This semester for the most part has been good. I started taking meds about a month into the semester and wow my tests grades changed dramatically. My first test in Calc III was a 75 and then it went to a 97 and a 90.

Currently I am trying to keep an A in the class but this last section of stuff that we have been dealing with has made me so frustrated I cant even see straight.

Well today was the breaking point, I worked for three hours and got no where on my review set (Double integrals). That just upset me to no end, I know the concepts of the integrals but forgot how to integrate some of the more complicated things. My wife was trying to help me out and telling me to take a break or call an friend for some help but I didnt want to hear it. I didnt have time to take a break. I went down stairs and slammed the door to the bonus room (computer/study room). I couldnt find a quiet corner fast enough and just broke down in the hall way.

I guess I just cracked under the pressure that I put on my self to do well especially on this test. I just cant take not doing well on this test since I have done so well on the others. Bad thing is I hate putting my wife though this because I know she feels helpless, both when it comes to helping me with my work and with me emotionally.

I just dont know what to do, I want to do well but hours and hours to trying have got me nowhere. I just get a feeling of helpless ness, I cant help myself and cant find anybody to help me.

Anybody else ever break under their own pressue?
Also any help with integrals would be much appreciated.

I can do regular integrals really good(partial fractions,int by part,u-sub&trig-sub, power series representations etc.), next semester the course work introduces double and triple integrals. And ohh noo, I really hope they aren't hard!! I was starting to get the feeling that I could do any maths, as long as I learn it in the right order, so is double integrals where things start getting near impossible?

NA double and triple integrals are actually easy. You just have several different variables that you are working with. And you keep one constant while you are integrating the other.
I ended up getting an A in Calc III so if you ever need help I think I do know what im doing. It just gets frustrating at times.

Nice job on earning the A, how many more semesters of maths are you going to take?