after 32 years of weirdness .. i went to see a doc the other day .... and was told as a child i had ADD... and it developed into Bipolar as i became an adult i feel like i was diagnosed with a life threatening disease like aids or something i try to talk to people around me like friends and family and they basically tell me to suck it up and MAN up ... it's frustrating i feel like im really jacked up they got me on a bunch of meds im not even sure why im posting something .

hey come here and hug up . I know its quite scary and strange and wierd and all its just the unknown . Keep posting though , is there any music that you like listening that just soothes you ?, i like shoving Jack Jonson on album In Between Dreams and my god whoosh it helps. Jess xx

yea i see what your sayin i think im in the part where like someone that just woke from a coma and found out they were in a accident if that makes sence

It is an odd sensation to suddenly see a side of yourself that you never saw before. For me, the experience was more than a little erie... and the fun continues...

Be glad you are getting treated. I was just watching my bipolar neighbor push a broken , empty baby carriage around the town center while she raged continuously, for 2 hours while I had dinner with friends at the cafe there... I asked her what the cariage was for and she simply said "no, none, not not gonna happen..." or something to that effect. Someone told me she had been doing that all day. She is in her manic phase and refuses medication....

ME :D

yea they have me on a cocktail of medications ... seroquel.. depakote... and strattera my doc. says i should think about getting on SSI ... but im thinkin hell no ... i like to work to much to just sit around

Welcome to the forums, NO4H. Sorry you got such an unexpected bit of news. All this takes some getting used to -- diagnosis, looking back at your life and starting to fit the pieces together, adjusting to medication. Takes the family a while to adjust too -- I found seeing a therapist really helped through the transition to figure out where to from here, deal with the feelings around all this, and to achieve my best functioning. Support is important -- so is taking care of yourself! Learn all you can -- there's a lot of people here who can relate to what you're going through and help you learn more about all this. This believe it or not can be the beginning of something better for you, but it takes a bit of adjusting first. John Ratey has a good book called Shadow Syndromes that includes discussions of the hows and why of disorders like ADD/bipolar and others and give suggestions for how to maximize your life. I like it because it is hopeful as well as full of good science for understanding how mental disabilities show up and effect one's life.


Take gentle care,
Scattered

My name is Kim. I am 41. I have bipolar and narcolepsy. I am also on a lot of medications that I think is bull****. If you would like to talk reply back.