alexan33
05-05-07, 09:53 PM
hey all,
second day on adderall 5 mg ir twice a day. i have honestly felt absolutely nothing--maybe the only thing is difficulty making decisions. not speedy though, no high (not that i need or want it), and no brain fog clearing.
that's my big deal, brain fog--i was originally dx bipolar II in 1998, but the bipolar meds have never seemed to do a thing. i would be fine for months and then wake up with a foggy feeling between my eyes in my forehead and would progressively get worse confusion, forgetfullness, mind racing, cant read a paragraph without bouncing sentences, socially afraid (even with best friends), have nothing to say--they called it bipolar, meds me-nothing worked, it seemed like it just went away on it's own after a time period of 3 months each time (no joke pretty much exactly), back to normal--way hyper , always have something to say, careless, carefree, sort of nuts people say--but good and productive in everything i did.
well this time it has been different and worse, it has now been since september, same sx but even worse. took time off of work to get my head straight because it has been so long faking it tried it all and my doc is now leaning towards add meds because nothing has worked, but he is very weak on the titrate up deal, he gave me 5mg ir twice a day for a month and said i'll see you in two weeks. didn't want to titrate up or anything.
so i was wondering if any of you have had my sx and what has worked for you. i miss my life, wife, daughter and am confused on where this is going for me. i have scheduled an mri and a neuro consult to rule out a 9 lb tumor in my head (would be nice--at least i'd know!!)
just sort of lost for the last 8 months and don't know how much longer i can keep going through the motions
thanks
second day on adderall 5 mg ir twice a day. i have honestly felt absolutely nothing--maybe the only thing is difficulty making decisions. not speedy though, no high (not that i need or want it), and no brain fog clearing.
that's my big deal, brain fog--i was originally dx bipolar II in 1998, but the bipolar meds have never seemed to do a thing. i would be fine for months and then wake up with a foggy feeling between my eyes in my forehead and would progressively get worse confusion, forgetfullness, mind racing, cant read a paragraph without bouncing sentences, socially afraid (even with best friends), have nothing to say--they called it bipolar, meds me-nothing worked, it seemed like it just went away on it's own after a time period of 3 months each time (no joke pretty much exactly), back to normal--way hyper , always have something to say, careless, carefree, sort of nuts people say--but good and productive in everything i did.
well this time it has been different and worse, it has now been since september, same sx but even worse. took time off of work to get my head straight because it has been so long faking it tried it all and my doc is now leaning towards add meds because nothing has worked, but he is very weak on the titrate up deal, he gave me 5mg ir twice a day for a month and said i'll see you in two weeks. didn't want to titrate up or anything.
so i was wondering if any of you have had my sx and what has worked for you. i miss my life, wife, daughter and am confused on where this is going for me. i have scheduled an mri and a neuro consult to rule out a 9 lb tumor in my head (would be nice--at least i'd know!!)
just sort of lost for the last 8 months and don't know how much longer i can keep going through the motions
thanks