Hi all

I just wondered if anybody else deals with this problem. I guess I have narrowed it down to not remembering what is going on in others lives. I am staying in a small hostel and their is a real kind of "big family" vibe to it. Except, I don't fit in. I am always quiet and reserved and socially anxious. I have worked out that a big part of this is because I can never remember what is going on in these people lives. I might say "Where have you been" and then they would tell me they have been wherever and that we had had a big conversation about it b4 they left.
I think people just think I am unfriendly but I am really just anxious. Also, when I am unmedicated I can't remember faces, and I can't remember if I have said good morning to that particular person that day.
I very much feel an outcast and I have decided to leave where I am at. This has been a bit of an upsetting experience because I wanted to go backpacking overseas and meet people etc etc but it seems like there is little point...especially as I just turned 29. I have kinda got over the whole getting smashed and partying thing