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DimensionX 08-07-06, 03:07 PM ok, mentally speaking things are getting worse, i'm just plain bored, i project realities of myself in various jobs based on my current personality triats and abilities, in all of them i can see myself doing really well (unless i'm around very introvert people then i'm doing well and being a lil loud and cocky) and then after about 6 months down the line i want to do something else more interesting but don't want to leave the job so i would search for it and do it but let the boring stuff that i would have to do slip, then after about a month after that i'll become extremely lethargic and bored and pretty much feel like doing anything but spinning around on chairs a massive chore.
truth is i know i need to change, truth is i know how to change but i don't want to, i seem content just floating along and whats worse is it's getting worse, i find myself in a haze not thinking when i want to and constantly thinking about stuff just after i talk to a mate.
my mind wants to soar but my wings are clipped, i'm starting to feel like i'm walking through mud like theres this constant substance thats slowing me down, my moment of peace is when i see the women that i love, as soon as i hear her voice or see her face my mind goes completely blank, i'm no longer worried about anything, i almost feel like i'm floating, as soon as our conversation stops i start to feel the pull of the impending tiredness i've grown to loath, i'm no longer interested in my guitar, it just stands there in it's stand, i stare at it wanting to play it but have no energy in which to do so, also feel there isn't that much of a point since i just play the same stuff over and over again plus i never get the sound i want.
anyone else feel like this?, i'm don't suffer from depression or anything like that, it's just really frustrating
chloe516 08-07-06, 03:20 PM I go through times of feeling the same way. I feel interest in nothing and feel like I am capable of nothing. I don't necessarily feel depressed or sad, just lethargic and lazy. For me, it's usually when I'm feeling bored and lonely.
Is it possible that when you go back to Uni you will start to feel more interest in things? More going on around you to keep you from becoming bored, thus you are more active, hopefully less stressed, and more interested in the things you love?
I think everyone goes though times of feeling like this, whether it's clinical depression or just boredom and feeling of helplessness.
I know you are feeling very stressed right now, is it possible that's contributing to these feelings as well? Could your interest in things come back some more when you are feeling more relaxed?
You are intelligent and capable, I hope you always remember that. Maybe you don't want to continue with your chosen career path, and that's ok. Some people are never sure they are in the "right" career, all you can do is choose the path, professional and personal, that is best for you right now. :p
Aizlyne 08-07-06, 03:34 PM I often get caught in a cycle of daydreaming. An activity that is somtimes more interesting to me then any of the other options I can think of. I waiste hours at a time just thinking about things.
When I do get into another activity, I usually enjoy it, but after I"m done the memory of how good it feels to be productive seems to fade away quite fast, because I start daydreaming again.
Just living on my own in Boston this summer I have realized how boring a lot of free time can be. There has just been nothing outside my apartment for me to do other then the occasional movie. Yet I always feel overwhelmed or stressed..and lazy. I think that's because human beings are naturally happiest when they are doing somthing they enjoy, even if it takes a lot of energy.
I'm nervous and excited about my fall semester coming up in about a month mostly because I will be back on a schedule again.
So far I have officially changed my major three times, but I have changed my idea of what I want out of life inumerable times. We're young though, and even though in theory we have a lot of time to choose what we want out of life, financial pressure and outside expectations are telling us we need to sort it all out now! I think changing our minds is natural and good, but stresssful. Wrap boredom up in the mix and things get pretty overwhelming.
Try your best to relax so that you can get through what you need to. I hope you feel better soon.:)
DimensionX 08-07-06, 04:04 PM i know that i have at least average intelligence, i know that i'm definately capable of doing stuff (just can never accomplish what i know i'm capable of) i think it's probably because of a couple of reasons, one mates are going and the others probably because i'm a bit different from alot of people in the sense that i've never cared about money, now that i kinda have to have it, i just really hate it, also don't have much interest in material objects, more interested in experiences, i suppose i kinda live through other people in that sense.
i've choosen a career path? :confused: i have no clue on the career front, gonna be tedious and fun figuring that out ;)
Crazy~Feet 08-07-06, 04:07 PM anyone else feel like this?Yes, many times.
i'm don't suffer from depression or anything like thatAre you sure? Untreated ADHD tends to create some degree of depression due to frustration after all.
it's just really frustratingMASSIVELY!! Have you seen a doctor yet, Lee??
Crazy :cool:
DimensionX 08-07-06, 04:10 PM very sure, kinda refuse to think that i have depression :P
it's more that i can't seem to engage in anything at all
nope
Crazy~Feet 08-07-06, 04:15 PM very sure, kinda refuse to think that i have depression :P
it's more that i can't seem to engage in anything at all
nopeTherein lies the crux, my old friend :).
I happen to have both, and if either one is not being addressed? I do not engage in anything (at least in my opinion). I believe the forum members find my advice prudent and helpful, but it amounts to my doing little in real life and sometimes nothing at all.
When do you plan to see the doctor?
Crazy :cool:
DimensionX 08-07-06, 04:21 PM within a period of a year?....maybe....
i know what you mean, i was like that too about a month ago.
it's interesting that you choose that quote.....do you feel add/adhd is the solution that will break humanity from it's selfdestructive and linear thinking? ;)
oh, theres so many different interprutations of that sentence :faint:
Crazy~Feet 08-07-06, 04:37 PM within a period of a year?....maybe....
