keljohno
01-02-07, 10:59 AM
am so confused and down on myself today
me and my boyfiend have been off and on for 4 years.we have lived together b4 the last time was for 18mths but i ended it as i couldnt deal wit something .we have been split up for 5 mths and we are taking things slowly this time at getting back together n not moving back in together till at least sept
we do love each other
the thing is i have jus spoke to him and hes told me that maybe we dont match and are 2 different people.
the past couple of weeks we have seen alot of each other being xmas etc most of that time we have had a really good time. but he has turned round and said xmas night i ended up crying n bringing stuff up, at the mo it is hard cos we have been apart for 5 mths n xmas is a family time i spent it with him his parents and my son. it was great. xmas night wen it was jus me and him i cried cos i felt down, that i had to compete to see him etc etc but we sorted that out, boxing day we had a lovely day together whilst my son was at his dads. fri night he took me out for a meal n drinks which was lovely. the issue he had was that night that i complained so much during the meal. i now realise i did this i really didnt mean to be that horrible i didnt complain the rest of the night after the meal infact i sent him a txt while he has at the bar saying thanku for a lovely night out. then new yrs eve we decided on the sat night b4 he went out wit his mates that was gonna sit in wit me new yrs eve. but it never happen as on the sun he was that hungover he died a terirble hungover death and i got upset about it not spending new yr wit him. today is the first time we have spoke since he said that on sun. which is not like us.
he said that the past couple of days have reminded him of the way things usd to be. i dont do these things on purpose and really not trying to drive him away. i would be lost without him. his answer is maybe we should jus see each other once a week and take things really slow.
im trying so hard to be a new me and make things work and not be so sensitive towards things
he said he does love me loads but we jus need to work out how we can spend more time wit ach other as the last week 3 times i have had issues over something and thats alot. its been xmas n new yr ive been overwhelmed by lots, i have alot of stress at the mo too with my son, college work and trying to keep my self motivated to normal everyday things.
i feel like we will end up splitting up as i cant do things normally like anyone else..it does his head in that i live in clutter. he loves my son loads. he said sometimes we are a night mere together (am sure my son has adhd n is going to see a OT in 2 weeks time)
what am i doing so wrong, is everyones life like this wit relationships, am so scared am gonna end up lonley all my life
me and my boyfiend have been off and on for 4 years.we have lived together b4 the last time was for 18mths but i ended it as i couldnt deal wit something .we have been split up for 5 mths and we are taking things slowly this time at getting back together n not moving back in together till at least sept
we do love each other
the thing is i have jus spoke to him and hes told me that maybe we dont match and are 2 different people.
the past couple of weeks we have seen alot of each other being xmas etc most of that time we have had a really good time. but he has turned round and said xmas night i ended up crying n bringing stuff up, at the mo it is hard cos we have been apart for 5 mths n xmas is a family time i spent it with him his parents and my son. it was great. xmas night wen it was jus me and him i cried cos i felt down, that i had to compete to see him etc etc but we sorted that out, boxing day we had a lovely day together whilst my son was at his dads. fri night he took me out for a meal n drinks which was lovely. the issue he had was that night that i complained so much during the meal. i now realise i did this i really didnt mean to be that horrible i didnt complain the rest of the night after the meal infact i sent him a txt while he has at the bar saying thanku for a lovely night out. then new yrs eve we decided on the sat night b4 he went out wit his mates that was gonna sit in wit me new yrs eve. but it never happen as on the sun he was that hungover he died a terirble hungover death and i got upset about it not spending new yr wit him. today is the first time we have spoke since he said that on sun. which is not like us.
he said that the past couple of days have reminded him of the way things usd to be. i dont do these things on purpose and really not trying to drive him away. i would be lost without him. his answer is maybe we should jus see each other once a week and take things really slow.
im trying so hard to be a new me and make things work and not be so sensitive towards things
he said he does love me loads but we jus need to work out how we can spend more time wit ach other as the last week 3 times i have had issues over something and thats alot. its been xmas n new yr ive been overwhelmed by lots, i have alot of stress at the mo too with my son, college work and trying to keep my self motivated to normal everyday things.
i feel like we will end up splitting up as i cant do things normally like anyone else..it does his head in that i live in clutter. he loves my son loads. he said sometimes we are a night mere together (am sure my son has adhd n is going to see a OT in 2 weeks time)
what am i doing so wrong, is everyones life like this wit relationships, am so scared am gonna end up lonley all my life