job of my assignment.
I have a tendency to fidget alot for example just by writing what I have i've changed sitting position alot of times (didn't bother to count since I only just remembered about the whole 'fidgeting' thing. My teachers used to actually place bets on how long it would take for me to stand up and have a walk around or 'fidget'....kinda cruel really thinking about it, they also made class bets on what grade I would get for my assignments usually betting on EE or DD, one of my mates bet for me getting a CC saying that if I could easily get an AA if I could stay focused but knowing me I wouldn't, I still appreciated him thinking I would get a CC all the same sadly enough that was actually the highest a person bet, sadly though I got a DD putting me a lil in dept.
Things like ICT and music I always did well on...well...the thing that always let me down was the write up since I simply didn't like doing it.
...sorry i've just realised how much i've waffled on i'll try and keep it shorter.
I climb on stuff hand railings and such, I like trying to do backflips and forward flips things like that, managed to do a one handed backflip first time, I basically thought about doing it for a while and just knew I could do it and did it, things like backflips and forward flips I put down pillows and stuff simply cause I know I can't yet ( the whole climbing on things is quite a regular thing for me).
I misplace everything and I get so frustrated a good example would be guitar picks, they drive me absolutely insane I can never find them, I buy litterally 20 of them at a time and lose them all in about a week.
People can tell me stuff and although I'm actually trying to listen I forget it instantly and have to ask what they said (often annoys my friends and teachers).
I'm quite a 'think skinned' person, suppose I kind of had to be really being slightly bullied at primary school and verbal insults throughout my life, never really got me down that much at all really, I'll give you a more current example: people at my work place call me lightning because I'm extremely slow at doing certain tasks.
I get bored extremely easily always changing what I'm doing constantly.
Although other people seem to think I have some sort of 'hidden' intellegence, I class myself as quite idiotic.
I've taken aload of these online test things and alot of the characteristics asociated with ADD seem to descibe my daily life example: it seems like the usual thing is something like 8 or 10 characteristics classify you as having a high probability of ADD, I got an average of 15 out of 20 on a couple of the tests that are in more detail specifying the subtle characterists I got 44 in average and highest was 47 note: they said if you have 20 it's a strong possibility, although I realise that this might not indicate anything since most people have experienced alot of the symptoms, I tend to do most of the things constantly
My main interests in:
Biology
music
programming
psycology
(can't remember what it's called but it's basically 'meaning of life' stuff i.e. the superstring and M theories.
I get distracted extremely easily/quickly a couple of examples:
So far it's taken me a lil over two hours to write this so far because I've been playing guitar and watching parts of films.
I can get distracted by hearing someone go down the stairs, i take in accordence the volume, the speed and the pitch of the sound and guess who it was...I don't think that I've gotten it wrong once yet (I usually check afterwards)
If I hear music (baring in mind I live with housemates and we're students so it happens alot) I stop what I'm doing and try and guess who it is and the song title (i'm usually right), if i don't have a clue I go into the persons room and just listen for a while after getting quite annoyed at myself for not being able to guess it I ask the person playing the music.
If I hear music that has a guitar solo in it I quite litterally walk quickly or run to the room and just listen (I only run if it's a band like Dream theater and the songs something like Hells Kitchen (btw I strongly recommend anyone and everyone to listen to it, amazing song)), unfortunately my housemates have noticed this and on purpose to wind me up don't tell me the artist and song title, which pi**'s me off no end, I then have to go to my computer and look it up especially if the song is familiar.
I also get unnecessary angry if i'm listening to a guitar solo and the person stops it midflow, I mean surely that annoys everyone, you just don't stop a solo period it's just....(can't believe i'm using this word) disrespectful towards the guitarist and absolutely destroys the picture of emotion that the musicians are trying to paint with the song (btw depending on the song i'm listening to it actually changes the mood I'm in sometimes quite drastically (although not all the time)).
I tend to talk alot basically saying something and then expanding on it to try and explain the reasoning behind my choice of words.
I have a kind of low opinion of myself and alot of people have noted on my low confidence, but I don't concider myself depressed as I'm quite optimistic, I believe in people, I trust people quite quickly, I don't dispair at all or anything like that.
I day dream alot, and when i'm reading I tend to reread one line like five times before realising it and move on, also I tend to skip alot when reading for example I could be reading a section and then glance at another part on the page and start reading from then on.
I have a tendency to reread books and films ALOT and i really mean alot for example I borrowed a film called swordfish from a mate and gave it back the next afternoon having watched it 5 times back to back, I don't know why I do this, weither I try and watch firstly from my point of view and then from each of the characters point of view and try and find the hidden meaning behind it I don't know.
A more or less perfect example was with one of the new modules I took last yeah, can't remember what it was called but I was really excited to prove myself at uni, the first part of the assignment was just a short bit of which I had to make an excel document that took in data and outputted predictions of the changes that could happen over following months (I think it's called forecasting not sure though) I got top marks for it, the 2nd part was just extending it and the realisation dawned on me, we were learning nothing new it was just the same old excel c*** that I did in ICT A-level and although I put the same effort in I found myself getting more distracted more often and my grades litterally plumetted 1st part: A, 2nd part: C, 3rd part: E 4th part: F, and i got extremely frustrated with myself as I was trying hard and I knew I could do each of them but I just....couldn't, even my friends couldn't understand why I couldn't pass the module, one mate wouldn't believe my other mates when they said to him that I had failed, he even had a go at me saying "you even helped me with mine! get yourself together and put more effort in", when I said I was trying he wouldn't believe me.
I have a terribly inconsistant sleeping pattern example: at the moment I'm awake until about 9/10am I then sleep until about 6/7pm, I can never seem to get in a regular sleeping pattern and when I finally do I don't really like it.
oh well...I think i've taken up enough of the readers time and I apollogise for doing that as I said before I tend to ramble and go off topic, from what I've said does it seem like I have ADD?, should I get diagnosed?, should I keep it to myself if I am diagnosed with ADD?