Vacationland
05-24-06, 10:11 PM
I started taking the stuff 3 weeks ago. For the first two weeks it seemed to be helping me focus. I'm the combined type - I space out, can't concentrate, and have a lot of trouble with impulsivity (mainly verbal), but I also have times when I feel like I'm going to die if I don't move.
Anyway, like I said, for the first 2 weeks it seemed like it helped me concentrate, sort of. It was a small dose (15 mg), but I felt more focused, but kind of dumb. I didn't feel hyper at all during the day, but I got a bit twitchy in the early evening.
The last few days have been wierd though. On Monday I was a total spaz, bouncing off walls, jabbering like a nut, unless I had a specific task to do, then I was fine.
Today I was calm and focused all day, but I had a massive crash this evening. It was like the worst twitchy, hyperactive feeling I've ever had, times 10. Beyond that, it felt like I was on an emotional rollercoaster. I was mostly just impatient and irritable. I couldn't handle being sopken to. I tried to make shortcake (4 ingredients, 3 steps?) and had to read the recipe like 15 times. I lost the bisquik on hte counter in front of me at least 3 times, and several times I spent like 30 seconds trying to read the shortcake recipe off a box of sugar.
There're a few other things going on chemically. I quit chewing (Kodiak) about the same time I started adderall. I also took a benadril in the morning with the adderall for most of the last week or so. Today I skipped the benadril, just in case that was the issue. My primary care doc said it should have been fine but to avoid sudafed.
So what is this supposed to feel like? It seems like I'm mostly doing better at work and I feel a lot clearer and more focused. I haven't felt the gray cloud lately when I try to focus. I'm not depressed at all and I actually feel pretty good about how things are going but I'm emotional hs hell and I think I'm startoing to repeat myself so I'll stop.
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Oh, I went from 15 mg to 20 mg yesterday. Today was the first day on 20.
Anyway, like I said, for the first 2 weeks it seemed like it helped me concentrate, sort of. It was a small dose (15 mg), but I felt more focused, but kind of dumb. I didn't feel hyper at all during the day, but I got a bit twitchy in the early evening.
The last few days have been wierd though. On Monday I was a total spaz, bouncing off walls, jabbering like a nut, unless I had a specific task to do, then I was fine.
Today I was calm and focused all day, but I had a massive crash this evening. It was like the worst twitchy, hyperactive feeling I've ever had, times 10. Beyond that, it felt like I was on an emotional rollercoaster. I was mostly just impatient and irritable. I couldn't handle being sopken to. I tried to make shortcake (4 ingredients, 3 steps?) and had to read the recipe like 15 times. I lost the bisquik on hte counter in front of me at least 3 times, and several times I spent like 30 seconds trying to read the shortcake recipe off a box of sugar.
There're a few other things going on chemically. I quit chewing (Kodiak) about the same time I started adderall. I also took a benadril in the morning with the adderall for most of the last week or so. Today I skipped the benadril, just in case that was the issue. My primary care doc said it should have been fine but to avoid sudafed.
So what is this supposed to feel like? It seems like I'm mostly doing better at work and I feel a lot clearer and more focused. I haven't felt the gray cloud lately when I try to focus. I'm not depressed at all and I actually feel pretty good about how things are going but I'm emotional hs hell and I think I'm startoing to repeat myself so I'll stop.
?
Oh, I went from 15 mg to 20 mg yesterday. Today was the first day on 20.