I am not perfect. I wish I could be closer.

I had been living in darkness until November. Through a bad action on my part and the kindness and forgiving nature of someone I was able to start coming into the light.

I do not want other people to be right today. I do not want people to talk about how internet relationships can not work. I have tried so hard. I am tired of people who come into relationships and whisper ugly things about people they do not know. I have faults... yes... but who f&%$ing doesn't? This psychologist talking to my friend in Mexico told her to get away from me and that I was giving her guilt trips by telling her that I would like to talk to her more. You see, we used to talk everyday for a while on the internet and then the holidays came and she got busy. I handled it cool for a long time and then started asking her why I was not able to talk to her. I guess for a while she had been talking to this psychologist and the psychologist twisted me asking why she didn't want to talk into I was laying guilt trips on her. The psychologist also told her to stay off the internet. Who in the f&%$ does this pychologist think she is? I was wondering why my friend... mi compadra... mi amiga... mi ninita... mi amor... was not wanting to talk to me.:( I am crushed like a bug right now. She doesn't even know. I do not even know if she wants to talk to me right now. It was one day she was fine and we were in love and in two days she wasn't even sure if we were friends.

What can I do?

The irony is... she is the one I would go to with a problem like this.

No matter what...

I will be okay.

I love her, but with time... if she doesn't want anything to do with me... I will move on...

I just don't want to.

I just want one miracle. Just one.

I think I have used all of mine though. :(

umm... maybe it is just best to let go of it, move forward and get on with everyday life?

It clearly does not sound like something healthy for you or her in the first place. You should know that by now. Let it go, shut off the computer, and get healthy.


ME :D

I'm sorry to hear this, but I agree with Speedo....I think you should forget this person even though it's hard and move on

Thanx for the advice.

I don't know? Maybe sometimes it really is better to just believe in someone or something.

I am feeling better, I won't post here anymore.

Darlin.

I KNOW how it feels and I KNOW it'll take a while for the hurt to subside but you'll realise one day that it's probably for the best and everything happens for a reason or another.

Selena