I hope I'm posting this in the right place.

The fact that I can't get ADD meds (Adderall) any time I want is a major source of anxiety to me. I find myself hoarding the meds - rationing, counting how many pills I have remaining, etc. I'm only happy when I have an extra unstarted bottle.

Now that I live in NY state though, the prescription is only good for 1 month. That means I have to see the doctor every month ($100 per visit) - in addition to meds cost WITHOUT insurance, it's a serious burden. It really bothers me. I'm unemployed and my best prospect of a job is 2 months away, so for at least the next 6 months I won't have health insurance. I'm going to run out of cash for the doctor! At least meds I can put on the credit card.

My appointment is coming up next week, and I find myself ridden with anxiety. I want more than just one month's supply! I want to ask for Adderall XR (still undecided on what dosage I want, probably 20 mg - when I had 15 mg pills, 1 wasn't enough, and 2 was too much), but I also want the regular Adderall too, as a supplement to the XR. Will she do it for me? I would never in the world sell my meds - I need them too much! I'm so scared that I'll run out and I won't be able to get more when I need them. Ooh, I know. I will lie about how much dosage I need. Don't judge me, it's not a bad thing when it's the key to my peace of mind. I don't abuse meds! My problem is that I don't take them as regularly as I should because of my fear of running out.

So I looked around the forum, and apparently my dosage isn't high at all, and a lot of people combine XR and IR, and no one mentioned running out of meds as a problem. I'm still very scared that she's going to say "no."

Please tell me it's going to be alright... I'm also battling depression of some sort and mood swings. I was considering asking for an anti-depressant, but after doing extensive research on wikipedia, I know that the anti-depressive effects I get from Adderall (especially XR) is the same thing I'd get from any other meds. You see, I *need* it. And I need to be not afraid to use it.

I'm still very scared that she's going to say "no."<!-- / message --> that's the worst she can do..you'll never know if you don't ask..

good luck..

that's the worst she can do..you'll never know if you don't ask..

good luck..Then I don't get the meds, and I've spent the cash I've saved up for the occasion :( That's the part where it's an irrational fear - I know I'm going to ask, but I still can't help worrying about what may happen.

Sorry to be so blunt, but you seem to be very obsessive about your meds, and it seems to be causing you a lot of unneccesary stress.

I'd advise you to take a breif holiday, relax, and don't bring any medication with you.

Ooh, I just remembered something :D Tax refund time! A very timely infusion of funds is imminent.

Sorry to be so blunt, but you seem to be very obsessive about your meds, they are an aid, not something you absolutely need.

I'd advise you to take a brief holiday, relax, and don't bring any medication with you.I've been unemployed for months, I've done enough relaxing to last me a decade. Without meds (and I've gone several weeks without in these months), I slowly but steadily slip into depression.

Of course I'm obsessive about them - they are my link to a life worth living, one in which I have confidence and self-respect.

Just remember they are an aid, it's you who's in control of your life, not your meds.

my doctor said she could write the script and give it to the people at the reception desk so that i could just pick up the script w.o seeing her, bc it's unneccesarry to go every month once the dose is stabilized. maybe you could arrange something like that w/ your doctor?

my doctor said she could write the script and give it to the people at the reception desk so that i could just pick up the script w.o seeing her, bc it's unneccesarry to go every month once the dose is stabilized. maybe you could arrange something like that w/ your doctor?Same thing here. I call a day or so before I run out. I pick up the script without seeing the doctor.

Well put routhy, you have the power to be responsible and take the meds as needed. I understand you are not abusing the meds but it does sound like you are getting some OCD related to the adderall. Ask the doctor about maybe a generic? I don't know if there is a generic adderall as I don't take it but it never hurts to try. I would speak with the doctor to determine the best dose for you. routhy is right in saying you may need a "drug holiday" to relax and take some time being off the meds to help reasses your current lifestyle and see if you can get by some days without the meds in your system. Good Luck...

Andy...

Just remember they are an aid, it's you who's in control of your life, not your meds.