ok ... finally i'am posting this on a forum !!

i guess we call it Scrupulosity ........ that i think of awful things related to something and then something else comes in my mind and then i NEED to think about that think but this time i try to make it look positive .. i think something which worried me in a positive way ..... thou if i had a stupid thought during that , which disturbed me or something then i'll do it all over again .. well , luckly maybe my OCD is just mild that if i ignore that for 2-3 second that urge to think fades away ... but when it comes in my mind that i hav'nt thought about that 'positive thing' correctly , it disturbs me again ................... BAD BAD thoughts comes .. but i can ignore them , once i did that .. no problem! .... if i think about them again ...... it disturbs me back!!


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WAS A LOT OF CONFUSING UP THERE ....... BUT ...... YOU UNDERSTAND
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.. ok .. now to be real decent , coz this part is real serious .. and is bothering me right now so i'am really , really sensitive about it

I get this thought that:if i'll keep on thinking about Something , then i'll get to know something that nobody ever have known before.. And i have a good reason for that because i was able to think such things which an average person "CAN'T" think .. maybe i consider myself as super above average intelligence?? ... but still i tend to ignore that thought .. but while ignoring it , if a thought of something else comes in my mind like a girl or something which ATTRACTS me .. then whenever i think about it , i reach to the conclusion that "I WOULD HAVE KNOWN SOMETHING WHICH NO ONE HAVE KNOWN BEFORE IF IT WAS'NT THAT FOR FREAKIN GIRL THOUGHT.."

some of these things , or maybe all of them may sound stupid .. but ... hope you'll get what i tried to Tell!

No they dont sound stupid. I am new to OCD having just encountered it this year with my son - but the thought processes dont have to make sense, for my son the toughts are "real" - have you ever thought of going to the doctors to get a referral. My son is currently awaiting to see a professional to get Cognitive Behavioral Therapy to help him to deal with this thoughts.

Although his trigger it turns out was the over strict discipline of a teacher - according to the consultants report - I have now moved his school and he is doing brilliantly. Almost back to his non OCD self.

All we have left to deal with is a fear of raisins and the thought that if he plays on his PS2 before he leaves the house it has to end on a good note (A win) or the rest of his day will be bad. he gets really frustrated if he is in a hurry. I'm no expert but I know there are specialists who can help you to learn to control the thoughts - though it sounds like you are doing a fab job already.


The people on this site have been a tremendous support to me - stick around Im sure they will have lots more advice to give much better than I can.

well i'am kinda hyper active .. so i want to 'sort everything out' .. thats the only thing forcing me to do that repeatitive thinking .. like i don't want to leave anything thinking that 'HEY .. THATS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I'VE EVER THOUGHT ABOUT .. AND IF I DID'NT ACT UPON IT THEN ALL THE REST I THINK IS KINDA ....... USELESS .... WORTHLESS......' ... then two options comes in front of me .. Either follow what i've thought about ...... and the second one is Don't ... that thing is not such a big thing and i can do it in no time , maybe without any problems .. but something stops me from doing that .. so i stop but then when i think about it a bit .. then the same thing appears in my mind 'HEY .. THATS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I'VE EVER THOUGHT ABOUT .. AND IF I DID'NT ACT UPON IT THEN ALL THE REST I THINK IS KINDA ....... USELESS .... WORTHLESS......' ................... then what i think?? simply i go that ..... 'WHAT EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR .... WHATEVER HAPPENS .... HAPPENS' .. but then again when it comes in my mind .. i again think 'Should i've done that thing?' ....... thats real irritating
any suggestions?

ok double posts!

Can i ask What are those 'real' thoughts?

He goes through phases. In the beginning he believed that he was a bad person and that God would punish him if he did not say sorry to God continuously - he's a great kid - but he linked it to Noah's ark and when the people offended God he drowned them so he thought God would hurt his family because he had been naughty. He used to think he had made swearing signs with his hands but he hadnt. Then it went to a fear of germs - so he couldnt swallow as he thought the saliva would make him sick - a fear of raisins so he couldnt get into supermarkets - each time we have got him over the fears with small steps. He is seeing the consultant in a couple of weeks but is already so much better.

She said it was when he cant cope with stress he goes into these obsessive compulsive behaviours rather than face the thing that is worrying him. It was the overstrict discipline of the teacher that has triggered this episode according to the consultant. He is on the waiting list to get some therapy but is almost back to his old self by removing him from the school. It's been a nightmare for both of us.