I love these forums and all the great support.. I just have to keep coming back and bugging you all for more advice! :p


Problem: I need to go back to college. I dont have much time, because, I am in a situation where I am able to focus on school without worring about additional living expenses (rent,bills) BUT, I dont have much time left to stay her. So I REALLY need to decided either......

A) finish the program I started. which I am not all the interested in, but, have already invested tons of loan money into. :eek:


Pros: I would finish it sooner then I would if I started all over again.

I already know whats "involved" in the program and know if I am capable of doing it. I.E too hard to understand or not...



CONS: I find it boring.

I dont really want to be doing this for the rest of my life.
I dont get a feeling of reward or self satisfaction from it.

B)Start a new program.



Pros:

It may be something I am interested in
Starting fresh is always a good feeling.
I might be able to finish it because I like what I am doing.



CONS:

Have no idea if I will change my mind on if I like it or not later.
Will cost MORE money that I dont really have.
Will take LONGER to finish.
Dont know if I will even be capable of doing it.
The potential for failure is unknown and therefore scary!
EXTRAS: I am always up and down about WHAT I like to do, and, what I WANT to do. One minute its one thing.. the next minute its something VERY different. Im afraid of NOT KNOWING what it is I REALLY want to do.

EXTRA EXTRAS: about medication: The things I am interested in vary and are different while I am ON and OFF my Adderall. So,.. I am having difficulty distinguishing between what feelings and ideas are better.


Do, I listen to my Adderall opinions?
Or my non Adderall opinions?
either way, there is nothing that really jumps out at me.. or has my name written all over it. One minute I think I am capable of ANYTHING, and, the next minute... Im capable of NOTHING!

Help?


p.s Im running out of decision making time! :eek:
-V

Veighen, how close to finishing your course work are you?

Hey, thanks for replying.

Well because I messed up last semester, I am about 1.5 finished. I still have about 2 years to do. :eek:

If I started all over.. then I would be looking at 3. :(

<mother mode ON>



For goodness sake, if you choose to complete school, do a Program in which you have a STRONG INTEREST and APTITUDE (ability).

That is what ADHDers have to do, or we will never get the work & readings done! <G>

It has to be strongly INTERNALLY motivated.

Your school's career/guidance/counselling centre should have interest/aptitude tests for low rates or free. (My college and univ did.)

<mother mode OFF>

Hey, thanks for replying.

Well because I messed up last semester, I am about 1.5 finished. I still have about 2 years to do. :eek:

If I started all over.. then I would be looking at 3. :(Two years to complete coursework for a field you don't want to work in. Won't that mean having to start all over again in two years?

Thanks, you are both very right.

However, when I first starting this last course (2nd attempt at college) I was enthusiastic, interested, and, excited about it.

As time past....I lost all interest and motivation.

This is what I am afraid of happening again. Starting something else (3rd time) and end up not finishing it.. or losing interest.

One minute I think its one thing.. the next minute I think I should do something else... :faint: