piglet
03-14-07, 02:33 PM
So I'm at the nurses' station, it's about 3 a.m., and I've felt a little off all night, but not unusual for me; a little disembodied, ya know? Ate lunch about noon, slept from 1 until 4 pm. Took my Adderall 10 mg at 4 pm, went to work, shift starts at 6:45. Ate a protein bar at around 10:30 pm, a salad with cheese and sunflower seeds around midnight, took 5 mg of Adderall at about 1 a.m., half a banana around 2:30. So not a LOT to eat, but not fasting, either. Couple a cups of coffee in there, too. I've been going thru the usual sort of worknight, and now I'm putting a chart together on a patient that just came in, sitting at the nurses' station, and felt a little dozy all of a sudden, closed my eyes... and next thing I know, people are all around me, shaking me, speaking in demanding tones of voice... it takes me a couple moments to get my voice to work to answer them. I got up after a couple minutes, walked a few steps to the gurney and they whoooshed me down to the ER for a workup; ecg, blood draw, IVF. So nothing much found.... did see a RBBB on the ECG. Not sure that's significant, but of course will f/u on it with my doc. Blood tests showed nothing. Urine test showed nothing.
Now it's the next day and I still feel spacey; now have a cough and scratchy throat, too. Seems to be the bug that's been going around my family for a few weeks. However, isn't fainting a bit extreme as a first sypmtom of flu?
Now, if it were Adderall related, wouldn't it be increased HR and hypertension, rather than the hr 60-70, and bp around 98/58ish that I was displaying? I have all sorts of panic inducing scenarios going around that I'm laboriously beating down until I can deal with this in an informed manner; you know, with a cardiologist, or a neurologist, etc. No need to half-assedly freak out; I can freak out much, much better fully-assedly with all the correct information:rolleyes:
I'm under more stress than I'd like to be; I'm of course the Mom, which makes me the major connecting hub of the household; hubby and kids all bounce things off me, which of course pulls on my mind but is also what I want; I love that they need me and want my input and enjoy me. Just, sometimes I suffer from an overabundance of blessings and it's overwhleming. And now my alzheimer's afflicted Mom is living with me and it's a bit stressful. She's anxious and confused, and makes tremndous effort to be no bother, which means she tiptoes soundlessly around the house and sneaks up on me, scaring the kittens outta me when she is suddenly THERE with a question.
Now, a little background; in looking back over my life I can see inattentive ADD signs since I was a little girl. And now, at the ripe old age of 45, I'm reading that eating disorders can be related to ADD, as a form of self-medication. And I've been strugglng with bulimia since I was 13. Last seven years I've made tremendous strides in dealing with it; all sorts of different things I've tried, mostly amount to stepping forward and saying to all around me "Here I am, you've depended on me for years and I've been therefor you, and THIS is what I need from you, and you need to step up to the plate". And to myself, too, learning not to take myself for granted and put myself last. Self-hypnosis helped a lot, too; but the Adderall is really giving me that last little bit of help with it. I can go through a day and not obsess; I can eat a few bites of something "bad" and stop; it's like I have a time machine, something to help me step into the spaces between the thought and acting on it, when I can question "I this going to get me where I want to be?". So I'd really hate to give up theAdderall. I'm on 20 mg daily, not very much; some days I have not taken any, just because, you know, I'm worried about being dependent on ever-increasing doses. I've only been on it 6 weeks or so.
Anyone had any experience with this as a side effect of Adderall? I have scanned the boards and googled it and not found mention of it.
And I'm of course concerned now about my job. I said to the ER people that I'm on a trial of Adderall; assuming they did a drug screen, it will show up; I'm not an employee, exactly, I'm on a contract... been re-signing every thirteen weeks for three anda half years, now, but all they have to do is not resign me, and I'd not have any recourse. And I really like this job. I'd find another but I like this one a lot. Damn.
Now it's the next day and I still feel spacey; now have a cough and scratchy throat, too. Seems to be the bug that's been going around my family for a few weeks. However, isn't fainting a bit extreme as a first sypmtom of flu?
Now, if it were Adderall related, wouldn't it be increased HR and hypertension, rather than the hr 60-70, and bp around 98/58ish that I was displaying? I have all sorts of panic inducing scenarios going around that I'm laboriously beating down until I can deal with this in an informed manner; you know, with a cardiologist, or a neurologist, etc. No need to half-assedly freak out; I can freak out much, much better fully-assedly with all the correct information:rolleyes:
I'm under more stress than I'd like to be; I'm of course the Mom, which makes me the major connecting hub of the household; hubby and kids all bounce things off me, which of course pulls on my mind but is also what I want; I love that they need me and want my input and enjoy me. Just, sometimes I suffer from an overabundance of blessings and it's overwhleming. And now my alzheimer's afflicted Mom is living with me and it's a bit stressful. She's anxious and confused, and makes tremndous effort to be no bother, which means she tiptoes soundlessly around the house and sneaks up on me, scaring the kittens outta me when she is suddenly THERE with a question.
Now, a little background; in looking back over my life I can see inattentive ADD signs since I was a little girl. And now, at the ripe old age of 45, I'm reading that eating disorders can be related to ADD, as a form of self-medication. And I've been strugglng with bulimia since I was 13. Last seven years I've made tremendous strides in dealing with it; all sorts of different things I've tried, mostly amount to stepping forward and saying to all around me "Here I am, you've depended on me for years and I've been therefor you, and THIS is what I need from you, and you need to step up to the plate". And to myself, too, learning not to take myself for granted and put myself last. Self-hypnosis helped a lot, too; but the Adderall is really giving me that last little bit of help with it. I can go through a day and not obsess; I can eat a few bites of something "bad" and stop; it's like I have a time machine, something to help me step into the spaces between the thought and acting on it, when I can question "I this going to get me where I want to be?". So I'd really hate to give up theAdderall. I'm on 20 mg daily, not very much; some days I have not taken any, just because, you know, I'm worried about being dependent on ever-increasing doses. I've only been on it 6 weeks or so.
Anyone had any experience with this as a side effect of Adderall? I have scanned the boards and googled it and not found mention of it.
And I'm of course concerned now about my job. I said to the ER people that I'm on a trial of Adderall; assuming they did a drug screen, it will show up; I'm not an employee, exactly, I'm on a contract... been re-signing every thirteen weeks for three anda half years, now, but all they have to do is not resign me, and I'd not have any recourse. And I really like this job. I'd find another but I like this one a lot. Damn.