:eyebrow: Have you filed "see doctor" in the "NOT NOW" file? I have a "NOT NOW" file ya know; many things get filed there and are not seen again for many years. ;)
i know what you mean, i was like that too about a month ago.:eyebrow: Hmmmmmm verrrrry interesting! Then you cannot refute my hypothesis aye?
it's interesting that you choose that quote.....do you feel add/adhd is the solution that will break humanity from it's selfdestructive and linear thinking? ;)
LOL! Which quote? Yours? Or my own father's tricky little bit?
oh, theres so many different interprutations of that sentence :faint:And that in of itself is a mighty 13-dimensional statement. Sounds like something I would say! Have I mentioned I have severe ADHD ;).
Keep talking Lee, it is unhelpful to get "stuck". Of course, you may consider me to be playing the Pot to your Kettle :D.
Crazy :cool:
DimensionX 08-07-06, 04:47 PM i don't have a file, bit pointless, wouldn't keep up with it :p
have i mentioned that i contradict myself alot without meaning to?, but i do refuse to believe that i have depression
your 4400 one
actually what i said was quite linear
fair enough ;)
Aizlyne 08-07-06, 04:55 PM kinda refuse to think that i have depression :P
Mind over matter? Very possible, but I think if gettting rid of depression or preventing it was as easy as simply denying it there'd be a lot less people in the world with it.
I deal with little bouts of it here and there. But it used to be bad enough where I had to take medication for it. I"m glad to be getting better. I"m still a bit meloncholy when I get serious but I'm a million times better now then I was a few years ago.
What is it with you men and not wanting to go to the doctor?:p lol.
Boredom can look like depression too. But chronic boredom can turn into depression. So whether or not you are depressed now isn't as important as recognizing that in the very least the boredom needs to be tackled head on so that aimless, understimulated feeling doesn't get any darker then that.
Crazy~Feet 08-07-06, 05:03 PM i don't have a file, bit pointless, wouldn't keep up with it :p:p Mental file, I meant a mental file!
have i mentioned that i contradict myself alot without meaning to?, but i do refuse to believe that i have depressionYes you have mentioned that before. I do the same from time to time. Meds have reduced that tendency somewhat, but if something is 13 dimensional to me, it is just so hard to narrow the dimensions down...can you relate?
OK Refuse to have depression :p...and I gonna refuse to believe in gravity...I should be floating round by you sometime this evening, shall I just pop in or phone first? :D
your 4400 oneAhhh, actually? Yes, I believe that since neurodiversities are heritable, the sheer numbers will inevitably tip the balance. Its also a snarky little slap at certain members of society :soapbox:.
actually what i said was quite linearShow me your work, like all my mathematics teachers used to say. I might have missed something, since I have a toddler on my lap watching Teletubbies on YouTube...they are dancing to Will Smith's "Boom, Shake the Room" at this moment. :rolleyes: I do not believe there are any meds in existence to block that type of distraction!
fair enough ;)
Thanks :) I like to believe that when I am wrong, I can say I am wrong. Nice to meetcha, Kettle!
Crazy :cool:
DimensionX 08-07-06, 05:17 PM i just don't like to trouble people
same thing LoL
yep i think i can
lol, you gang leader you ;)
oh, theres so many different interprutations of that sentence :faint:
meaning theres so many interpetations of the quote in ur signature
meadd823 08-07-06, 05:21 PM Mind over matter? Very possible, but I think if gettting rid of depression or preventing it was as easy as simply denying it there'd be a lot less people in the world with it.
I like the above statement. One of the reasons heart attacks kill so many people is because many people refuse to believe they are having a problem with their heart, because one refused to believe they are having a heart attack does not prevent an ounce of heart muscle damage not does it prevent death.
very sure, kinda refuse to think that i have depression
Yep despite chest pain many refuse to think they have a problem with their heart. The river of denial if filled with many who simple do not want to believe there could be some thing not quiet right despite the obvious evidence to the contrary.
Refusing to believe you have depression seems almost like admitting to the fact you know this is more than a possibility. I am not trying to be difficult or rude maybe I could make my point clearer with this question :
How many times Dimension, do you refuse to believe you are female?
Exactly!
Your post seem more somber these days than they used to be (in my opinion.)
I am being honest here as I do not believe lying to placate would be the right thing to.
DimensionX 08-07-06, 05:33 PM the mind is extremely adaptive, i don't think that i have depression
yeah i know, i haven't been around people for a while so i guess i'm a lil lonely is all, i'm kind of a people person
Crazy~Feet 08-07-06, 05:41 PM oh, theres so many different interprutations of that sentence :faint::D AS Morpheus said when Neo told him he knew Kung-Fu "Show me!".
I love my sigline, and I am not above enjoying a bit of complimentary banter from time to time.
Crazy :cool:
chloe516 08-07-06, 05:46 PM I see the happy-go-lucky Dx when we talk at night. :p
I know it's difficult right now, it's lonely, frustrating, and stressful right now. Maybe keeping the suggestions of others in mind, while waiting to see if things improve after you get back to Uni may be a good idea.
Keeping everything in, while it may seem easier, can just make things more difficult in the long run. You know who you can talk to and that those people are always there for you. :p
meadd823 08-08-06, 08:08 AM I love my sigline,
Crazy either the last line in your signature is another language or my dyslexia has gotten much worse in the last 24 hours!
Crazy~Feet 08-08-06, 10:19 AM Crazy either the last line in your signature is another language or my dyslexia has gotten much worse in the last 24 hours!You are correct, it is in Latin ;). It means something when translated, and I wonder how many interpretations Dimen would have for that line too!
Crazy :cool:
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