Over the past few weeks ive had sometime to think about Adderall and its uses that benefit me and hurt me. Ive noticed overall that it makes me a different person, a more "moody" person. My girlfriend wants to take a break from me right now and says that I was really mean to her during our relationship. I admit I was not the best boyfriend a lot of the time. But thinking back towards the end of our relationship was when i first started taking adderall. it contuined into college where Lisa and I tried make it work. I was an ******* to her when I was away at college and an ******* to her when she was at college. Whenever i would read her emails I would be coming down "withdraw stage" of the Adderall causing me to act deceitful and mean. After all of this I have come to memories of co-workers of mine saying how sometimes im fine and other times i get really moody (when the adderall wears off), ive had roommates say the same thing, i get "moody". My mind is starting to clear and I am beginning to realize maybe adderall is just not for me, it sure does help me study although the high isnt as good anymore. Im torn whether this is a problem with only me or if anyone else experiences these different behaviors.
P.S. I chew my pills because swallowing them as no effect anymore
Thank you for your time.

I hope that you are taking your Adderall as directed - particularly where the dosage is concerned. Too much stimulant is as bad - worse, due to the risk - than not treating your ADD/ADHD at all. And chewing the pills is a very bad idea - this is not taking them as directed. When others notice your mood changes, it might be a "wake-up call" that you are not medicating properly or that the meds are not quite right. You should mention this to your doctor. Other medications are available that may work better for you - some work better than others, it all depends on the person. You have to be honest with yourself as to how well the medication is working and why you are taking it. Taking a "vacation" from medication might not be a bad idea in your case, especially if you are unsure of it's effects. Stimulant medication should not really have a profound effect on a person's personality, and certainly not such a negative one.
Please do talk to your doctor about this.
Greg

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No! "Bump Bump" is "Stupid Stupid" unless recommended or prescribed by a doctor.
I'd like to remind you that talk of illegal or improper use is also against the forum guidelines - this is not what the site is for.