Sorry, changed my mind. Too personal to burden you all with it.

I'm sorry. This is hard. It helped just typing it out, though.

Take your time.. Just writing it down for yourself sure helps a lot. I entered the thread after you deleted the original text, so I don't know what you wrote, but I can feel you... This forum has a bunch of friendly folks around, so we'll all be here when and if you are ready to share. Take it easy, and whatever it was, you're not alone.

Hi zahra...it's ok you can come back to it if you like.

We do have a journaling section in our creative endeavors section. You can post all you like, no one can respond, except the occasional pm for encouragement, but that's not often. It's very helpful keeping track of, well, anything. Mine is 16 pages long! I talk to myself a lot. But it really helped.