I ran out of Adderall on Tuesday. I wanted to talk about a med tweak with Doc at next Monday appt. so plan was to wait till Monday for new script. Here is how Wednesday went ...

Task: Analyze a group of computer code functions and write documentation something I do not enjoy doing. Started 9 AM. Couldn't focus. Used old trick of writing down task, let brain wander, periodically look at written task, sooner or later brain locks in and I am off and running.

Brain locks in at 11:30 AM. Started documentation. Had till 12:30 to complete. Did not complete on time.

Started new task at 1 PM. Another task I hate doing. I decided at some level it would be better to research ADHD motor control problems. Find info far more complex than what I was suppose to be doing but so fascinating I go into hyperfocus on motor control info as the anxiety continues to build because I am not getting priority task done. 4 PM start 1PM task. I am in total agony because task is boring me silly. But I fight tooth and nail and have it done 6 PM. I figure it took at least 2x longer than if I had meds.

Wednesday's total productive time: 2 hrs out of a 9 hour work day.

Wednesday evening collapsed at 7:30 PM. The day long fight I had with my brain left me exhausted.

Is that how it similarly goes for you without meds?

Bob

PS Called for new script Thursday. I couldn't bear the wait till Monday any longer.

Sounds like my daily routine, lol.

yeeeeeeeep thats me without meds. Oh boy am I glad I have meds now. What you described is exactly how the days go when I try to do some tedious homework without the help of meds. I dont think theres anything more than the frusteration on those days.

Last week I decided I wanted to see what I was like off meds..I've been on it for 4.5 months now and I thought I'd remind myself what it used to be like. Yeah, worst 4 days of the past 4.5 months. I'd forgotten the frusteration, extreme lack of activation and motivation, constant boredom, etc...in 4 days my room became like a bomb testing ground(I dont know how I could be that messy!!!), i did nothing at work and felt irritated being there, I didnt do a bit of homework, and that pretty much describes my approach to everything.
Yesterday was the first day I took my meds again(I didn't think I could handle another weekend at work feeling like that)and I am feeling very very good now. Actually at this very moment I am sitting here trying to do homework that I started 4 hours ago and have written 3 words/3 pages because I can't focus and am getting frusterated and a little worried(meds have clearly worn off) but for the most part I feel very much relieved.

Yeah and my meds don't always solve the whole problem either but they definitely help. I still have to use a LOT of self-discipline. Your day sounds like a lot of my days actually. But then my job really is totally boring to me in all aspects. I am going back to school to get into another occupation eventually but for now...it is a struggle. At least I have something to look forward to though! :)

oh dear, yep this is me all over, im not even medicated, this has made me see how important it is to get myself some help and medication i suppose!

my day to day rutine isnt so hard at the moment because im on summer holiday from school! nothing needs to be handed in so im ok, no deadlines, no exams for now so im just drifting through week to week really! then im to go to college that starts in sept and if i don't get med i guess it will be the same as school! lol my entire school life was a big frustration mess for me with deadlines ect and i realise now that that was all ment to be easy, ths difficult parts my next step in life, and im not sure if i will cope! i used to faint alot when there were deadlines and i felt i couldnt controle my life, lol out of controle, really it was hell in my head! the last couple of days of school when all courswork, essays etc were to be handed in i was quick sick! iv always been usuless at deadlines and keeping focus on one project!

but yeah i don't have medication and what you described is my day to day life! messy!

(well not at the mo as on holiday but when i get back into cleege im sure it will be just the same)