Medication: Dex, just started 30mg to be taken 3xday.

I had to cancel my appointment with my psychaitrist and reschedule so I have to wait before I can talk to him about this.. Any advice would be helpful.

I am currently on 30mg of Dex. I have been sitting in front of my computer, hoping to get started on my (ALREADY) overdue homework, however, Im not having much luck.

It seems like I have lost all my interest and motivation in school at the moment... and I am having problems getting myself started on my homework.
Before this semester started I had plans to jump on assignments right away and get them done, while reviewing daily lectures, hoping to escape the stress and the constant catching up battle I normally end up with by middle to the end of the semester.

I am only in my 3rd week, and I have slacked off this entire time. I should be sitting here doing my homework.. but I really could care less about doing it, only that later I am going to hate myself because I didnt bother to do it.

I was hoping medication would help past this motivational hump. There is so much I wish I had accomplished in life by now.. and right now I have nothing to show. I feel like a failure. Everyone else is way ahead of me.. they have graduated (I wont be able to graduate with my class) they have good jobs, cars, homes, social lives, friends... and I have nothing.

Im not trying to beat myself up about it, but, when I know I want to do something (like do my homework) and I just cant make myself do it... it can get frustrating... I feel like I am constantly sabotoging myself.

Why do I always settle for average - below average in everything?

Sounds like the dexedrine mind-trap if theres one thing I hate about dexedrine is that infamous hyperfocus that'll drive you mad... but I eat sugar to break it up... tomorrow is my first day of class I haven't gotten the books in the mail yet... so I am sure I will have a gripe tomorrow. Maybe the dex is too low. I'm on twice that amount

hmm.. dex mind trap? Would you mind explaining this to me?

Too low a dose? hmm... never thought about that.

Thanks for the reply.

Veighen - I'm in the same boat you are, except I just started back to classes this week. I've been on dex for a few weeks now and started at 30mg at 6:30AM, then 15mg at noon, and another 15 at 3PM in an effort to help it last through my classes and then into the evening when it's study time. However, that dose was too high (sent my heartbeat skyrocketing) and now I'm on 15mg at 6:30 AM and 15mg at 1:30PM. I don't think I'm that deep in the mind trap just yet, but listening to you, it sounds like I'm headed in that direction. Even though I've decided I want to do very well this semester (I'm shooting for a 4.0 - we'll see if that happens), I'm still having issues. I've managed to make myself do some of the readings thus far, but it's taking forever and I'm still having issues in lecture. I also understand your frustration; I *should* graduate from college in Dec of this year (and just a semester late *wooo hooo*), but then what? I know I have to find some way of dealing with my ADHD (inactive type) that allows me to truly live up to my potential, rather than being satisfied with second best.

mspen1018 - I haven't run into the infamous hyperfocus while on dex (at least not yet), though I did on the other meds (and while I was unmedicated). In fact, on the dex it's been the opposite. I haven't been able to stick with a single task or activity for more than an hour or so and that's strange for me even when I'm unmedicated. Looks like I'll try medication #5 in a few weeks. Any suggestions in the meantime?

Oh yes the mind trap issue. A few years ago I was so bugged out on adderall AND straterra that I completely ignored real time and would hyperfocus on just about every little thought that came into my head. I got nothing done. Now I'm on no drugs, use excercise, and lots of coffee, a healthy diet to my benefit and I'm doing fine. I don't think medication is for everyone. Certainly if I was studying pharmocology or heat transfer I would probably need it. But since I'm a design major my classes are studio based and my studies are project based. I don't need to worry about tests or busy work so much.