Hi Everyone.

I am a med student, so I don't really think the college/university forum is for me, or this complaint. Also, I don't want to discourage pre-med students there.

I don't know why I'm even in med school. Someone like me shouldn't try things like this, because I effing SUCK at being a med student. I have an exam on Friday that I can't even begin to explain how little I have studied for it. My significant other brought me to the library today and was so sweet. he said he'd stay here until 4AM if that's what it takes. Problem is I've been here for 4 hours and I'm still not studying.

Within the last 4 hours, when I try to start studying, nothing is sticking, and I get so frustrated that I just quit again. Somehow time is slipping by so fast, and I just want to cry.

This goes on before every single exam. I barely pass most of the time (it's a pass/fail system, thank god), and sometimes I don't pass.

Why am I even here? I am a total f*** up. I hate life right now, and I hate myself. I wish I could just study like normal people, jesus christ.

my peers are always super amazed at how I get by with so little work, but they don't see that I'm barely hanging on and could drop of the edge at any moment. They don't see the anguish and despair at 3AM when I am neither studying nor sleeping.

I'm not really sure if I'm asking anything here. I'm just desperate and so tired of school, and no one to relate to. med school is hard on people without add. i think it's sucking the life out of me. which is sad, because being a doctor has always been my dream, since I was a kid.

and one more thing: I am SO SO tired of the people that tell me "you could do so much better if you wanted to". F. U. seriously.

okay, i'm done. i don't know what i'm going to do now.

Dont you hate it when people tell you that you could do better... I want to make those people live one day in my shoes.... I dont know what to say but I know things will be alright.... I am sure you have heard that too... Anyway here are some Happy Thoughts being sent your way....

hugs...I can just feel your frustration..

that reminds me of a question I once heard
"what do you call the person who came first in medical school?"
DOCTOR
then
"what do you call the person who came last in medical school?"
DOCTOR

hang in there....you have done fantastic to get there :-)

you guys are so sweet. doing much better now after some pizza and 10mg of ritalin. i hope i can keep going all night! Having this forum to vent and receive comments from people who can relate is such a huge help! I seriously hope I can keep studying now. . . my doc said I could take ritalin 10mg every 2 hours if it gets bad. I'm not sure if that still applies since I already took all my Adderall for the day, but I'm desperate.


I am nearing the end of the 'sit down and study' focused part of med school (only two more exams until the end of 2nd year). Next I go learn in the hospital, which should be a lot better. I am not built for the sitting down and studying thing.

Thanks again:)

I agree with Tracy.
My cousin went to Med school, and didn't get great grades.
I mean, he had as low as you could get and still be in school.
He had to become and Osteopath, to even keep his medical degree.
Then, he was allowed to go back, and get his MD.
So now he's an Allergist with all the certifications that a Dr with straight A's has.
His younger brother got straight A's, and became a Dermatologist.
You can do this.
If you are in Med School, you have already crossed a major hump.
You have a lot of support (from what you have said), and we are always here 24/7. Okay we may have a delay in answering you, but we will get back to you.
Promise. :D

All I can say is that I hope my doctor is as real and human as you are when I am treated. Good luck!

Have you checked out any of the Hallowell books (especially his first)? Or looked at his site? He went through med school with undiagnosed ADD, and gives some tips he picked up in med school. You can also email him through his site.

Med school is heck (come from a family of doctors) but you can make it. Do you have a friend or significant other who can be your cheerleader and keep you on task? That's what got my grandfather through his med school; my grandmother saying she was "going to marry a doctor" when he started getting down on his work. He's now a world renowned oncologist and says he owes it to her. My cousin (an anethesiologist sp?) relied on a close group of friends who would all buck each other up.

Btw. They are part of the ADD line in my family, just don't want to admit it.