methos8
01-26-07, 06:06 PM
Please enjoy my story. It is half meant to entertain and half for me to vent.
Well my story begins about a month and a half ago, when at work on a stint of graveyard shifts I discovered from my supervisor via email that a co-worker was blaming me for some big incident the month before.
Suffice to say this flared my then dorment anxiety for a bit. I won't bore with details but my name was cleared and all that remained was a well deserved apology (which I would never get).
So the new year came and after a brief holiday I came back onto dayshift (the world of the living as those banished to graveyard shift would call it) basically anxiety free (or whatever is normal for me).
Almost the next day after I returned that same co-worker was put on leave pending disipline for innappropriately touching another co-worker (female) and then having a screaming fit at her. I was on cloud 9 as I truely believed this was the end for him.
Fast forward to last week where we found out he was only receiving a short suspension. I and some co-workers (and actually lead by our supervisor) we plotted to get him to have another spaz which would surely lead to his termination.
Well now today is the first day I work with him again. I have no issue with the morality of what we are doing/hope to do but my inherent trait of avoiding confrontation and exhibiting oppositional behaviour has made it difficult for me to do my part.
My anxiety has spiked numerous times today and I can't take much more. Even worse is that my main contribution was going to be to confront him on the incident that he blamed me for in an effort to anger him and put him on the defensive. Well I don't think I can do it.
Even EVEN worse is that he's such a slimey manipulative guy who comes off as kind, polite and reasonable.
One last thing before I end this post, a little while ago when someone entered our office very suddenly, it scared the daylights out of me and I could feel my heart sink. Strangely enough, since then my anxiety symptoms have almost all but subsided. Could this be some new miracle treatment? Kinda like ripping the band-aid off really fast instead of the slow painful peeling.
Well my story begins about a month and a half ago, when at work on a stint of graveyard shifts I discovered from my supervisor via email that a co-worker was blaming me for some big incident the month before.
Suffice to say this flared my then dorment anxiety for a bit. I won't bore with details but my name was cleared and all that remained was a well deserved apology (which I would never get).
So the new year came and after a brief holiday I came back onto dayshift (the world of the living as those banished to graveyard shift would call it) basically anxiety free (or whatever is normal for me).
Almost the next day after I returned that same co-worker was put on leave pending disipline for innappropriately touching another co-worker (female) and then having a screaming fit at her. I was on cloud 9 as I truely believed this was the end for him.
Fast forward to last week where we found out he was only receiving a short suspension. I and some co-workers (and actually lead by our supervisor) we plotted to get him to have another spaz which would surely lead to his termination.
Well now today is the first day I work with him again. I have no issue with the morality of what we are doing/hope to do but my inherent trait of avoiding confrontation and exhibiting oppositional behaviour has made it difficult for me to do my part.
My anxiety has spiked numerous times today and I can't take much more. Even worse is that my main contribution was going to be to confront him on the incident that he blamed me for in an effort to anger him and put him on the defensive. Well I don't think I can do it.
Even EVEN worse is that he's such a slimey manipulative guy who comes off as kind, polite and reasonable.
One last thing before I end this post, a little while ago when someone entered our office very suddenly, it scared the daylights out of me and I could feel my heart sink. Strangely enough, since then my anxiety symptoms have almost all but subsided. Could this be some new miracle treatment? Kinda like ripping the band-aid off really fast instead of the slow painful peeling.