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oddjobace
02-16-07, 11:08 AM
Learning to love yourself is not always easy with ADD. The world doesn't always lend itself to the ADDer, in me. So often I forget to thank my creator for giving me such an interesting and unique life.

There is and will never be another just like me. While most others live a life that is far more simple, mine is complex and many times very exciting and interesting. Helen Keller once said "Life is an adventure or nothing at all". How true for the ADDer.

While the Non-ADDer was meeting the new employee, the new company was meeting me.

While The Non-ADDer was having a conversation with friends, I learned how to patch up and mend a mis-spoken word I used.

While The Non-ADDer loaded up the moving truck, I found a great way to save by recruiting friends with vans and had a party afterward.

While the non-ADDer simply goes of to work, I figure out ways to get myself to work. As they simply returned there VHS tape to the rental, I learner how to repair the one that got run over by the car behind me.

While the non-ADDer had there car towed to the repair shop for repairs where they would wait for days, I couldn't afford that, I learning how to install the alternator myself in hours.

While the Non-ADDer was learning about History in class, I was learning how the classroom relationship dynamics worked, how the lawnmower guy balanced himself on the side of the hill outside, and how the pencil sharpener was poorly designed.

While the Non-ADDer was learning new things in class, I was learning to have compassion, while learning along side the mentally ill in special education

While the Non-ADDer gets nervious at the thought of an interview, I see it as a quest and take control and love the ride.

While some Non-ADDers never will see people for who they are, I have a great ability to know them in the first meeting.

While the Non-ADDer sees the glass half full, I see how it bubbles up on the sides and begin to explore the reason why.

While the Non-Adder drove to the campsite and had roasted marshmellows, I found a new way that was much more scenic and everyone else would love it too.

While the Non-ADDer enjoyed his lifelong career, I have had multiple careers.

While they celebrated 20 years at thier job, I celebrated 60 or more first days.

While the non-ADDer see the same friends for a lifetime, I have been friends with hundreds of people young, old, rich, poor, healthy and disabled.

I have had many interesting chapters and I'm currently writing my next chapter.

While the Non-ADDer picks themselves up and tries again, I do too for the hundredth time and this time do it differant once again.

Sometimes life can be hard to be thankful for. It's all a perspective I guess.

I choose to love the uniqueness of me. I will alway be, me.

Nova
02-16-07, 11:46 AM
You are beautiful, Ace.

Thank you for sharing your beautiful 'living' poem.

oddjobace
02-18-07, 01:22 PM
You are beautiful, Ace.

Thank you for sharing your beautiful 'living' poem.
I have no other way to deal with all that is differant in me but to accept it and call it just "it is, what it is".

Writing this brought out all kinds of mixed emotions, sort've a feeling of belonging in the big picture and feeling special for it.

Since I've been on Adderal for a couple of weeks now. after going years without, the thoughts and contructive coping coming flowing out of my head onto the paper. Or e-mail forum.

Thanks for seeing that I am beautiful too.

Nova
02-18-07, 01:48 PM
You could start keeping a Journal, like I've been doing, of all your creative 'thoughts'.

You can either purchase one from any bookstore, or create a virtual one online (there are many 'free' sites available, for public ones or ones that entail membership, if you want to go that route).

I do both..I have a Journal that I keep in my purse (yeah..I'm a 'real' Girly Girl), that I jot down 'creative' thoughts when they 'hit' me..

And I also have a Journal on my Notebook.


This is just a suggestion, by the way.
I'm not 'telling' you to *do* anything.

I don't like when others tell me to *do* anything, lol !

Brightest Wishes to You, for All Ways !

oddjobace
02-19-07, 05:12 PM
Thanks Nova, I have bits and pieces of journals from years and years. Most just small ideas and unusual thoughts that pop into my head. I'm going to keep on trying.

REgards